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    <itunes:title>When the Goalpost Stops Moving with Maurice Philogene</itunes:title>
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    <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><b>Jennifer Flynn</b> is the founder of The Balance Maven and a strategic advisor to high-performing founders. In this conversation, she talks about what it means to be the person others bring things to while still carrying a full human life of her own.</p><p>Jennifer names the pressure to appear put together, the body’s signals when that pressure gets too high, and the cost of masking her neurodivergence in rooms where directness, intuition, and “muchness” are not always easy for others to receive. She also speaks plainly about learning to be on the receiving end of support.</p><p>This episode is for the listener who is used to being capable, useful, and needed, but knows there are parts of their life they can no longer carry alone.</p><p><b>Timestamps</b></p><p>00:00 Opening: “it takes a village”</p><p>01:20 How The Balance Maven began with Jennifer’s own search for balance</p><p>03:35 Being the person people bring things to</p><p>06:35 How imbalance shows up in the body before the mind catches up</p><p>09:10 The pressure to look put together when people expect you to have answers</p><p>12:05 Jennifer’s silo metaphor for internal steadiness and external pressure</p><p>15:00 Roots, crowns, seeds, and the unseen work of growth</p><p>20:15 Why growth is messy and why that does not make it a problem</p><p>23:15 Retreat, rest, recomposition, and recalibration</p><p>25:45 Where Jennifer goes when she needs help</p><p>29:15 What it took to receive support instead of only giving it</p><p>32:00 Neurodivergence, masking, and reclaiming “muchness”</p><p>37:30 The cost of masking in professional rooms</p><p>43:20 What Jennifer wants people carrying it alone to know</p><p><b>Guest bio</b></p><p>Jennifer Flynn is a strategic advisor and the founder of The Balance Maven. She works with high-performing founders who are successful on paper but carrying a great deal behind the scenes. Her work brings together intuition, emotional intelligence, leadership, and strategy, with an emphasis on alignment before growth, systems, and scale.</p><p><b>About Carla<br/><br/></b>Carla Royal works privately with a small number of founders and leaders whose decisions carry real consequence. Most of them already have excellent advisers. What they rarely have is someone who knows the person carrying the company and can stay with the questions that cannot be answered inside it. She works underneath performance, where judgment, timing, and steadiness are formed before they appear in the room. Carla Royal, M.Ed., is a Certified Integral Master Coach™ with more than three decades of experience spanning psychology, coaching, and long-term private work with founders and senior leaders.</p><p><b>Links</b></p><p>Jennifer Flynn: <a href='https://thebalancemaven.com/'>https://thebalancemaven.com/</a></p><p>Carla Royal: <a href='https://carlaroyal.com'>https://carlaroyal.com</a></p><p><b>About the show</b></p><p>What Holds is a podcast about the work that holds what founders and leaders are building. Each conversation looks beneath performance, self-sufficiency, and success into what people carry, what it costs, and what becomes possible when they are no longer carrying it alone.</p><p>If this conversation brings someone to mind, send it to them.</p>]]></content:encoded>
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