More Wed, 01 Apr 2026 19:29:24 +0100 https://more.buzzsprout.com en-gb © 2026 More yes 91f16416-f06c-5340-af10-d6af261bbdd6 hello@tobyandrudy.com Toby & Rudy episodic true It’s what we chased.


More escape. More numbness. More validation. More noise.


Until more took everything.


This is More - a podcast hosted by people who’ve lived addiction, mental  illness,trauma, and neurodiversity from the inside out. We’ve hit rock bottom. We’ve burned things down. And we’ve rebuilt ourselves in ways no textbook could teach.


These aren’t polished success stories or borrowed wisdom.


This is real conversation from people who’ve walked through chaos and come back with scars, insight, and hard-earned clarity.


We talk about what happens when coping mechanisms become cages.
When survival becomes identity.
When you realise the life you’re living is killing you.

And then, what comes next.


More is about recovery without clichés. Healing without shame. Growth without gurus. 

It’s about finding alternative ways to live when the old ones stop working.


If you’ve ever felt broken, different, addicted, overwhelmed, misunderstood...or simply hungry for something deeper, this space is for you.


No more stuff.
No more distraction.

More truth.
More connection.
More life.

Welcome to More.

]]> Buzzsprout (https://www.buzzsprout.com) Neruoaffirming,addiction,audhd,autism,adhd,neurodiverse,recovery,mental health,PTSD,anonymous,trauma,anxiety,dual diagnosis,Gabor mate Toby & Rudy hello@tobyandrudy.com https://storage.buzzsprout.com/e1kl9z1en8dir21b8xf8jx9ueddn?.jpg More No Rest for the Wired: Sleep, Trauma, CPTSD and the Exhaustion Nobody Talks About No Rest for the Wired: Sleep, Trauma, CPTSD and the Exhaustion Nobody Talks About Everyone tells you to get more sleep. Nobody tells you what to do when your nervous system treats sleep like a threat.

In this episode of More, Toby and Rudy get honest about something that touches almost every person living with trauma, CPTSD, addiction or neurodivergence. And something that almost never gets a proper conversation. Not the tired version of sleep advice you've heard a hundred times. The real version. What it actually feels like when rest itself becomes the thing you can't have.

They dig into the science of why trauma hijacks sleep, what years of sleep debt genuinely does to your brain and your mental state, drawing on the research of neuroscientist Matthew Walker PhD and his landmark work Why We Sleep. And they get into why standard sleep hygiene advice completely misses the point for nervous systems shaped by trauma.

This is a raw, unfiltered conversation from two men with lived experience of Big T trauma, complex PTSD, addiction recovery, ADHD and chronic pain. No performance. No polish. Just honest talk about the nights, the nightmares, and what has slowly started to help.

What we get into:

The reason up to 90% of people with CPTSD experience significant sleep problems, and why it's a core symptom not a side effect. What Matthew Walker's research shows about sleep debt and what chronic deprivation actually does to your brain, your emotions and your decision making. Why less than 1% of people can genuinely function on six hours. How trauma nightmares work, why they keep replaying, and what the brain is trying to do when it drags you back there night after night. The ADHD sleep crisis, racing minds, delayed body clocks and why 67% of people with ADHD struggle to sleep. The chronic pain and sleep loop, how each one makes the other worse, and how substances became the answer for years until they stopped working. And what actually helps, including EMDR, somatic work, Imagery Rehearsal Therapy, breathwork and an honest conversation about sleep medication in recovery.

If you've ever dreaded going to bed, woken up more exhausted than when you closed your eyes, or spent years running on empty, this one is for you.

More is hosted by Toby Lerone and Rudy Youngblood, two men with lived experience of addiction, trauma, mental health and neurodiversity. Recorded in a single take. Unedited. Unfiltered.


LINKS:-

https://youtu.be/30VMIEmA114 - 54321 technique 


https://youtu.be/zq07gbFLCAs - box breathing in 5’s


https://youtu.be/k_2feptc-Bg - Matthew walker PHD on another podcast


source:%20The%20Mind%20Company https://share.google/QYY4TBrzhlnnSkjuA - Balance, guided meditation app


https://www.headspace.com/app - bedtime story’s for adults


https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Lord_of_the_Rings_(film_series) - lord of the rings-watch it Rudy you weirdo haha



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CPTSD, Complex PTSD, Trauma and Sleep, Sleep Deprivation, Mental Health, PTSD Nightmares, Trauma Recovery, Matthew Walker, Why We Sleep, Sleep Debt, ADHD and Sleep, Neurodivergent, Insomnia, Chronic Pain, Addiction Recovery, Men's Mental Health, Nervous System Regulation, Hypervigilance, Somatic Healing, EMDR, Sleep Disorders, Trauma Podcast, Lived Experience, Recovery Podcast, Sleep and Anxiety, Sleep and Depression, REM Sleep, Polyvagal Theory, More Podcast


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]]> Everyone tells you to get more sleep. Nobody tells you what to do when your nervous system treats sleep like a threat.

In this episode of More, Toby and Rudy get honest about something that touches almost every person living with trauma, CPTSD, addiction or neurodivergence. And something that almost never gets a proper conversation. Not the tired version of sleep advice you've heard a hundred times. The real version. What it actually feels like when rest itself becomes the thing you can't have.

They dig into the science of why trauma hijacks sleep, what years of sleep debt genuinely does to your brain and your mental state, drawing on the research of neuroscientist Matthew Walker PhD and his landmark work Why We Sleep. And they get into why standard sleep hygiene advice completely misses the point for nervous systems shaped by trauma.

This is a raw, unfiltered conversation from two men with lived experience of Big T trauma, complex PTSD, addiction recovery, ADHD and chronic pain. No performance. No polish. Just honest talk about the nights, the nightmares, and what has slowly started to help.

What we get into:

The reason up to 90% of people with CPTSD experience significant sleep problems, and why it's a core symptom not a side effect. What Matthew Walker's research shows about sleep debt and what chronic deprivation actually does to your brain, your emotions and your decision making. Why less than 1% of people can genuinely function on six hours. How trauma nightmares work, why they keep replaying, and what the brain is trying to do when it drags you back there night after night. The ADHD sleep crisis, racing minds, delayed body clocks and why 67% of people with ADHD struggle to sleep. The chronic pain and sleep loop, how each one makes the other worse, and how substances became the answer for years until they stopped working. And what actually helps, including EMDR, somatic work, Imagery Rehearsal Therapy, breathwork and an honest conversation about sleep medication in recovery.

If you've ever dreaded going to bed, woken up more exhausted than when you closed your eyes, or spent years running on empty, this one is for you.

More is hosted by Toby Lerone and Rudy Youngblood, two men with lived experience of addiction, trauma, mental health and neurodiversity. Recorded in a single take. Unedited. Unfiltered.


LINKS:-

https://youtu.be/30VMIEmA114 - 54321 technique 


https://youtu.be/zq07gbFLCAs - box breathing in 5’s


https://youtu.be/k_2feptc-Bg - Matthew walker PHD on another podcast


source:%20The%20Mind%20Company https://share.google/QYY4TBrzhlnnSkjuA - Balance, guided meditation app


https://www.headspace.com/app - bedtime story’s for adults


https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Lord_of_the_Rings_(film_series) - lord of the rings-watch it Rudy you weirdo haha



Keywords and Tags:

CPTSD, Complex PTSD, Trauma and Sleep, Sleep Deprivation, Mental Health, PTSD Nightmares, Trauma Recovery, Matthew Walker, Why We Sleep, Sleep Debt, ADHD and Sleep, Neurodivergent, Insomnia, Chronic Pain, Addiction Recovery, Men's Mental Health, Nervous System Regulation, Hypervigilance, Somatic Healing, EMDR, Sleep Disorders, Trauma Podcast, Lived Experience, Recovery Podcast, Sleep and Anxiety, Sleep and Depression, REM Sleep, Polyvagal Theory, More Podcast


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]]> Toby & Rudy Buzzsprout-18944494 Wed, 01 Apr 2026 14:00:00 +0100 4747 CPTSD, Complex PTSD, Trauma and Sleep, Sleep Deprivation, Mental Health, PTSD Nightmares, Trauma Recovery, Matthew Walker, Why We Sleep, Sleep Debt, ADHD and Sleep, Neurodivergent, Insomnia, Chronic Pain, Addiction Recovery, Men's Mental Health, Nervous S 1 11 full true Stuck on the inside: The Freeze Response Stuck on the inside: The Freeze Response Everyone talks about fight or flight. Nobody talks about freeze.  The trauma response that shuts you down completely, makes you look checked out, and gets mistaken for laziness, indifference or not trying hard enough.

In this episode of More, Toby and Rudy get honest about the freeze response from lived experience. Both are recovering addicts, CPTSD and Big T trauma survivors, neurodivergent, and living with chronic pain. Both have spent years being misread as disengaged when their nervous systems were doing the only thing they knew how to do: SURVIVE.

They cover what the freeze response actually is, why it's the dominant trauma response for CPTSD sufferers, how it overlaps with ADHD paralysis and neurodivergent shutdown, what chronic pain has to do with stored survival energy in the body, and crucially...what actually helps you come back online.

If you've ever been called lazy, difficult, emotionally unavailable or checked out - this one's for you.


*Bessel van der kolk - the body keeps score

*gabor maté - when the body says no

* https://youtu.be/qNffpAM5Zps - trauma releasing yoga

* https://youtu.be/WEvgacyBDN4 - Vegas nerve humming technique 

Share it, save a soul.

Get in touch, we would love to hear from you.





Topics: CPTSD | Complex Trauma | Freeze Response | Trauma Recovery | ADHD | Neurodivergent | Mental Health | Addiction Recovery | Chronic Pain | Nervous System Regulation | Men's Mental Health | Trauma Podcast | PTSD | Somatic Healing | Polyvagal Theory | Lived Experience

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]]> Everyone talks about fight or flight. Nobody talks about freeze.  The trauma response that shuts you down completely, makes you look checked out, and gets mistaken for laziness, indifference or not trying hard enough.

In this episode of More, Toby and Rudy get honest about the freeze response from lived experience. Both are recovering addicts, CPTSD and Big T trauma survivors, neurodivergent, and living with chronic pain. Both have spent years being misread as disengaged when their nervous systems were doing the only thing they knew how to do: SURVIVE.

They cover what the freeze response actually is, why it's the dominant trauma response for CPTSD sufferers, how it overlaps with ADHD paralysis and neurodivergent shutdown, what chronic pain has to do with stored survival energy in the body, and crucially...what actually helps you come back online.

If you've ever been called lazy, difficult, emotionally unavailable or checked out - this one's for you.


*Bessel van der kolk - the body keeps score

*gabor maté - when the body says no

* https://youtu.be/qNffpAM5Zps - trauma releasing yoga

* https://youtu.be/WEvgacyBDN4 - Vegas nerve humming technique 

Share it, save a soul.

Get in touch, we would love to hear from you.





Topics: CPTSD | Complex Trauma | Freeze Response | Trauma Recovery | ADHD | Neurodivergent | Mental Health | Addiction Recovery | Chronic Pain | Nervous System Regulation | Men's Mental Health | Trauma Podcast | PTSD | Somatic Healing | Polyvagal Theory | Lived Experience

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]]> Toby & Rudy Buzzsprout-18906813 Wed, 25 Mar 2026 15:00:00 +0000 3894 CPTSD, Complex Trauma, Freeze Response, Trauma Recovery, ADHD, Neurodivergent, Mental Health, Addiction Recovery, Chronic Pain, Nervous System Regulation, Men's Mental Health, Trauma Podcast, PTSD, Somatic Healing, Polyvagal Theory, Lived Experience 1 10 full true 'Tinnies, Tabs & Boys' - Charlotte's Story Part Two 'Tinnies, Tabs & Boys' - Charlotte's Story Part Two This is the second instalment from our very first guest, Charlotte. 

Charlotte discussed her life, her journey and how she found recovery. We touch on boarding school, addiction, neurodivergence and mental health issues. A powerful and inspiring listen.

Show notes;
- Gabor Mate talks
- Life and Crime 1984-2020 (HBO Documentary)
- Recovery Capital

As always we would love to here from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com


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]]> This is the second instalment from our very first guest, Charlotte. 

Charlotte discussed her life, her journey and how she found recovery. We touch on boarding school, addiction, neurodivergence and mental health issues. A powerful and inspiring listen.

Show notes;
- Gabor Mate talks
- Life and Crime 1984-2020 (HBO Documentary)
- Recovery Capital

As always we would love to here from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com


Send us Fan Mail

]]> Toby & Rudy Buzzsprout-18891764 Mon, 23 Mar 2026 11:00:00 +0000 4076 Boarding School, Addiction, Depression, Anxiety, ADHD, BPD, Suicide, Recovery, Neuro-affirming, neurodiversity, inspiration, hope, positive change 1 9 full true 'Tinnies, Tabs & Boys' - Charlotte's Story Part One 'Tinnies, Tabs & Boys' - Charlotte's Story Part One This episode we welcome our very first guest, Charlotte. 

Charlotte discussed her life, her journey and how she found recovery. We touch on boarding school, addiction, neurodivergence and mental health issues. A powerful and inspiring listen.

Show notes;
- Gabor Mate talks
- Life and Crime 1984-2020 (HBO Documentary)
- Recovery Capital

As always we would love to here from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com

Send us Fan Mail

]]> This episode we welcome our very first guest, Charlotte. 

Charlotte discussed her life, her journey and how she found recovery. We touch on boarding school, addiction, neurodivergence and mental health issues. A powerful and inspiring listen.

Show notes;
- Gabor Mate talks
- Life and Crime 1984-2020 (HBO Documentary)
- Recovery Capital

As always we would love to here from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com

Send us Fan Mail

]]> Toby & Rudy Buzzsprout-18891696 Mon, 23 Mar 2026 11:00:00 +0000 3423 Boarding School, Addiction, Depression, Anxiety, ADHD, BPD, Suicide, Recovery, Neuro-affirming, neurodiversity, inspiration, hope, positive change 1 8 full true Diagnosis - 'Liberated or Labelled?" Diagnosis - 'Liberated or Labelled?" Does a diagnosis liberate you - or just give you a new label to carry? Toby and Rudy get into their own late diagnoses, the years of masking that came before, and the complicated mix of relief, grief and anger that follows when someone finally tells you why life felt so much harder than it looked for everyone else. A honest conversation about what not knowing costs you.

Connect with us here, we would love to hear from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com.

Please reach out if you are interested in coming on the show.



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]]> Does a diagnosis liberate you - or just give you a new label to carry? Toby and Rudy get into their own late diagnoses, the years of masking that came before, and the complicated mix of relief, grief and anger that follows when someone finally tells you why life felt so much harder than it looked for everyone else. A honest conversation about what not knowing costs you.

Connect with us here, we would love to hear from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com.

Please reach out if you are interested in coming on the show.



Send us Fan Mail

]]> Toby & Rudy Buzzsprout-18835104 Thu, 12 Mar 2026 14:00:00 +0000 3644 ADHD, Autism, Neurodiversity, Neurodiverse, Neuro-affirming, AuDHD, Au-DHD, Awareness, Diagnosis, Lived Experience, Coping, Trauma, PTSD, Addiction 1 7 full true What is Recovery? What is Recovery? Recovery? What’s that? In today’s episode we talk through what recovery means to us, the stigma around it and how we deal with the process.

Links -

Waking up App - https://www.wakingup.com/

Balance App - https://themindcompany.com/apps/balance

Trataka Meditation - Candle Flame Gazing

Hello@tobyandrudy.com - Say Hello.

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]]> Recovery? What’s that? In today’s episode we talk through what recovery means to us, the stigma around it and how we deal with the process.

Links -

Waking up App - https://www.wakingup.com/

Balance App - https://themindcompany.com/apps/balance

Trataka Meditation - Candle Flame Gazing

Hello@tobyandrudy.com - Say Hello.

Send us Fan Mail

]]> Toby & Rudy Buzzsprout-18791262 Wed, 04 Mar 2026 20:00:00 +0000 3247 Addiction, Recovery, Trauma, PTSD, Chronic Pain, Neurodiversity, Neuro-Affirming, Healing, Wellness, Meditation, Spirituality, Gym, Therapy 1 6 full true Rudy's Story - "Smalltown Boy" Part One Rudy's Story - "Smalltown Boy" Part One Rudy is one of your hosts, in this episode you will get to hear his lived experience and how he came to be with you today.



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]]> Rudy is one of your hosts, in this episode you will get to hear his lived experience and how he came to be with you today.



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]]> Toby & Rudy Buzzsprout-18662460 Wed, 11 Feb 2026 13:00:00 +0000 3449 Addiction, Recovery, ADHD, Autism, Trauma, PTSD, Chronic Pain, Neuro Affirming, Neurodiversity, Wellness, Hope, Life Story 1 4 full true Rudy's Story - "Smalltown Boy" Part Two Rudy's Story - "Smalltown Boy" Part Two This is part two of your host, Rudys story let’s jump straight back in - thanks for listening along.

If this story has touched you in anyway we would love to hear from you.


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]]> This is part two of your host, Rudys story let’s jump straight back in - thanks for listening along.

If this story has touched you in anyway we would love to hear from you.


Get in touch, we would love to hear from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com

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]]> Toby & Rudy Buzzsprout-18662285 Wed, 11 Feb 2026 13:00:00 +0000 4140 Addiction, Recovery, ADHD, Autism, Trauma, PTSD, Chronic Pain, Neuro Affirming, Neurodiversity, Wellness, Hope, Life Story 1 5 full true Toby's Story - Part Two Toby's Story - Part Two This is part two of your host, Tobys story, let’s get straight back into it! Thanks for listening along.

If this story has touched you in any way we would like to hear from you.


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]]> This is part two of your host, Tobys story, let’s get straight back into it! Thanks for listening along.

If this story has touched you in any way we would like to hear from you.


Get in touch, we would love to hear from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com

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]]> Toby & Rudy Buzzsprout-18636824 Fri, 06 Feb 2026 18:00:00 +0000 4065 addiction,recovery,substance abuse,neurodiversity,ADHD,Autism,AuDHD,Neuro Affirming,Mental Health,Wellness 1 3 full true Toby's Story - Part One Toby's Story - Part One Toby is one of your hosts, in this episode you will hear about him and his life experiences, from childhood to present day.


Get in touch, we would love to hear from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com

Of waves and war - netflix

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]]> Toby is one of your hosts, in this episode you will hear about him and his life experiences, from childhood to present day.


Get in touch, we would love to hear from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com

Of waves and war - netflix

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]]> Toby & Rudy Buzzsprout-18631775 Thu, 05 Feb 2026 20:00:00 +0000 4054 addiction, recovery, substance abuse, neurodiversity, ADHD, Autism, AuDHD, Neuro Affirming, Mental Health, Wellness 1 2 full true The Beginning The Beginning This is More, a podcast hosted by people with lived experience of addiction, mental health issues, trauma, and neurodiversity. Where the pursuit of more led us to rock bottom and has since led us to finding alternative ways to live.

 - Join us in our first episode, listen to a brief intro of us, the concept of more and how/why we started this podcast.

Get in touch, we would love to hear from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com


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]]> This is More, a podcast hosted by people with lived experience of addiction, mental health issues, trauma, and neurodiversity. Where the pursuit of more led us to rock bottom and has since led us to finding alternative ways to live.

 - Join us in our first episode, listen to a brief intro of us, the concept of more and how/why we started this podcast.

Get in touch, we would love to hear from you - Hello@tobyandrudy.com


Send us Fan Mail

]]> Toby & Rudy Buzzsprout-18583330 Wed, 28 Jan 2026 14:00:00 +0000 3230 Recovery,addiction,neurodiversity,nuroaffirming,autism,adhd,audhd,PTSD,trauma,healing 1 1 full true