The Game invites us to stretch. To notice where we hold ourselves back. To look at who we let into our lives, who we ask for support, and where we’re still waiting for permission, quietly wondering, am I allowed to do this?

I talk about the energy this has been bringing up in me: feeling alive, a little scared, a little naughty, and deeply empowered. About what happens when we stop hiding in the shadows and start moving from self-trust instead.

This game was created by Kasia Urbaniak, whose work has been deeply inspiring me as I unwind old conditioning and step more fully into my power.

If you feel curious or activated by this, you can learn more and sign up at:
 https://www.kasiaurbaniak.com/the-game

It's high time for us to have courage, take action, and let ourselves move before everything feels perfectly aligned. Sometimes the power comes after the step, not before.

My heart felt very full of love, excitement for life, and a deep appreciation for human relationships and the connections we’re capable of creating. And my thoughts kept returning to men’s hearts.

I reflect on how easy it can be for us, as women, to take men’s hearts for granted or to not care for them as the precious things they are. I speak honestly about my own experiences of knowing I had the power to manipulate men, and how choosing not to use that power has changed the way I approach relationships.

I share a recent conversation with a man who trusted me with something very vulnerable, and what it meant for him to feel seen, appreciated, and held without shame or regret for sharing what was on his heart.

This episode is about the tenderness of men’s shares, the responsibility that comes with being trusted, and the shift from outdated relational dynamics into deeper integrity, self-respect, and embodied leadership.

My hope is that the next time a man shares something from his heart with you, you remember what a gift that is.

Not how to understand myself.
Not how to heal myself.
But how to be with myself…when something uncomfortable is here.

What opened from that realization was a wave of grief and relief at the same time (what I ended up calling grieflief). Grief for the years I spent functioning, fixing, reframing, and moving past my feelings. And relief in discovering that my heart was never gone, it had just been hibernating.

In this episode, I speak from inside that moment.

About believing I was a robot.
About my heart thawing. 

About feeling like Pinocchio, nervous system safety, unmet relational needs, and what it’s like to feel yourself come back online.

If you’ve ever felt numb, overly strong, highly functional, disconnected, or like you move too quickly past what you feel…this is a gentle place to land.

Love,
Lila

What surprised me most wasn’t the ropes, but what my body revealed once it felt truly held. I talk about receiving sensual touch without it becoming sexual, learning what real containment feels like, and how I've been trying to navigate life from my head instead of learning to listen to my body's wisdom.

This experience unraveled a long-held belief that I wasn’t feminine or didn’t know how to soften. It showed me that softness isn’t something we perform. It’s a natural response to safety, presence, and respect.

I also reflect on how many of us learn to override our bodies, freeze instead of speak up, and confuse endurance with consent. This was a profound experience that showed me how reclaiming trust with my body changes everything moving forward.

What began as emotional overwhelm turned into a profound inner child experience that revealed how much of my life had been shaped by performing for love, approval, and safety. It broke the survival pattern I'd been operating from for most of my life.

This episode is about the power of inner child work, and about choosing the part of me that once felt invisible, unchosen, and abandoned, learning that I don’t have to earn love to be safe.

Something shifted in my nervous system that day. And with it, my capacity to choose myself, over and over again.

I talk about everything from meditation and journaling to breast massage, self-pleasure, yoni massage, Yoga Nidra, somatic movement, and the emotional work that comes with all of it.

If you’re curious about what “doing the work” really looks like, or you want inspiration for your own healing, this episode might give you exactly what you need to hear right now.

I share memories I’ve carried for years, what I’ve recently understood about the way he loves, and the forgiveness I’m still learning to offer him and myself. Respecting men fully begins with healing this part of myself first. This one is tender, honest, and very present for me right now.

It’s not polished or pretty, and I'm super congested, but it’s real. And I believe speaking it out loud is part of the healing.If you’ve ever felt blocked in your body or alone in your journey of returning to your feminine essence, this one’s for you. We can do this together!

This particular door happens to be a very special one for me – The door into the best version of myself, where I am courageous enough to stop hiding behind my relationships and finally follow my own path and truth.

I'm so excited to start this journey with you and to share my thoughts on topics that light me up. I hope you enjoy this short intro about the origins of the podcast.