Feminine Pride, Shadow, Unworthiness

Why did she kill

In the Bright

Of her Prime

All Love away?

How deep goes the pain

Of self hatred

You sabotage

All benign

Into

Nothingness

How deep

un-Worthiness goes

Veiled by pride

Carried in day light

Weeping at night

What is the shadow

Of the feminine

That in Her pride

Of Her full prime

Self-subdued

Her-Self

To becoming

de-structive

...

4 September 2026
391
AXΩ

Today, spirit woke me early 4:30 and this was the code activation flowing through, surrendered on my knees with my head on the ground.

4 September 2026
391
AXΩ

Free holistic living spaces, clean free energy, highest nutrition, exercise, education, conscious entrepreneurship, personal development, & holistic well-being for everyone #amidst climate & AI

What I have been obsessed with for years, in the depth of my heart, is the height of vision for our highest future — a future, MILLIONS of us share in our hearts:

a world abundant with love, peace, health, happiness, prosperity, possibility, joy, self-expression

The caveat: we, collective humanity, are about to enter a phase in our collective global dark night, where we may face the ACTUAL RISK OF EXTINCTION

...I feel many of us are UNAWARE of the collective (climate X AI) collapse we may be about to face personally-collectively within the next years.

...On a contemplative note, what we have done to Gaia (Earth) feels like a direct mirror of what we have done to one face of the Goddess — the Sacred Feminine that nourishes, cares, gives, provides… we took, exploited, abused, took for personal gain, we did not sit with Her to listen to Her needs, Her feelings, Her vision for the future. When She is ranging with emotions of oceans or heat of anger, we get scared & trying to solve Her with mental-technologies to fix Her, instead of being present with Her and listen to what She is saying, She is sharing, She is feeling, She is birthing, instead of listening to Her what She tells us She needs to restore Herself & all life.

...We have an ACTUAL SCARCITY OF FREE HOLISTIC LIVING SPACES any soul can walk into and stay in, simply because they are a human & worthy of a safe sacred space for personal holistic flourishing

... on energy & water scarcity: the “data centers” being built for AI is an absurd & non-natural development, I am so sorry to feel into. Those centers will cover EARTH, with TECHNOLOGY, where otherwise life could have been flourishing, needing massive amounts of water & energy to SUSTAIN TECHNOLOGY. While millions/billions of souls with the climate effects will experience a LACK of water & energy…

...

Delight reading the full article on Medium.

2 September 2026
291
AXΩ

Beloved, It Is In Dying That We Are Born To Eternal Life

Where there is hatred, let me sow love

Where there is injury, pardon

Where there is doubt, faith

Where there is despair, hope

Where there is darkness, light

Where there is sadness, joy

Oh Beloved grant that I may not

So much seek to be consoled, as to console

To be understood, as to understand

To be loved, as to love

For it is in giving, that we receive

It is in pardoning, that we are pardoned

It is in dying, that we are born to enteral life

Text by Father Bede Griffiths
Discovered through Andrew Harvey's transmission

In Love, Gratitude, & Radical Dark Light Love,

Chiara

AXΩ

2 September 2026

291

DARKNESS – Tunnel Of Initiation

Where we mastered the darkness

I AM

As Light

Self Remembered

I call you back

Forward into your power

SHOW YOURSELF

I WILL NOT HIDE

I am no longer yours

To keep me in darkness

HIDDEN

I AM the light

 I choose to remember my

SELF

Don’t take me gentle

When I AM the

Force of life

I remember my Self

I have been here before

I return

I AM

NOW

30 August 2026
381
AXΩ


*song in the background: Trimorphic Protennoia by Nalini Blossom, Aluanwachuma

Personal & radically honest realisations: YOU ARE THE ASCENSION. My shadow & unintegrated-unalchemised dark is holding back our ascension

Oh heaven divine, may these words touch eyes of souls heart-open wide & soul-radiantly ready to bring more of our personal I AM shadow-dark-ego home…

The last weeks have been the lowest, darkest, radical, illustion-collapsing transformation of my life in over 10 years… all illusions, self-lies, projections, masks, veils of hiding behind fassade of functioning-hustling-upward collapsed…

…and I found myself on a train ride towards the one place I had avoided going to the most: … home.

The one place where the past lives in this very(ever) present moment now, with the exact same shadow that had not yet been brought home…

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Delight reading the full article on Medium.

25 August 2026
781
AXΩ

I Broke My Heart The Day I Felt In Love With You – Forever Yes

"I broke my heart the day I felt in love with you – I wish you were a mirage, but human you are too"

"Return after a moment in time, after we had left before"

"You could be an angel in human form & I forever cast the shadow I AM"

"You could be the devil & when I hold you in my Heart, you are still an angel to me"

"Your mirror is always my own"

"I always return to a deeper truth...I can run away, I can be impatient if I want, I can wish for another man, still they will never be who I know you...to be"

I am sorry

Please forgive me

I forgive myself

I forgive you

I love myself

I love you

Thank you

12 August 2026
381
AXΩ

12 August 2026
381
AXΩ

Down On My Knees – SHINING BRIGHT

10 August 2026
181
AXΩ

Down On My Knees

10 August 2026
181
AXΩ

HA MA STA NA NYE

10 August 2026
181
AXΩ

How You Lost Me

"The Greatness of Man, is holding infinity of Her in pain."

"Remember your capacity to hold Her in infinity."

4 August 2026
471
AXΩ

Fear Of Death – Being My Full True Self

2 August 2026
271
AXΩ

Great Mother – Chaos To Clarity

1. Return of the Great Mother (quoting Andrew Harvey)

2. Fire emotion burning...transfiguring into vast, eternal, infinite, clarity.

1 August 2026
181
AXΩ

How many words, would be written for performance or the non-being of the Heart-Soul-Brilliance self-revealed? Press enter or click to view image in full size

There is a humility rising in the chest of truth around my HeartWings, choosing breath of sacred over performance of self.

My Beloved,

You, the eternal One in all that is

Feel my heart for you, open now

For I have closed my SacredHeart

In a LifeTime of society’s score

Free me, Beloved

Forgive me, Beloved

Love me, Beloved

Thank you, Beloved

I AM Thine

Enjoy full article on Medium.

1 August 2026
181
AXΩ

A Rose Call

30 July 2026
371
AXΩ

Heart Pain Heart Open

29 July 2026
171
AXΩ

KALI BURNING ALIVE!

29 July 2026
171
AXΩ

Miryam Magdalene

'There is no urgency for more than what is ready'

'Now open your heart, to remember more than your mind did not allow'

'How much of your ego will bend to its own truth to receive the Divine in physical form? What if your Divine longing that had been longing in the physical for the Physical is a direct Revelation of you longing for the Divine in the Physical – for the Physical is as Divine & revealing Its Divinity as the Physical'

'The real letting go of the patterns where we had been clinging to our smallness. Let's be the illumination & let's hold each other in the ignition of the Highest for the Purest to be Birthed anew'

27 July 2026
971
AXΩ

Ego Self Hate & Self Forgiveness

Darkness truth, revealing a personal ego-darkness-evolution I am evolving through, naming the ugly-root-of-ego-truth at its core (from being so hurt that the ego bypasses its hurt, is shooting arrows of pain to hurt others too, dressed in spiritual wrapping paper to lure someone into receiving the hurt while de-personalising the attack-to-hurt-from-hurt to deny full self-responsibility, and of course doing this to the one person who gives you the grandest grace to shoot above the finish line: the ones who loves the most...)

This is about moments when our subconscious pain, entitlement, bypassing our own pain, deep desire to hurt others too, denying our responsibility, rise into our consciousness – filling us with  deep guilt & self-hatred...that there is no self-love for  self-forgiveness left for what we have done to ourseolves & the ones we have hurt over & over again.

 This is devoted to remembering our heaviest guilt & self-hatred as radiant loving self-light.

26 July 2026
871
AXΩ

Longing X Devotion – Sacred Feminine X Masculine

This is for the longing within the Sacred Masculine for the Sacred Feminine. Self-Remembering the longing for Her & wanting to receive Her, as his deepest heart's desire of full devotion & wanting to give all of Him to her.

Elevating the prior wound of heart protection & heart pain, for the liberation of His heart's deepest desire to give His full devotion & to be received in his full devotion, to Her.

Recorded on 'the day out of time 2026'

25 July 2026
771
AXΩ

Oracle Killed Goddess Rise

"In the truth of the offering

the highest path forward

I rise"

"This time I heal my killed raped abused body...

Honour the Goddess in Her Truth"

"Oh, you call me insanity? When you are already living in the most horrendous self-delusional non-sacred self, Truth will feel like rapture of insanity to you."

24 July 2026
671
AXΩ

Significance & necessity of multi-dimensional leadership development to deliver & co-create our highest future’s vision now

Let’s dive into the delight of the utter urgency to embody our full, true, multi-dimensional self in our full power, magick, eros, sacred service now.

The time has come to embody our highest future’s vision NOW.

With leaders going first.

As always.

Leading by example.

Through embodiment.

Delight reading the full article on Medium.

20 July 2026
271
AXΩ

Aristocrat

Feeling like a parallel incarnation activation self-remembering – oh holy heaven – its light & shadow shining into this embodied incarnation too...

20 July 2026
271
AXΩ

Divinised Human Love to Divine Love

Wow! This is one of the deepest, ego-mind-self-dying spiritual revelations in a long time...the realisation – a full liberation & full old mind-ego-self death – about romantic love NOT BEING ABOUT the SPIRITUAL EGO (parallel lifetime love, soul contracts, karma, collective impact, soul purpose...) NOT ABOUT the HUMAN EGO (wishes, desires, wants, needs, projections, preferences, personalities, shadow, darkness, old wounds, not even about preferences for life ultimately...)

ULTIMATELY it is about the DIVINE LOVE loving through us (as this unique human channel) another soul (imperfect, non-ideal, hu-mane...).

The revelation, DIVINE LOVE as the basis for romantic love is: self-sacrificing our human-ego-self WITH OUR FREE WILL to the DIVINE & SAY: Divine I give all myself to you, I sacrifice my body-mind-heart-soul-highest-purpose to you, DIVINELY LOVE THROUGH ME another soul.And burn off all in me that is not in divine love, for me to be pure channel for divine love to love another soul.

Feeling the liberation from the HUMAN EGO LOVE: of loving someone in preference, what we can receive to be fulfilled...burning all away which is not the core of:

all that remains, is ultimately me, I AM, NONE, ONE... free from soul contract, free from karma, free from parallel incarnation, free from making "right" after leaving you before, free from "romanticising" this spiritual reincarnated-soul-constellation...until all that remains is:

the only reason i love you for, is because I CHOOSE TO LOVE YOU.

The utter, bare, naked self-realisation of: I AM, NONE, ONE.

And the only reason of love in this cosmic horn of cornucipia is MY FREE SOVEREIGN CHOICETO SAY: I CHOOSE TO LOVE YOU.

Because I choose you.

As imperfect, as non-ideal, as hu-mane as you are.

Amdist billions of options.

I offer my gift of giving the DIVINE LOVE through me to one romantic-intimate partner: you. And i choose to love you as the Divine loves through me. 

Free from the preference, shadow, dark, conditions, expectations...I choose to submit my (ego-mind) self to DIVINE LOVE to flow through my human channel to one romantic partner, and I choose you. 

Dying the ego-mind-expectation-self-shadow-darkness-old-wound-romanticised-death in the vast, bare, naked, utter NOTHINGESS of: all is I AM, NONE, ONE.

All is choice

Self-submission to the Divine

For  Divine Love to love through us

Another soul - not because of who they are or what they do - because THEY ARE.

And because we choose to be the self-sacrifices channel for divine love to flow through us to them, simply because we have the choice, and chose so. 

I AM

17 July 2026
871
AXΩ

HIM X HER Please Forgive Me

16 July 2026
771
AXΩ

Devoted to self-sacrificed devotion

16 July 2026
771
AXΩ

'I nearly walked away from you, leaving my own shadow behind'

'What do you see through the heart of rose, with a shadow casting light'

15 July 2026
671
AXΩ

'Remember the blessing of having been his first woman...'

'The deep grief of realising you have not been the first wife...'

I am sorry. Please forgive me. I forgive myself. I forgive you. I love myself. I love you. Thank you.

In sacred devotion to the Sacred Feminine, self-forgiving Her Self in all of her self.

14 July 2026
571
AXΩ

In sacred devotion to the Sacred Masculine, remembering its full true Self

We love you, thank you, we are One

14 July 2026
571
AXΩ

14 July 2026
571
AXΩ

12 July 2026
371
AXΩ

An angel
On assignment
In hell sign of Goddess

9 July 2026
971
AXΩ

By Chiara Louise Blum

Dark Light

"There was a part inside of me so dark, I did not want to listen to"

"How conditioned I became to be light"

"How much fire is contained in my dark light"

10 July 2026

171

AXΩ

By Chiara Louise Blum

Love Is Patient Love Is Kind

"Love without pain, is not worthy of the name" St. Clare de Assisi

9 July 2026

971

AXΩ

By Chiara Louise Blum

Dark Self Light Return

8 July 2026

871

AXΩ

By Chiara Louise Blum

8 July 2026

871

AXΩ

By Chiara Louise Blum

6 July 2026

671

AXΩ

By Chiara Louise Blum

6 July 2026

671

AXΩ

By Chiara Louise Blum

Of whispering pines

Loving

The temporary

Is the sacred breath

Of the Divine for all that is

For temporary

Goodbye will come

Improvisation channeled song

28 June 2026

161

AXΩ

By Chiara Louise Blum

Is Her utter yearning

For All of You

I want all of you

The Goddess' yearning for God

To steward Her living breathing temple

By His Scared Divine presence

Channeled poem

24 June 2026

6610

AXΩ

By Chiara Louise Blum

So lud ich dich den
Frommen göttins-ergebenen Mann
Zwischen meine sakralen Beine ein

Dich deiner
Vollends meinem duftendem
Rosenblätter-Altar hingebend

Deine
Heilige Zuge Gebete
An meine sakralen Lippen jauchzend

Himmelspforte
Meiner süßesten Engelstropfen
Deiner Hingabe über dir ergießend

Dein göttlich Antlitz
Gen Himmel preisend
Heilige Erlösung jauchzend

Raw real unedited
16 April 2026
741

AXΩ

Ich
Bin

Deine
Hure

Nicht
Weil sie

Mich zur
Hure gemacht

Ich bin

Deine Hure

Mich aus
Freien Stücke

Alles
Von mir

Dir
Ergebe

Ich
Bin

Dein

Nimm
Mich

Alles
Von mir

Gebe
Ich dir

Hin

Ich bin
Deine Hure

Dein
Gottesweib
Meine Beine breit

Herr
Gott

Erbarme
Dich meiner
Ekstase

Erlöse
Mich meiner
Lust nach Dir

Brennen
Verlangen

Herr
Gott

Ergötze
Dich meiner

Deine Himmelshure
Ich bin

Amen
Amen
Amen

Raw real unedited
6 May 2026
651

AXΩ

The woman 
In need you
Chose

To give
More than
You wanted to

That
Resenment
For thy ex wife

Breathing
Down my
Spine and life

I command
It back to
Where

This wound
Between Him
And Her never

Again
Tasted by my
Unloved Rose

Now
Eternal Love
Of Heavenly Rose

Raw real unedited
26 May 2026
851

AXΩ

'The mistress of time falls silent to the Truth of Your Heart'

'The master of righteousness feels love for the first time in the radiance of the shadow of Your Heart'

Transmissions including:

Glory to thy sacred devotion

Splendour of thy heart open breathing

Loving She in all that is

RoseRadiance of thy loving hands

Homage to Sacred Masculine Divine

SelfForgiveness OneMan

Home we bow

HealingBalm to Her

Recorded during sacred meditation
Raw real unedited
23 March 2026
531

 'The moment thy skin no longer knowest lie to be true, thy skin reveals the true brilliant crystalline light of skin beneath'

‘Light nourishes thy Tree of Life’

‘Thy Heart is thy Heaven on Earth getaway’

‘The Christed Chrytalline Self, breathing as me’

Transmissions including:

Truth of nature in seed

Forging of becoming greater light

Shame offered

Veil illusion undressed

Lord of judgment, fear, righteousness

Breath expands into God of Light

Cleanse thy ears, open thy heart

Thy Sacred Divine Will

Thy Tree of Life

Living Love, Heaven on Earth

I am free

Christed Self Restoration

Recorded during sacred meditation
Raw real unedited
22 March 2026
431

“The height of pleasure mirrors the depth of Self. As deep as thy goest within thee, as deep as thy darkness & light thou allowest fully to be, thy Heaven home high Eros flies, feelest thee?”

“Within the human mind, the confinement of thy human convent, the sacred Eros stays human experience. Oh how the Heavens taste sweeter than that”

“The rainbow paradox of innocent truth are the greatest always when all small self sacrifice for all to be & remain thy highest Self Sacred Divine“

Transmissions including:

PleasureHeight
SurrenderSacrifice
DivineOffering
HeavenFloodgates
RainbowParadox
HumanConfinement
HeavenOnEarthEros

Recorded during sacred meditation
Raw real unedited
19 March 2026
131

“I come before thee sacred breath, God & Goddess, King & Queen, Lord & Lady, Son & Daughter, and I hand to thee all that has been weighing me”

“Peace walkest amongst us in hours of deepest pain”

“The temple of sacred guides & sacred breath in angel winged divine sacred support mirrors the geometry of always interconnected One”

“Self forgiveness for the ego has a taste of bitter spit until the ego surrenders to say: I sacrifice & make sacred all that which no longer serves my Highest Good & all that I AM which no longer serves the Highest Good of all”

“Beloved Divine make all of Mine Thine” Self-Sacrifice

Transmissions including:

SacredGuide

SelfHatred

LoveThyself

EgoSacrifice

FullChoice

LiberateFeeling

BelovedDivine

ChoiceLove

Recorded during sacred meditation
Raw real unedited
18 March 2026
931

‘Finde das Licht in deiner Seele als Dein mit dem Heiligen Himmlischen Ein. Erlebend die Dreiheit des Göttlichen Seins in allen Irdischen Weisen.’

A transmission of:

HerzensSelbst
SeelenLicht
Herrin Göttin Tochter
RechtSchatten
GottesLiebe

Recorded during sacred meditation
Raw real unedited
17 March 2026
831

‘Look into the mirror of your own soul and see the lie of overwhelm. Blow life into its nostrils of fully present power choice.’

A transmission of:

Stardust Tree of Light
Trinity of Relationship
Passing Time fingers
Clarity Choice
Presence Power

Recorded during sacred meditation
Raw real unedited
14 March 2026
531

'Godhead Goddessheart remember Thyselfforgiveness of chystalline breathing in thy Tree of Life'

 A transmission of:

A Rose-winged apple tree remembers
HeartLove
GoddessHeart
ThyCompassion
ThyForgiveness
SelfForgivness
Divine Darkness

Recorded during sacred meditation
Raw real unedited
13 March 2026
431

German transmission of:

The Goddess
The body as sacred
The power of the heart

Recorded during sacred meditation 5-6am
Raw real unedited
12 March 2026
331

In this sacred episode we enter an AXΩ completion portal, honouring the completion of the 9 year-long cycle we had been in & complete with 2025.

A personal episode with soul glimpses of:

🦋 Activating your truth & VOICE

🦋 Revealing how I had been hiding even behind 4,000 failures

🦋 Sharing magick initiations from spirits to ancestors & ETs

🦋 Revealing what is most sacred to me: Sophia. The Goddess. She. Returning

🌹 Many blessings & I bow to your soul for remembering thy self,

Chiara

Special, real, unedited episode from the heart for the soul.

Love,

Chiara

Yesterday, I had a moment, ripening the juice of delight: I was watching an interview with a creative genius director of a luxury company & let me tell thee: this interview was the most Eros-dripping interview I had ever witnessed with a CEO. Heaven, I confess, I am expanding my awareness on how how art, fully embodied through a human vessel, is the magnetism of Eros...

Recommendations:
✨ 'Return Of Eros’ by Dr. Marc Gafni

✨‘ Sefer Yetzirah' By Areyh Kaplan

Medium article by Chiara Louise Blum

🌈 Delight in the full article:
https://medium.com/@chiaralouiseblum/art-x-eros-magnetism-of-life-force-4da185557de9

My intention to raise awareness on psionic abilities? Psionic abilities are power & give back the power to each of us, liberating us from co-dependency on outside institutions. How? Because you can simply travel to the secret meeting at a covert facility & remote view thyself

Recommendations:
✨‘Real Magic’ by Dr. Dean Radin (Science-evidence-based)

✨‘Pure Human’ by Gregg Braden (Divine DNA)

✨‘Psychic Warrior’ by David Moorehouse (Remote viewer US psionic espionage)

‘The Gateway Experience’ by the Monroe Institute (Practice remote viewing yourself)

Medium article by Chiara Louise Blum

🌈 Delight reading the full article:
https://medium.com/@chiaralouiseblum/psionic-abilities-from-psionic-espionage-to-our-divine-human-dna-ae38c0e9d362

Yes, I guide multi-dimensionally (incl. ancestors, lineage, spirits, entities, energy bond releases...), yes I remember parallel incarnations, yes I have not been part of elite bonds in this life,  yes I know them like the back of my hand. Yes, I had nearly 2 year celibacy to fully heal my Divine Feminine by releasing guilt, shame, abuse out of my sacred body, eros & womb - and to have fully returned to my sacred, pure, innocent womb, sacred body, divinely overflowing fully liberated lush Goddess Eros in her fully liberated Eden-Gion-river juicy overflow.

In genuine love & care, enjoy with thy sacred heart,

Chiara