The Kristen Toepfer Podcast Stroke and Aphasia Advocate Mon, 01 Jun 2026 15:33:51 -0400 https://www.buzzsprout.com/2370611 en-us © 2026 The Kristen Toepfer Podcast Stroke and Aphasia Advocate yes eddda817-72bc-5f3e-bbdb-3f08b124ca84 billymontana@icloud.com The Kristen Toepfer Podcast episodic false "The Kristen Toepfer Podcast Stroke and Aphasia Advocate" chronicles Kristen's journey from strutting the runways of NYFW to battling a massive stroke and undergoing multiple brain surgeries. Through her inspiring narrative of resilience and recovery, Kristen aims to educate and empower listeners, offering insights to help prevent similar life-altering events while spreading awareness about stroke and aphasia.

]]> Buzzsprout (https://www.buzzsprout.com) The Kristen Toepfer Podcast billymontana@icloud.com https://storage.buzzsprout.com/md96i2g0f4kq1hdh806rbgfaykdi?.jpg The Kristen Toepfer Podcast Stroke and Aphasia Advocate The Other Side of the Stroke — John’s Story, Part 2 The Other Side of the Stroke — John’s Story, Part 2 John Church is back, and this time we go even deeper.

In Part 2 of his conversation with Billy, John picks up where he left off — moving from the raw chaos of the early days into the long, slow, unglamorous grind of years of caregiving. The part nobody puts on a highlight reel. The part that tests everything.

John talks about learning to communicate with Kristen when she had no words — the progressive, painstaking process of going from nods to yes and no, from yes and no to broken phrases, from broken phrases to something that finally started to resemble conversation. He opens up about finishing her sentences — a habit he developed out of love and desperation — and the moment speech therapists pulled him aside and told him to stop. That he had to let her struggle. Let her sit in the frustration. Because that was the only way she was going to get better. He did it. Even though it was hard to watch.

He describes the night Kristen walked the runway again at New York Fashion Week — this time in a hockey helmet, guided by a coordinator — and how that moment felt not like pity but like pure triumph. And he shares the story of Kristen’s first photo shoot after the stroke, in Asheville, North Carolina, when she looked at Billy and said: I’m back, bitches. Because that is exactly who she is.

John also addresses what nobody warned them about — the schizoaffective disorder diagnosis. Starting with minor, almost explainable things in the summer of 2024, and escalating to full hospitalization by December. John describes what it felt like to watch the person he loves be visibly terrified of things that weren’t real, calling the police on herself out of fear, and how completely unprepared he felt — again — for something he never saw coming. He talks about the responsibility of being the person she trusted to tell her what was real and what wasn’t, and how he learned to be direct and caring at the same time without playing into the delusions.

He talks about the marriage. About moments of feeling cheated. About watching other couples laugh and communicate easily and feeling the sting of that. About the days he needed a break and had to ask family to step in so he could breathe. And about why he would not have it any other way.

John’s final message to caregivers is simple, honest, and exactly what people in the thick of it need to hear: take your time, get educated, talk to someone, and don’t suffer in silence. Because if two people end up needing to be taken care of, nobody wins.

And yes — he confirms it. Sometimes all it takes is a hug.

Subscribe, order Kristen’s book Finding My Voice, and follow her journey at kristentoepfer.com

Join Kristen and cohost Billy Montana for monthly episodes filled with advocacy, education, and inspiring conversations.

Together, let's raise awareness for stroke and aphasia and support each other on the journey to recovery.
http://kristentoepfer.com

]]> John Church is back, and this time we go even deeper.

In Part 2 of his conversation with Billy, John picks up where he left off — moving from the raw chaos of the early days into the long, slow, unglamorous grind of years of caregiving. The part nobody puts on a highlight reel. The part that tests everything.

John talks about learning to communicate with Kristen when she had no words — the progressive, painstaking process of going from nods to yes and no, from yes and no to broken phrases, from broken phrases to something that finally started to resemble conversation. He opens up about finishing her sentences — a habit he developed out of love and desperation — and the moment speech therapists pulled him aside and told him to stop. That he had to let her struggle. Let her sit in the frustration. Because that was the only way she was going to get better. He did it. Even though it was hard to watch.

He describes the night Kristen walked the runway again at New York Fashion Week — this time in a hockey helmet, guided by a coordinator — and how that moment felt not like pity but like pure triumph. And he shares the story of Kristen’s first photo shoot after the stroke, in Asheville, North Carolina, when she looked at Billy and said: I’m back, bitches. Because that is exactly who she is.

John also addresses what nobody warned them about — the schizoaffective disorder diagnosis. Starting with minor, almost explainable things in the summer of 2024, and escalating to full hospitalization by December. John describes what it felt like to watch the person he loves be visibly terrified of things that weren’t real, calling the police on herself out of fear, and how completely unprepared he felt — again — for something he never saw coming. He talks about the responsibility of being the person she trusted to tell her what was real and what wasn’t, and how he learned to be direct and caring at the same time without playing into the delusions.

He talks about the marriage. About moments of feeling cheated. About watching other couples laugh and communicate easily and feeling the sting of that. About the days he needed a break and had to ask family to step in so he could breathe. And about why he would not have it any other way.

John’s final message to caregivers is simple, honest, and exactly what people in the thick of it need to hear: take your time, get educated, talk to someone, and don’t suffer in silence. Because if two people end up needing to be taken care of, nobody wins.

And yes — he confirms it. Sometimes all it takes is a hug.

Subscribe, order Kristen’s book Finding My Voice, and follow her journey at kristentoepfer.com

Join Kristen and cohost Billy Montana for monthly episodes filled with advocacy, education, and inspiring conversations.

Together, let's raise awareness for stroke and aphasia and support each other on the journey to recovery.
http://kristentoepfer.com

]]> The Kristen Toepfer Podcast Buzzsprout-19266224 Sat, 30 May 2026 19:00:00 -0400 2148 1 8 full false The Other Side of the Stroke — John’s Story, Part 1 The Other Side of the Stroke — John’s Story, Part 1 You’ve heard Kristen’s story. Now hear from the man who lived it right beside her.

In this special episode, Billy sits down with John Church — Kristen’s husband, high school sweetheart, and the person who has been her rock through every surgery, every setback, and every hard day of this recovery. John has been mentioned throughout this podcast since the very beginning. This is the first time he gets to tell his own side of the story.

John takes us back to the 3 a.m. phone call that changed everything — how Kristen’s words weren’t quite right, how he thought maybe she’d just had a bad dream or a panic attack, and how half intuition and half luck made him leave work and go home instead of telling her to go back to sleep. By the time he got there, he couldn’t get her out of the bed. He called 911. And even the paramedics weren’t sure what was happening.

What follows is one of the most honest accounts of a caregiver’s experience you will ever hear on a podcast. John describes driving to the wrong hospital in a panic while Kristen was being airlifted. He describes sleeping in a waiting room for days, barely eating, barely sleeping, cycling between work and the hospital for months on end. He describes the moment the surgeon told him to set his expectations — that she might not make it — and what it is like to have to pick up the phone and repeat those words to the people who love her.

He talks about the things nobody prepares you for. Learning that the water bill existed when it got shut off for $38 while Kristen was in a coma. Figuring out her dog’s medications by calling the vet in the middle of a crisis. Taking over every responsibility in the household overnight while working nights at UPS and spending every spare hour at the hospital.

And he talks about the communication — the painstaking, creative, heartbreaking game of 20 questions they developed together when Kristen had no words. Is it something in the house? Is it downstairs? Is it food? One nod at a time. And secretly watching out the window every time she walked to the mailbox, just to make sure she didn’t fall.

John said it simply: he would have been happy if it was just her head in a jar that could talk to him the way she used to. That one line says everything about what this man went through — and what love actually looks like when it gets tested.

This is Part 1. And it is not one to miss.

Subscribe, share, and follow Kristen’s journey at https://KristenToepfer.com

Join Kristen and cohost Billy Montana for monthly episodes filled with advocacy, education, and inspiring conversations.

Together, let's raise awareness for stroke and aphasia and support each other on the journey to recovery.
http://kristentoepfer.com

]]> You’ve heard Kristen’s story. Now hear from the man who lived it right beside her.

In this special episode, Billy sits down with John Church — Kristen’s husband, high school sweetheart, and the person who has been her rock through every surgery, every setback, and every hard day of this recovery. John has been mentioned throughout this podcast since the very beginning. This is the first time he gets to tell his own side of the story.

John takes us back to the 3 a.m. phone call that changed everything — how Kristen’s words weren’t quite right, how he thought maybe she’d just had a bad dream or a panic attack, and how half intuition and half luck made him leave work and go home instead of telling her to go back to sleep. By the time he got there, he couldn’t get her out of the bed. He called 911. And even the paramedics weren’t sure what was happening.

What follows is one of the most honest accounts of a caregiver’s experience you will ever hear on a podcast. John describes driving to the wrong hospital in a panic while Kristen was being airlifted. He describes sleeping in a waiting room for days, barely eating, barely sleeping, cycling between work and the hospital for months on end. He describes the moment the surgeon told him to set his expectations — that she might not make it — and what it is like to have to pick up the phone and repeat those words to the people who love her.

He talks about the things nobody prepares you for. Learning that the water bill existed when it got shut off for $38 while Kristen was in a coma. Figuring out her dog’s medications by calling the vet in the middle of a crisis. Taking over every responsibility in the household overnight while working nights at UPS and spending every spare hour at the hospital.

And he talks about the communication — the painstaking, creative, heartbreaking game of 20 questions they developed together when Kristen had no words. Is it something in the house? Is it downstairs? Is it food? One nod at a time. And secretly watching out the window every time she walked to the mailbox, just to make sure she didn’t fall.

John said it simply: he would have been happy if it was just her head in a jar that could talk to him the way she used to. That one line says everything about what this man went through — and what love actually looks like when it gets tested.

This is Part 1. And it is not one to miss.

Subscribe, share, and follow Kristen’s journey at https://KristenToepfer.com

Join Kristen and cohost Billy Montana for monthly episodes filled with advocacy, education, and inspiring conversations.

Together, let's raise awareness for stroke and aphasia and support each other on the journey to recovery.
http://kristentoepfer.com

]]> The Kristen Toepfer Podcast Buzzsprout-19266173 Sat, 30 May 2026 19:00:00 -0400 2131 1 7 full false Surviving the Holidays — What Nobody Tells You About Family Gatherings After a Stroke Surviving the Holidays — What Nobody Tells You About Family Gatherings After a Stroke The holidays are supposed to be the most wonderful time of the year. For stroke and aphasia survivors, they can also be the most exhausting, isolating, and emotionally complicated. In this episode, Kristen Toepfer gets completely honest about what the holidays actually look like when aphasia is at the table.

Kristen takes us back to what the holidays were before September 11th, 2018 — gathering at her grandmother’s house, her in-laws, her aunt’s, going to church, and hunting for the plastic German pickle hidden in the Christmas tree. Life was full and fast and normal. Then the stroke happened, and suddenly family gatherings became a completely different experience.

For two years, Kristen sat in the corner at family events unable to speak a single word. She could hear everything — every joke, every story, every conversation — and had absolutely no way to join in. She and her husband John developed their own private code just to communicate the basics. A tug on his shirt meant she needed something or wanted to leave. That was all she had.

This episode covers everything families and survivors need to hear but rarely talk about. What it feels like to be in the room but not really in it. How exhausting it is for the brain to attempt conversation when aphasia is involved — and why that exhaustion is invisible to everyone watching. Why being asked “are you okay?” every five minutes by well-meaning family members eventually becomes its own kind of frustration. And what it actually means to treat someone with aphasia like the fully intelligent person they still are.

Kristen also shares the moments nobody puts in the highlight reel — including a holiday bathroom incident that required a change of clothes — and why she chose to talk about it publicly, because stroke survivors deserve to know they are not alone in any of it.

She talks about pity parties, depression, isolation, the catch-22 of not wanting to go out but knowing you should, and the meditation technique she learned in therapy that helps her recenter when gatherings get overwhelming. She talks about faith, about gratitude, and about the one thing she does every single morning before she gets out of bed.

And she shares the one message she wants every stroke survivor to carry into the holiday season: be in the moment and have fun. Simple. And she means it.

This episode is for survivors who dread the holidays. It is for the family members who love someone with aphasia and have no idea what they actually need. And it is for anyone who has ever sat at a table full of people and felt completely alone.

Subscribe, share, and follow Kristen’s journey at https://KristenToepfer.com

Join Kristen and cohost Billy Montana for monthly episodes filled with advocacy, education, and inspiring conversations.

Together, let's raise awareness for stroke and aphasia and support each other on the journey to recovery.
http://kristentoepfer.com

]]> The holidays are supposed to be the most wonderful time of the year. For stroke and aphasia survivors, they can also be the most exhausting, isolating, and emotionally complicated. In this episode, Kristen Toepfer gets completely honest about what the holidays actually look like when aphasia is at the table.

Kristen takes us back to what the holidays were before September 11th, 2018 — gathering at her grandmother’s house, her in-laws, her aunt’s, going to church, and hunting for the plastic German pickle hidden in the Christmas tree. Life was full and fast and normal. Then the stroke happened, and suddenly family gatherings became a completely different experience.

For two years, Kristen sat in the corner at family events unable to speak a single word. She could hear everything — every joke, every story, every conversation — and had absolutely no way to join in. She and her husband John developed their own private code just to communicate the basics. A tug on his shirt meant she needed something or wanted to leave. That was all she had.

This episode covers everything families and survivors need to hear but rarely talk about. What it feels like to be in the room but not really in it. How exhausting it is for the brain to attempt conversation when aphasia is involved — and why that exhaustion is invisible to everyone watching. Why being asked “are you okay?” every five minutes by well-meaning family members eventually becomes its own kind of frustration. And what it actually means to treat someone with aphasia like the fully intelligent person they still are.

Kristen also shares the moments nobody puts in the highlight reel — including a holiday bathroom incident that required a change of clothes — and why she chose to talk about it publicly, because stroke survivors deserve to know they are not alone in any of it.

She talks about pity parties, depression, isolation, the catch-22 of not wanting to go out but knowing you should, and the meditation technique she learned in therapy that helps her recenter when gatherings get overwhelming. She talks about faith, about gratitude, and about the one thing she does every single morning before she gets out of bed.

And she shares the one message she wants every stroke survivor to carry into the holiday season: be in the moment and have fun. Simple. And she means it.

This episode is for survivors who dread the holidays. It is for the family members who love someone with aphasia and have no idea what they actually need. And it is for anyone who has ever sat at a table full of people and felt completely alone.

Subscribe, share, and follow Kristen’s journey at https://KristenToepfer.com

Join Kristen and cohost Billy Montana for monthly episodes filled with advocacy, education, and inspiring conversations.

Together, let's raise awareness for stroke and aphasia and support each other on the journey to recovery.
http://kristentoepfer.com

]]> The Kristen Toepfer Podcast Buzzsprout-19265960 Sat, 30 May 2026 18:00:00 -0400 2207 1 6 full false Mourning Your Old Life — When the Person You Lost Was You Mourning Your Old Life — When the Person You Lost Was You There is a kind of grief that nobody talks about — the grief of losing yourself. Not to death, but to a single moment that splits your life into before and after. For Kristen Toepfer, that moment was September 11th, 2018. And the person she had to mourn was herself.

In this deeply personal episode, Kristen takes us back to who she was before the stroke — a nightshift industrial engineer at UPS with nearly 20 years on the job, a model traveling to LA and Nashville for photo shoots, walking New York Fashion Week and loving every second of it. She was fast-paced, on the go, and never once thought a stroke could happen to her at 36 years old. Then it did.

Kristen opens up about what it felt like to wake up from a coma and slowly realize that the life she had built — the career, the independence, the ability to simply put her hair up or do her own makeup — was gone. She talks about the years she lost to not even knowing what was happening, the anger she felt at her past self for pushing through warning signs and smoking cigarettes, and the pity parties she admits she had along the way before learning to pull herself back out.

But this episode is not just about loss. It is about what happens when you stop asking why me and start looking for what is still there. Kristen talks about the moment she found her new purpose — becoming a stroke and aphasia advocate — and how helping others gave the new Kristen a reason to keep going that the old Kristen never had. She is stronger now. More grateful. She doesn’t judge anymore. She notices birds and sunlight and simple things she would have blown right past before.

She also shares what gets her through the hardest days — group therapy, her husband John’s hugs, and the daily practice of finding something to be grateful for before she even gets out of bed.

And yes — the Amazon $2 story makes another appearance.

If you have ever had to grieve a version of yourself, this episode will hit home.

Subscribe, share, and follow Kristen’s journey at kristentoepfer.com

Join Kristen and cohost Billy Montana for monthly episodes filled with advocacy, education, and inspiring conversations.

Together, let's raise awareness for stroke and aphasia and support each other on the journey to recovery.
http://kristentoepfer.com

]]> There is a kind of grief that nobody talks about — the grief of losing yourself. Not to death, but to a single moment that splits your life into before and after. For Kristen Toepfer, that moment was September 11th, 2018. And the person she had to mourn was herself.

In this deeply personal episode, Kristen takes us back to who she was before the stroke — a nightshift industrial engineer at UPS with nearly 20 years on the job, a model traveling to LA and Nashville for photo shoots, walking New York Fashion Week and loving every second of it. She was fast-paced, on the go, and never once thought a stroke could happen to her at 36 years old. Then it did.

Kristen opens up about what it felt like to wake up from a coma and slowly realize that the life she had built — the career, the independence, the ability to simply put her hair up or do her own makeup — was gone. She talks about the years she lost to not even knowing what was happening, the anger she felt at her past self for pushing through warning signs and smoking cigarettes, and the pity parties she admits she had along the way before learning to pull herself back out.

But this episode is not just about loss. It is about what happens when you stop asking why me and start looking for what is still there. Kristen talks about the moment she found her new purpose — becoming a stroke and aphasia advocate — and how helping others gave the new Kristen a reason to keep going that the old Kristen never had. She is stronger now. More grateful. She doesn’t judge anymore. She notices birds and sunlight and simple things she would have blown right past before.

She also shares what gets her through the hardest days — group therapy, her husband John’s hugs, and the daily practice of finding something to be grateful for before she even gets out of bed.

And yes — the Amazon $2 story makes another appearance.

If you have ever had to grieve a version of yourself, this episode will hit home.

Subscribe, share, and follow Kristen’s journey at kristentoepfer.com

Join Kristen and cohost Billy Montana for monthly episodes filled with advocacy, education, and inspiring conversations.

Together, let's raise awareness for stroke and aphasia and support each other on the journey to recovery.
http://kristentoepfer.com

]]> The Kristen Toepfer Podcast Buzzsprout-19265776 Sat, 30 May 2026 17:00:00 -0400 2232 1 5 full false Why My Brain is an A**hole — Part 2: Living With Seizures Why My Brain is an A**hole — Part 2: Living With Seizures She recorded this episode the morning after having a seizure. That alone tells you everything you need to know about Kristen Toepfer.

In Part 2 of Why My Brain is an A**hole, Kristen goes deep on seizures — what they actually are, what they feel like from the inside, and what it means to build an entire life around managing something that can show up without warning and take you out for minutes, hours, or days at a time.

Kristen lives with Todd’s Paralysis seizures — focal seizures that leave half her body completely paralyzed after they hit. Sometimes for ten minutes. Sometimes for half an hour. Once for almost three days. She explains how these seizures started after a brain infection following her second brain surgery forced doctors to open her skull, wash her brain, and start over — wiping out virtually all the progress she had made in rehab and forcing her to relearn how to walk and talk from scratch. Again. She has had eight brain surgeries in total. Most of them months apart.

Kristen also connects the dots between her repeated seizures, the scar tissue on her brain, and her schizoaffective disorder diagnosis — explaining how seizure activity can actually trigger schizophrenia in some patients, something most people have never been told.

This episode covers what daily life with seizures actually looks like — why she can’t drive, why she uses a Life Alert device, why she avoids the stove and oven, and why the fear of having a seizure in public has made her increasingly isolated. She talks honestly about not wanting to be a burden to the people around her, the stress that triggers her seizures, and her very real goal of getting back outside, getting back social, and eventually getting back on a bike.

She also shares something that stopped the conversation cold — her dog could sense when a seizure was coming by detecting changes in her heart rate. He passed away two months before this episode was recorded. She is getting another one.

Practical, personal, and completely unfiltered. If you or someone you love lives with seizures, this episode was made for you.

Subscribe, share, and follow Kristen’s journey at https:kristentoepfer.com

Join Kristen and cohost Billy Montana for monthly episodes filled with advocacy, education, and inspiring conversations.

Together, let's raise awareness for stroke and aphasia and support each other on the journey to recovery.
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]]> She recorded this episode the morning after having a seizure. That alone tells you everything you need to know about Kristen Toepfer.

In Part 2 of Why My Brain is an A**hole, Kristen goes deep on seizures — what they actually are, what they feel like from the inside, and what it means to build an entire life around managing something that can show up without warning and take you out for minutes, hours, or days at a time.

Kristen lives with Todd’s Paralysis seizures — focal seizures that leave half her body completely paralyzed after they hit. Sometimes for ten minutes. Sometimes for half an hour. Once for almost three days. She explains how these seizures started after a brain infection following her second brain surgery forced doctors to open her skull, wash her brain, and start over — wiping out virtually all the progress she had made in rehab and forcing her to relearn how to walk and talk from scratch. Again. She has had eight brain surgeries in total. Most of them months apart.

Kristen also connects the dots between her repeated seizures, the scar tissue on her brain, and her schizoaffective disorder diagnosis — explaining how seizure activity can actually trigger schizophrenia in some patients, something most people have never been told.

This episode covers what daily life with seizures actually looks like — why she can’t drive, why she uses a Life Alert device, why she avoids the stove and oven, and why the fear of having a seizure in public has made her increasingly isolated. She talks honestly about not wanting to be a burden to the people around her, the stress that triggers her seizures, and her very real goal of getting back outside, getting back social, and eventually getting back on a bike.

She also shares something that stopped the conversation cold — her dog could sense when a seizure was coming by detecting changes in her heart rate. He passed away two months before this episode was recorded. She is getting another one.

Practical, personal, and completely unfiltered. If you or someone you love lives with seizures, this episode was made for you.

Subscribe, share, and follow Kristen’s journey at https:kristentoepfer.com

Join Kristen and cohost Billy Montana for monthly episodes filled with advocacy, education, and inspiring conversations.

Together, let's raise awareness for stroke and aphasia and support each other on the journey to recovery.
http://kristentoepfer.com

]]> The Kristen Toepfer Podcast Buzzsprout-19265693 Sat, 30 May 2026 16:00:00 -0400 2049 1 4 full false Why My Brain is an A**hole — Part 1: Living With Mental Illness After a Stroke Why My Brain is an A**hole — Part 1: Living With Mental Illness After a Stroke This is the episode most people wouldn’t have the courage to record. Kristen Toepfer has never been most people.

In this raw and deeply personal episode, Kristen pulls back the curtain on something that doesn’t get talked about enough in the stroke recovery world — the mental health battle that can come after surviving a brain injury. For Kristen, that battle hit hard. Earlier this year she found herself in and out of inpatient psychiatric care, experiencing paranoia, delusions, and hallucinations so vivid she couldn’t tell what was real and what wasn’t. She called the police on herself. She called ambulances. She was that scared.

Kristen opens up about being diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder — a condition that affects only 0.3% of the population — and how the scar tissue from her eight brain surgeries, combined with her longstanding bipolar disorder and a period of painful isolation, created a perfect storm that led to a full nervous breakdown. She explains what schizoaffective disorder actually means, what hallucinations and delusions really feel like from the inside — nothing like the movies — and why the medication that helps her stay stable is something she will never stop taking.

She also talks about bipolar disorder — she was first diagnosed at 14 years old — and what it actually looks like to live with Bipolar 1. Not the dramatic mood-swing version people imagine, but the reality of cycling through months of highs and months of lows, and learning to watch your own routine as an early warning system before things go sideways.

This episode is for every stroke survivor who has felt their mental health unraveling and didn’t know why. It’s for every family member who watched someone they love disappear into paranoia and had no idea what to do. And it’s for anyone who has ever been too ashamed to ask for help.

Kristen asked for help. And she’s here to tell you that you can too.

Subscribe, share, and follow Kristen’s journey at kristentoepfer.com

Join Kristen and cohost Billy Montana for monthly episodes filled with advocacy, education, and inspiring conversations.

Together, let's raise awareness for stroke and aphasia and support each other on the journey to recovery.
http://kristentoepfer.com

]]> This is the episode most people wouldn’t have the courage to record. Kristen Toepfer has never been most people.

In this raw and deeply personal episode, Kristen pulls back the curtain on something that doesn’t get talked about enough in the stroke recovery world — the mental health battle that can come after surviving a brain injury. For Kristen, that battle hit hard. Earlier this year she found herself in and out of inpatient psychiatric care, experiencing paranoia, delusions, and hallucinations so vivid she couldn’t tell what was real and what wasn’t. She called the police on herself. She called ambulances. She was that scared.

Kristen opens up about being diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder — a condition that affects only 0.3% of the population — and how the scar tissue from her eight brain surgeries, combined with her longstanding bipolar disorder and a period of painful isolation, created a perfect storm that led to a full nervous breakdown. She explains what schizoaffective disorder actually means, what hallucinations and delusions really feel like from the inside — nothing like the movies — and why the medication that helps her stay stable is something she will never stop taking.

She also talks about bipolar disorder — she was first diagnosed at 14 years old — and what it actually looks like to live with Bipolar 1. Not the dramatic mood-swing version people imagine, but the reality of cycling through months of highs and months of lows, and learning to watch your own routine as an early warning system before things go sideways.

This episode is for every stroke survivor who has felt their mental health unraveling and didn’t know why. It’s for every family member who watched someone they love disappear into paranoia and had no idea what to do. And it’s for anyone who has ever been too ashamed to ask for help.

Kristen asked for help. And she’s here to tell you that you can too.

Subscribe, share, and follow Kristen’s journey at kristentoepfer.com

Join Kristen and cohost Billy Montana for monthly episodes filled with advocacy, education, and inspiring conversations.

Together, let's raise awareness for stroke and aphasia and support each other on the journey to recovery.
http://kristentoepfer.com

]]> The Kristen Toepfer Podcast Buzzsprout-19263829 Sat, 30 May 2026 01:00:00 -0400 2425 1 3 full false What Is Aphasia? — Inside the Condition Nobody Talks About What Is Aphasia? — Inside the Condition Nobody Talks About Most people have never heard the word aphasia — and that’s exactly the problem. In this episode, Kristen Toepfer breaks it down from the inside out. Aphasia is a brain disorder that affects a person’s ability to speak, understand, read, write, and even process numbers — and it affects millions of stroke survivors who are left to navigate it with little public awareness and even less understanding from the people around them.

Kristen gets real about what it was actually like to lose language completely. For two years after her stroke she couldn’t talk, couldn’t use a phone, couldn’t get on the internet — she sat in her backyard and watched birds because that was all she could do. She describes the disconnect between having a sharp, fully functioning mind and being completely unable to get a single word out of her mouth. Her thoughts were all there. Her voice was not.

In this episode you’ll hear how speech therapy works from the beginning — learning associations all over again, starting with baby books, sounding out syllables like a child learning to talk for the very first time. Kristen also covers physical therapy, occupational therapy, and what spasticity actually feels like when your arm gets locked and you have to fight your own body just to move your fingers.

And true to the spirit of this podcast — from the funny to the yucky — Kristen shares the story of accidentally buying what she thought was a cart full of $2 items on Amazon, and the time her aphasia had her walking into the men’s bathroom more than once. Wearing a helmet.

This episode also covers stroke prevention — including a smoothie recipe Billy swears by, why you need a blood pressure cuff at home, and why by the time you feel your blood pressure it may already be too late.

Honest, educational, and at times laugh-out-loud funny. This is what aphasia really looks like.

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Join Kristen and cohost Billy Montana for monthly episodes filled with advocacy, education, and inspiring conversations.

Together, let's raise awareness for stroke and aphasia and support each other on the journey to recovery.
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]]> Most people have never heard the word aphasia — and that’s exactly the problem. In this episode, Kristen Toepfer breaks it down from the inside out. Aphasia is a brain disorder that affects a person’s ability to speak, understand, read, write, and even process numbers — and it affects millions of stroke survivors who are left to navigate it with little public awareness and even less understanding from the people around them.

Kristen gets real about what it was actually like to lose language completely. For two years after her stroke she couldn’t talk, couldn’t use a phone, couldn’t get on the internet — she sat in her backyard and watched birds because that was all she could do. She describes the disconnect between having a sharp, fully functioning mind and being completely unable to get a single word out of her mouth. Her thoughts were all there. Her voice was not.

In this episode you’ll hear how speech therapy works from the beginning — learning associations all over again, starting with baby books, sounding out syllables like a child learning to talk for the very first time. Kristen also covers physical therapy, occupational therapy, and what spasticity actually feels like when your arm gets locked and you have to fight your own body just to move your fingers.

And true to the spirit of this podcast — from the funny to the yucky — Kristen shares the story of accidentally buying what she thought was a cart full of $2 items on Amazon, and the time her aphasia had her walking into the men’s bathroom more than once. Wearing a helmet.

This episode also covers stroke prevention — including a smoothie recipe Billy swears by, why you need a blood pressure cuff at home, and why by the time you feel your blood pressure it may already be too late.

Honest, educational, and at times laugh-out-loud funny. This is what aphasia really looks like.

Subscribe, share, and follow Kristen’s journey at kristentoepfer.com

Join Kristen and cohost Billy Montana for monthly episodes filled with advocacy, education, and inspiring conversations.

Together, let's raise awareness for stroke and aphasia and support each other on the journey to recovery.
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]]> The Kristen Toepfer Podcast Buzzsprout-19263621 Sat, 30 May 2026 00:00:00 -0400 2542 1 2 full false From the Runway to Fighting for My Life...How to overcome a stroke. From the Runway to Fighting for My Life...How to overcome a stroke. In this premiere episode, Kristen Toepfer takes you back to where it all began — the bright lights of New York Fashion Week, the runway, and the dream she had worked her entire life to reach. As an industrial engineer at UPS for nearly 20 years and a model who had just walked her first NYFW show for Supermodels Unlimited Magazine, Kristen was living two lives and loving every second of it. Then everything stopped.

Kristen opens up about the warning signs she pushed through during Fashion Week — the headaches, the neck pain, the feeling that something wasn’t right — and why she ignored them, because the show had to go on. She walks us through the night her life changed forever: waking up unable to move or speak, calling her husband John in a panic, and being rushed to the hospital where doctors told her family she might not survive the night.

This is the episode that started it all. Raw, honest, and told entirely in Kristen’s own words — no sugarcoating, no inspirational talk. Just the truth about what it feels like to go from walking a runway on top of the world to fighting for your life 24 hours later.

If you’ve ever ignored a warning sign because life was too busy to stop — this one is for you.

Subscribe, share, and follow Kristen’s journey at https://kristentoepfer.com.

Join Kristen and cohost Billy Montana for monthly episodes filled with advocacy, education, and inspiring conversations.

Together, let's raise awareness for stroke and aphasia and support each other on the journey to recovery.
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]]> In this premiere episode, Kristen Toepfer takes you back to where it all began — the bright lights of New York Fashion Week, the runway, and the dream she had worked her entire life to reach. As an industrial engineer at UPS for nearly 20 years and a model who had just walked her first NYFW show for Supermodels Unlimited Magazine, Kristen was living two lives and loving every second of it. Then everything stopped.

Kristen opens up about the warning signs she pushed through during Fashion Week — the headaches, the neck pain, the feeling that something wasn’t right — and why she ignored them, because the show had to go on. She walks us through the night her life changed forever: waking up unable to move or speak, calling her husband John in a panic, and being rushed to the hospital where doctors told her family she might not survive the night.

This is the episode that started it all. Raw, honest, and told entirely in Kristen’s own words — no sugarcoating, no inspirational talk. Just the truth about what it feels like to go from walking a runway on top of the world to fighting for your life 24 hours later.

If you’ve ever ignored a warning sign because life was too busy to stop — this one is for you.

Subscribe, share, and follow Kristen’s journey at https://kristentoepfer.com.

Join Kristen and cohost Billy Montana for monthly episodes filled with advocacy, education, and inspiring conversations.

Together, let's raise awareness for stroke and aphasia and support each other on the journey to recovery.
http://kristentoepfer.com

]]> The Kristen Toepfer Podcast Buzzsprout-19263238 Fri, 29 May 2026 22:00:00 -0400 2093 1 2 full false