Same-Sex Attracted and a Christian. Now What?

The Previous Two Episodes Presented the War Between the Flesh and the Spirit, and God Disciplining His Children as Proofs of Being Born Again. In this Episode, I add a heart that cries Abba, Daddy.

Mon, 06 Jul 2026 09:00:00 -0500

Galatians 5:17: the war within born-again believers in Jesus proves that someone is born again. Hebrews 12:8: God discipling His children is another proof. This is how it reads in the Amplified Bible: "Now if you are exempt from correction and left without discipline in which all [of God's children] share, then you are illegitimate offspring and not true sons (generic for male and female; my insertion) [at all]." If these are missing in someone who professes to be a Christian, they are not born again or are a prodigal who turned themselves over to the desires of the flesh; actually, God turned them over to these desires because of ongoing disobedience (1 Corinthians 5:1-5). Check out the episodes that are the account of my being a prodigal. In this episode, I've included a third proof of being born again: a heart that cries, "Abba, Daddy" (Mark 14:36; Romans 8:14-16; Galatians 4:4-17). I've also included why praying the sinner's prayer to become a Christian is more than extremely dangerous.

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Follow up to the Previous Episode: You Identify Yourself as a Gay Christian, Because You've Invited Jesus into Your Heart (the Sinner's Prayer) - but are You Born Again (what it Means to be a Christian)? How can You Know for Sure?

Sat, 04 Jul 2026 07:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I share several verses that prove we are born again. I also unpack 1 Thessalonians 4:1-8 and how it applies to a born-again believer who identifies as a gay Christian - and the seriousness of it before Jesus. This may be the most confronting episode that I've recorded - because confrontation is the door-opener to transformation.

From my heart to yours

Dennis

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You Identify Yourself as a Gay Christian, Because You've Invited Jesus into Your Heart (the Sinner's Prayer) - but are You Born Again (what it Means to be a Christian)? How can You Know for Sure?

Fri, 03 Jul 2026 12:00:00 -0500

Far too often, praying the Sinner's Prayer to ask Jesus into one's life is thought of as the agent in becoming a Christian: to be born again. This is a condensed version: "Dear God, I confess that I am a sinner. I believe that Jesus died for my sins. I also believe that He arose from the grave. I invite Jesus into my life." I add "dangerously far too often" because the Bible teaches that the Holy Spirit is the Agent in becoming born again, what it means to be a Christian, and not a prayer we pray - an act of the will - as if it activates Him (Revelation 3:20). Eternity is at stake if we don't know the difference, and that Galatians 5:17 proves that we are born again. It applies to all people who profess to be Christians. And it hinges on Romans 10:17 preached in its fullest: "Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of Christ." Please check out "The Gospel the Devil Loves" on YouTube; it says it all.

From my heart to yours, Dennis

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A Sluggish Highchair Christian and Proverbs 2:1-5: Verses that Come with Amazing Promises when we Step out of our Spiritual Highchair

Fri, 26 Jun 2026 09:00:00 -0500

I recorded an earlier episode about being a highchair Christian: never learning to feed ourselves from God's Word - and shabbily short on private prayer and worship (Check it out: "The Joy of Being a Closet Christian.") In this episode, I've added "sluggish" to describe Christians who are satisfied with the present evangelical status quo: If it doesn't make you feel good, you are falling short of what it means to have a relationship with God. It produces what I experienced in my life: running in circles in "the wilderness" and being blindsided that I was there: embarrassingly sluggish in my relationship with God. I discovered that Proverbs 2:1-5 was the way out. I said pretty much the same thing in the first episode about being a high-chair Christian. This time, I added something new and powerfully transformative that I've recently learned about, which links to the Proverbs 2 promises of discerning the fear of God and discovering the knowledge of God. There are two Hebrew words translated into English as "fear" that have different meanings. One speaks of being terrified of God and running from Him. The other speaks of moving toward Him in awe and reverence, safe in Christ and in the Father's love: the promise of making Proverbs 2:15 the goal of our Christian life, and "doing it! - no room being sluggish. So, listen to this video, and get going. From my heart to yours, Dennis

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Hebrews 4:15 Tells us Jesus was Tempted in All Things as We Are. Does that Mean "Every" Temptation Common to Man?

Mon, 22 Jun 2026 08:00:00 -0500

For decades, I thought that, yes, Jesus was tempted by every temptation that is common to man (1 Corinthians 10:13). I now realize that would have meant just that: every temptation, such as Jesus being sexually attracted to a man, wanting to commit murder, rape, and abusing a child - and on and on and on. That is not what the author of Hebrews 4:15 had in mind. I take you on a journey through Scripture to prove it. When I finished recording this episode, I realized it may be the most important one I will record. Understanding Hebrews 4:15 is necessary for spiritual maturity and for living a life of holiness, which God expects and demands of a born-again believer in Jesus. Check out the episodes that align with His demand: "Fighting Temptations by Putting on the Armor of God Means More than Quoting Verses in Ephesians 6:11-17" and "What God Demands of all Christians - and it is Serious: 1 Thessalonians 4:2-8." From my heart to yours, Dennis

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I Repent and Apologize for Omitting Strategic Verses in the Episode: Have You Heard that Jesus Said Nothing (Condemning) About Homosexuality? Is that Blaspheming His Divinity?

Sun, 21 Jun 2026 07:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I provide the verses that I omitted. They speak for themselves: Jesus didn't say anything directly about homosexuality. He provided the truth that condemns it. But it doesn't mean that He did not die for the sin of homosexuality and all that it involves - for those who turn to him in repentance and saving faith. I am living proof. Check out the episodes: "From Sexual Abuse to Sexual Addiction to Jesus," and "Born Again: Often Misunderstood and Maligned." And I emphasize that being born again does not eradicate all of the damage before we are born again that afterward festers in our flesh. Biblically dealing with that "leftover festering " is the heart and soul of my podcast.

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Compassion that Coddles, Deceives, and Imprisons...Compassion that Convicts, is Grounded in Truth, and Transforms...Do You Know the Difference?

Sat, 20 Jun 2026 07:00:00 -0500

This episode has the potential to open the door of a prison that masquerades as grace and is a lie. You may be in that prison, unaware of it. And I ask: Of the two kinds of compassion, which one describes your church and you? This episode may answer that question - and free you to experience transformation.

This is the link to Becket Cook's "The Becket Cook Show" that I mention in this episode, in which he interviews Elizabeth Woning, a former feminist lesbian who is now born-again and has been married to her husband for more than twenty years.

https://youtu.be/NQnyn7AijeM?si=dcRqEZ3i0n11SD1w

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A Feminist Lesbian, now a Born-Again Believer in Christ, Helped Me to Understand Gay Affirming Churches and Seminaries

Fri, 19 Jun 2026 09:00:00 -0500

Today is Friday, June 19, 2026, a beautiful morning here in Chicago, making the Windy City even more stunning. What I share in this episode is also stunning and unto the glory of Christ! Yesterday, I tuned into YouTube. Among the videos was "The Lord Removed All Doubt: A Gay-Affirming Lesbian Comes to Christ," from Becket Cook's podcast, The Becket Cook Show. The woman: Elizabeth Woning, who lived as a gay-affirming woman, is now married for 21 years and is the co-founder of Changed, a ministry committed to bringing "the true gospel" to the LGBTQ+ community. Elizabeth helped me understand the motivations behind gay-affirming churches and seminaries more deeply. Please check out my episodes on gay affirming churches, pastors who identify as gay, and evangelical pastors who identify a parishioner attracted to the same sex as a gay Christian. What Elizabeth shared was the "icing on the cake" to those episodes. I've provided the link to access Becket Cook's video. Or enter: the Lord removed all doubt: a gay affirming lesbian comes to Christ. I believe you will find it riveting, as I did.

https://youtu.be/NQnyn7AijeM?si=dcRqEZ3i0n11SD1w

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A Call to Prodigals to Come Home: "Do Not Fear You are Mine" (Isaiah 43:1); "I Will Not Forget You...I Have Inscribed You on the Palms of My Hands" (Isaiah 49:15-16)

Thu, 18 Jun 2026 10:00:00 -0500

This is the second time I've recorded this episode. I deleted the original because I was a prodigal called home, and I want to do my best in being used by the Lord to call prodigals home from their distant countries (Luke 15:13) - and I wasn't happy with the first recording. I wanted this episode to be a better effort - although still far from perfect. Please check out "My Journey to Becoming a Prodigal" and the two episodes "A Prodigal Son Comes Home." They detail my journey. To my sister and brother in Christ living in "distant countries," come home and get your robe, ring, and sandals (Luke 15:22), the love of your Savior and Lord. From my heart to yours, Dennis

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Have You Heard that Jesus Said Nothing (Condemning) About Homosexuality in the Gospels? Is that Blaspheming His Divinity?

Wed, 17 Jun 2026 10:00:00 -0500

I usually provide a text that introduces the episode. I've decided to let the title speak for itself. Up front: This episode falls short of what has become the 11th Commandment: "Thou Shalt Nice." But "nice" can also be a door-opener to hell. This is not an easy-listening episode. Be prepared.

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If Your Relationship with Your Parents Needs Healing, How God Healed My Relationship with My Father May Encourage You

Tue, 16 Jun 2026 10:00:00 -0500

In past episodes, I've shared how God healed my relationship with my father - even like Jonah, "kicking and screaming." And I am aware that many, even most, of the men and women who tune into my podcast and are same-sex attracted have painful relationships with their parents that need healing. It is why I've recorded this episode, which focuses on my father and me and our mutual healing. I pray that it will encourage you.

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Are You Jealous About Spending Time Alone with God? Or is it Just a Checklist on Your Daily to-do List, Sometimes an Inconvenience?

Tue, 16 Jun 2026 08:00:00 -0500

I am going to let the title of this episode speak for itself as you listen. Is it the road Jesus said few find, meaning Christians and not only non-Christians? And I ask, please go to YouTube and select "The Secret Walk with God that Few will ever Take," by Leonard Ravenhill. It is the title of this episode in a nutshell.

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As David Confessed His Sins of Adultery and Murder, He Said, "Wipe Out My Guilty Deeds?" (Psalm 51:9) Why Not "Just My Sins"?

Sat, 13 Jun 2026 16:00:00 -0500

This episode is a continuation and a deeper dive into the episode "What does Isaiah 53:10, Jesus Rendering Himself as a Guilt Offering Mean for You if You are Born Again"? (In that episode, I mistakenly l quoted Isaiah 53:7; it should have been Isaiah 53:10. I've corrected it. Also, in this episode, I may have made the same mistake in the audio. I apologize.) I take you in this episode to Psalm 51, where David confesses his sin of committing adultery with Bathsheba and arranging the murder of her husband, Uriah, to cover it up. Why did David refer to those sins as guilty deeds? And I ask before you listen to this episode: Has confessing our guilt been missing from our confessions of sin? And what does Psalm 34:21-22 say about it in the New American Standard Bible (NASB), the 2020 edition? Have we short-sighted ourselves? Although I quote the NASB's 2020 and 1995 versions of Psalm 34 in this episode, if you don't have those editions, try googling Psalm 34 in the 2020 and 1995 editions. I find the 2020 edition more encouraging. And where does The Law fit into it? And has the evangelical church lost sight of The Law as a manifestation of God's character? I address these questions in this episode. Please continue.

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If Your Heart Cries Abba Father (Poppa: Romans 8:15:16) - it's Proof You've Been Executed, Resurrected, and Adopted: Born Again

Fri, 12 Jun 2026 09:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I take you on a journey through Scripture that explains what it means to be executed, resurrected, and adopted, and that a heart that cries, "Abba," proves it. If that is not the cry of your heart, I explain why that is - even if you believe in Jesus - and what to do about it. Also, check out the episode "Born Again: So Often Misunderstood and Maligned." From my heart to yours, Dennis

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A Call to Christians Identifying as a Gay Christian and with LGBTQ+: Come out of Babylon (Rev. 18:4)

Thu, 11 Jun 2026 10:00:00 -0500

This episode will motivate you to repent or fill you with anger against me, so please let the episode speak for itself: in other words, the ball is in your corner. But remember this: I've lived through everything that you will hear. From my heart to yours.

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Jesus, in John 5:39-40, Confronted the Pharisees for Thinking Eternal Life was Searching Scripture, but they Refused to Come to Him. Does that Apply to You and Me?

Wed, 10 Jun 2026 09:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I share how the Holy Spirit opened my eyes to the fact that I was filling my mind with Scripture, a good and necessary thing (John 17:17), and at the same time falling short of what Jesus said in John 17:3 is eternal life: now! I take you on that journey, which continues to this day and will continue every day thereafter. I pray that you will join me, if you aren't already there.

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What Does Isaiah 53: 10, Jesus Rendered Himself a Guilt Offering Mean for You if You are Born Again (John 3:3)?

Mon, 08 Jun 2026 17:00:00 -0500

On Sunday morning, May 31, 2026, I was reading Psalm 34:22 to prepare myself for the worship service at my home church, Chicago's Park Community Church South Loop, Pastor Raef Chenery (Check out his sermons on YouTube; just enter the name of the church. I've never had a pastor unpack Scripture as he does.). On that Sunday morning, it was as if I were reading the verse for the first time: "those who take refuge in Him will not suffer for their guilt." And it aligns with Isaiah 53:7, Jesus' rendering (freely surrendering Himself) as a guilt offering. I was reading in the New American Standard Bible (NASB) that I keep next to my chair in the living room. When I read the same verses in the NASB that I keep next to my computer a day later, it read, "none of those who take refuge in Him will be condemned." So did the English Standard and New International Version Bibles. I returned to check the NASB beside my chair and realized it was the 2020 version. The NASB next to my computer is the 1995 version. In this episode, I take you on a journey into how the 2020 version of Psalm 34:22 impacted my life: deeply! More like, profoundly! Eternally! I will never suffer for my guilt, and it was deep, because Jesus gave Himself as a guilt offering for me. The same is true for you if you are a born-again believer in Jesus. Those who are not born again will suffer their guilt eternally, unless they flee to Jesus to be born again. If that's you, please check out my episode, "Born Again: So Often Misunderstood and Maligned." Note: the original title of this episode listed Isaiah 53:7, not 53:10, the correct verse. I've made the correction. From my heart to yours, Dennis.

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Why Would an Evangelical Pastor Identify a Parishioner Attracted to the Same Sex a Gay Christian?

Sat, 06 Jun 2026 17:00:00 -0500

Regarding the question in the title of this podcast, I believe there are many reasons, which I discuss in this episode. At the top of the list is the lack of an in-depth understanding of sanctification in a born-again believer's life, and in the pastor's own life. The recent "fall" of a cadre of evangelical pastors proves that you can't pastor a church and disciple others beyond your own sanctification and continually moving forward in it. Sanctification is never static. And neither is moving a church forward in spiritual maturity. My intent is not to condemn, but a call to unpack the core doctrines of the faith from the pulpit within the canon of Scripture - and not randomly. Because the core doctrines of the faith collectively are the rock on which we build our house, which will stand against the storms that rage against it. And I place the storm of the flesh's profane and sinful desires at the top of the list (Galatians 5:17). The house is our life in Christ.

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Speaking to Christians who Identify as Gay Christians: Is the Rainbow Flag Your Banner or the Cross of Jesus Christ?

Sat, 06 Jun 2026 11:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I make it clear that if you are trying to play both ends against the middle by identifying with the rainbow flag and the cross, because you identify yourself as a gay Christian, you are sinning. Why? They are more than mutually exclusive; they are eternally exclusive. The so-called rainbow flag speaks of rebellion against God's creation ordinances of sexuality, gender, and marriage; spiritual death; God's wrath and judgment; and hell. The cross speaks of Jesus ' atonement on the cross, mercy, grace, forgiveness, love, and heaven. The rainbow flag and all it represents rob you of your true identity as a Christian. And I take you on a journey through 1 Corinthians 15:40-48 to prove it.

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Israel as a Nation Hosted a Gay Celebration, 6/1 through 6/4 Near the Site of Sodom and Gomorrah

Sat, 06 Jun 2026 10:00:00 -0500

I am writing this on June 6, 2026. I woke up around 3 am, signed in on YouTube, and a video popped up: "There is No Way- Israel to Host Pride City near Sodom and Gomorrah 2026." Were Sodom and Gomorrah real places that God destroyed with fire and brimstone because of their shameless acts of sexual perversion? Read the Epistle of Jude 1: 4-7. The video contains an archaeologist proving that Sodom and Gomorrah were real places and destroyed by fire and brimstone, a drag queen in a kindergarten class, excerpts from gay pride parades, and a warning from a preacher who sounded like Dave Wilkerson. I recorded what I've written here, if you still want to check out the audio.

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The Book of 1 Chronicles Chapter 12:32: A Call to Christians and Pastors to Quit Acting Like Lot Did in Sodom

Fri, 05 Jun 2026 17:00:00 -0500

This episode is a continuation of the episode "Way Too Many Christians, Including Pastors, Live Like Lot in Sodom Vexed by Modern Sodom and Like Lot Do Not Stand Against the Perversion Until It Knocks at the Front Door" (2 Peter 2:7-8). This episode is a call to "put off Lot" and put on the men described in 1 Chronicles 12:32.

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Way too Many Christians, Including Pastors, Live Like Lot in Sodom, Vexed by Modern Sodom and Like Lot do not Stand Against the Perversion Until it Knocks at the Front Door

Fri, 05 Jun 2026 16:00:00 -0500

Please check out this episode to see if you are a modern-day Lot living in modern-day Sodom and Gomorrah, sitting at your city gate, vexed but silent (2 Peter 2:7-8). And if you are, I exhort you to do something about it: Starting now! And if modern-day Sodom found its way into your home with your children, know that it is time to trust God to make up for what seems lost but can be redeemed in Christ (Romans 8:28).

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Romans 8:7: the Mind Set on the Flesh is Hostile Toward God. The Condition of Fallen Humanity? Or a Choice We Make?

Thu, 04 Jun 2026 18:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I take you on a journey through Scripture for the answer. My finding the answer is one of the reasons I recorded this podcast. Because the answer is foundational to building your house, my house, your Christian life, my Christian life, so we will stand against the storms that want to topple YOU and ME (Matthew 7:24-27). Satan's storms. The storms of the flesh? Sickness. Suffering? Persecution. Government that is anti-Christ. The world (metaphorically Babylon) that hates God. Wolves who pass themselves off as teachers and pastors who distort the Word of God, who will bring you with them into God's wrath and judgment - if you don't discern by God's word that they are wolves. And it happens when Christians fall short in knowing the attributes of God, what it means to fear God, who they were "in Adam," what it means to be born again and all that goes with it, and how to biblically walk in sanctification - the heart and soul of this podcast! Be challenged and blessed as you listen!

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The Deceitfulness of Sin (Hebrews 3:13) - and the So-Called "Little Sins" that Drain the Vitality of Our Relationship with God (Part2)

Thu, 04 Jun 2026 10:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I provide examples of behaviors and attitudes that take hold of a Christian (born again) when the deceitfulness of the "so-called" little sins takes root and becomes a lifestyle that drains the vitality of their relationship with God. I apologize that a news bulletin popped up on the screen, preventing me from closing the recording as I normally would have.

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The Deceitfulness of Sin (Hebrews 3:13) - and the So-Called "Little Sins" that Drain the Vitality of Our Relationship with God

Thu, 04 Jun 2026 09:00:00 -0500

I've recorded this episode using the Song of Solomon Chapter 2:13: "Take for us the foxes, the little foxes that spoil the vineyards [vineyards of our love]," as a metaphor for how the deceitfulness of sin - the so-called little sins - drains and weakens our relationship with God - and the vitality of the church as a whole.

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Is the USA as a Nation in 2026 Included in Romans 1:16-32: God's Wrath? Part B

Wed, 03 Jun 2026 17:00:00 -0500

This is Part B of "Is the USA as a Nation in 2026 Included in Romans 1:16-32: God's Wrath?" In this episode, using Scripture that reveals God's wrath poured out on entire nations and cities, I ask: If the USA is under God's wrath, will He remove it? And why?

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Is the USA as a Nation in 2026 Included in Romans 1:16-32: God's Wrath?

Wed, 03 Jun 2026 09:00:00 -0500

Please check out this episode for the answer. God's word will speak for itself.

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What Scripture Says About Pastors Openly Celebrating They are Gay with Their Partners - and if they don't have a partner? And it is Also Frightening

Tue, 02 Jun 2026 16:00:00 -0500

This episode is a sequel to "What Defines a Gay Affirming Church in the Context of Scripture is Frightening." And what Scripture says about so-called gay pastors who celebrate their "gayness" with their partners in the pulpit on Sunday morning is more frightening - the same is true without a partner. If you've listened to the episodes that chronicle my life, I would be the biggest hypocrite in the world if I posted this episode to point a finger and condemn. Eternity is at stake, and I don't want anyone to go to hell. What I am saying in this episode, in the vernacular is: Wake up! Smell the coffee. Repent and run to the loving arms of Jesus.

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What Defines a Gay Affirming Church in Context with Scripture is Frightening!

Tue, 02 Jun 2026 09:00:00 -0500

What do I mean by a gay affirming church? It is defined in Jude 1:4 and Titus 2:11-12. Please continue to find out. And yes - it is frightening!

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What Gave Me the Audacity to Record this Podcast?

Tue, 02 Jun 2026 07:00:00 -0500

The verses that gave me the audacity to record this podcast are Judges 6: 25-26 and Romans 8:28-31. I pray that this episode will birth "audacity" in you.

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Do You Realize that if You are Born Again, You are a Gift From the Father to Jesus?

Mon, 01 Jun 2026 10:00:00 -0500

This episode is a follow-up to Your Life on Earth is Precious to God. Realizing that Dennis Belkofer, with all my sins and desires of the flesh, is a gift to Jesus melted my heart - wanting to please Him more than ever by obeying Him. If you've been born again, you, too, are a gift to Jesus. From one gift to another gift - and from my heart (the new one in Christ) to your heart. Dennis

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Your Life on Earth is Precious to God - Because it is God's Parenting Program: Sanctification in a Nutshell. I Pray this Episode Will Help to Crack the Shell!

Mon, 01 Jun 2026 09:00:00 -0500

So far, this is the shortest episode that I've recorded - and one of the most loving. In short, this episode is about growing up to be a child. Thanks for checking it out.

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Is a Support Group for Christians Struggling with Same-Sex Attraction a Good Idea?

Mon, 01 Jun 2026 08:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I share why I believe, speaking from experience, that a support group for Christians struggling with same-sex attraction is not a good idea - and what I believe is the reason why a pastor would promote it.

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Same-Sex and Opposite-Sex Cruising Hook Ups: like a Hungry Lion Inside You Wanting to Devour Someone Through You Sexually (Genesis 4:7)

Sun, 31 May 2026 17:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I compare cruising, wanting to pick up someone for sex (same sex and opposite sex), to a hungry lion inside of us wanting to use us to devour someone sexually. And I share examples from my life, now repented of, and hating the wicked and disgusting pleasure of devouring/defiling another man's body and my own. In Genesis 4:7, God told Cain, “Sin crouches at the door, and its desire is for you; but you must master it." Sin, the festering desires that defy God's moral laws and creation ordinances of sexuality, gender, and marriage, even not acted upon, is the hungry lion inside of us crouching at the door of our will and wanting to use us to sexually defile someone and ourselves. How? By engaging in sex, same-sex and opposite-sex, outside God’s covenant of marriage: one man and one woman (opposite sex only).

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Is Your Confession of Sin God -Centered or Self-Centered? Is Your Repenting Strong or Weak?

Sat, 30 May 2026 15:00:00 -0500

For some reason, the battery in my computer is low. Not sure why, because it's plugged in. Please go right to the episode. And I hope it challenges, blesses, and encourages you. Dennis

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Books and Authors that Teach How a Born-Again Believer in Jesus Deals with the Desires and Appetites of the Flesh Biblically

Sat, 30 May 2026 14:00:00 -0500

I am happy to strongly recommend purchasing the following books to help you deal with your own battle with the flesh. They can be purchased online. In this episode, I provide excerpts from each of them: The Mortification of Sin: John Owen; The Enemy Within: Straight Talk About the Power and Defeat of Sin: Kris Lundgaard; Hacking Agag to Pieces (a small but powerful booklet): John MacArthur; The Lust of the Flesh: Thinking Biblically About Sexual Orientation Attraction and Temptation by Jared Moore. Jared has a number of videos on YouTube. Check out the one that exposes Preston Sprinkle's twisted theology. Also check out Michael Reeves and his YouTube videos on our identity in Christ and the Trinity: they are life-transforming. So are the YouTube videos of my pastor's sermons, Raef Chenery of Chicago's Park Community Church South Loop; simply enter the church's name.

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1970's/1980s: Pastors Thought They Needed Clinical Training to Minister to Their Parishioners Who Were Same-Sex Attracted - and the Hurt it Caused

Sat, 30 May 2026 08:00:00 -0500

I suggest you listen to this episode without my introduction. The episode speaks for itself. It is not my intention to throw stones at pastors and church leaders - but to simply tell the truth for the greater good of the church. Thank you!

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My Call to Preston Sprinkle

Fri, 29 May 2026 14:00:00 -0500

It's a call based on concern for him - not to hurt him. Please listen.

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God is Using Preston Sprinkle Despite His Twisted Theology to Open the Eyes of Evangelicalism: A Vacuum that Ironically Opened the Door to Him

Fri, 29 May 2026 14:00:00 -0500

For years, decades, the evangelical church treated homosexuality as almost a sin not covered in the cross. And acted as if there were no born-again believers who struggled with same-sex attraction. The silence was damaging. I've lived through it. Sprinkle is exposing it, and eyes are being opened within the evangelical framework to the truth. But there's a problem: Sprinkle's remedy is making it worse. Evangelical leadership doesn't realize it because it is oblivious to what caused the problem in the first place: not understanding the core doctrine of ongoing personal sanctification, which applies to all born-again believers, including themselves as leaders. You can't teach what you don't know and don't implement yourself. God used the writings of a man who lived more than 300 years ago to teach me: Puritan John Owen. He would be heartsick to see the condition of today's evangelical church. Just allowing Sprinkle in the door is an example.

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The Gay Christian, The Upside-Down Kingdom Bible, and Preston Sprinkle Part 4

Fri, 29 May 2026 11:00:00 -0500

This episode is the fourth in a series. I point out that Sprinkle categorizes humanity in general as gay and straight, and Christians as either gay or straight, which is non-biblical and damaging to the health of secular society and the church. Also, his defining same-sex attraction as a sexual orientation that is not sinful falls short of the Greek word that is translated into English as sin. It is hamartia, meaning to miss the mark or taking another direction. Any thought, desire, memory, or action that falls short of God's moral laws and creation ordinances of sexuality, gender, and marriage "misses the mark" and is sin - even when not carried out in behaviors. I use Romans 1:18-28 to debunk Sprinkle's idea that same sex attraction is not a sin, and to also debunk that it is an attraction. How? By quoting the verses that define sex attraction as missing-the-mark desires of lust that inflame the person. I liken same-sex attraction to a hungry lion waiting to devour another person through same-sex sex - by using body parts that God never intended to be used as sexual organs. Treating same-sex attraction as neutral leaves the door open to that "lion." And like any hungry lion that is set to devour a human being as a meal, it has to be put to death. And with it comes putting to death the gay as a marker of identity. And it is the purpose of this podcast.

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The Gay Christian, Upside-Down Kingdom Bible, and Preston Sprinkle Part 3

Fri, 29 May 2026 09:00:00 -0500

I just finished recording Part 2. If you have not listened to the initial episode and Part 2, I recommend checking out the first one and then Part 2. However, it won't hurt to begin with this episode and backtrack; I provide a review of what I covered in preceding episodes.

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The Gay Christian, Upside-Down Kingdom Bible, and Preston Sprinkle Part 2

Thu, 28 May 2026 16:00:00 -0500

In the first episode, of which this is the second of a series, I explained that the Upside-Down Kingdom Bible is packaged in the New International Version and published by Zondervan. It contains commentary from a cadre of men and women on social issues, relating them to Scripture and Scripture to them. Justin Sprinkle is the general editor and provides commentary on sexuality and gender. I believe in the importance of this series in that pastors, elders, teachers, deans of seminaries and Bible schools, presidents of denominations, and directors/staff of parachurch organizations will be responsible before God if they allow what I read to you from the Upside-Down Kingdom Bible to gain a footing in their churches, seminaries, schools, and organizations, as well as counselors and authors. And I am speaking to parents as well: You are responsible before God to make sure your children understand God's definition of sexuality and gender. So, please take this series seriously.

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The Gay Christian, Upside-Down Kingdom Bible, and Preston Sprinkle

Thu, 28 May 2026 11:00:00 -0500

I believe this episode, the first of a series, may be the most important I record... because it speaks to the well-being of the evangelical church, or what used to be known as evangelicalism. I am committed, using my life journey knowing what it is like to be driven by evil desires that crave sex with another man (not a sexual orientation), to proclaim God's moral laws and creation ordinances of sexuality, gender, and marriage - which the idea of the gay Christian perverts and Preston Sprinkle perverts in the Upside-Down Kingdom Bible. I believe in the importance of this series in that pastors, elders, teachers, deans of seminaries and Bible schools, presidents of denominations, and directors/staff of parachurch organizations will be responsible before God for allowing what I read to you from the Upside-Down Kingdom Bible to gain a footing in their churches, seminaries, schools, and organizations, as well as counselors, authors, and Christian publishers. And I am speaking to parents as well: You are responsible before God to make sure your children understand God's definition of sexuality and gender. So, please take this series seriously.

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The Verse I left Out in My Return to Chicago My Babylon Updated Episode; it's too Powerful to Ignore

Thu, 28 May 2026 09:00:00 -0500

The verse that I couldn't find is Psalm 34:22. I was trying to locate it in the New American Standard Bible (NASB) I keep next to my computer. This morning, I checked it out in the NASB I keep next to my chair in the living room - and there it was. The NASB I keep next to my computer is the 1995 version; the one in my living room is the 2020 version, and I find it a more powerful translation of Psalm 34:22. I explain why in this episode.

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Back to Chicago My Babylon, Updated: Many in My Former Gay Circle Were Dead

Wed, 27 May 2026 15:00:00 -0500

Less than an hour ago, I listened to Back to Chicago My Babylon. It was one of the first episodes that I recorded for this podcast. It had been over a year since I had listened to it, and I realized that I had omitted what I had found when I returned: AIDS had claimed many of my friends, and someone I had considered more than a friend. I omitted it because I felt too guilty to face the fact that I was alive, which is the update.

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Do You Love Your Sin More than You Love God?

Tue, 26 May 2026 11:00:00 -0500

I've asked myself that question. And it's a question that every Christian needs to ask themselves. In this episode, I take you on my journey of coming to the truth that I loved my sin more than I loved God, what I did about it, and where I am today loving God. I pray it will both challenge and encourage you.

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The Arrest of Alan Chambers, the Former Director of Exodus Int., the Largest Ex-Gay Ministry in the World, Disgraced Jesus Again. But it Doesn't Leave You Off the Hook

Mon, 25 May 2026 19:00:00 -0500

In 2013, Alan Chambers disgraced Jesus on National TV. I am recording this episode on May 25, 2026. Last week, Chambers disgraced Jesus again. I leave it up to you to listen to this episode for the details. And I warn: Don't let his sin justify the sin in your life.

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Do You Know who Invented the Words Homosexual and Heterosexual - and the Idea of Sexual Orientation?

Mon, 25 May 2026 17:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I trace the invention of the words homosexual and heterosexual, and the idea of sexual orientation, back to the middle and late 1800s and early 1900s. I also share when the word homosexual first appeared in a translation of the New Testament (1946), and that it opened the door for the present ideas of straight people and gay people as categories of humanity, and straight and gay Christians as categories of Christians. In short: heresies!

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Taking a Beloved Scripture out of Context: John 3:16

Mon, 25 May 2026 09:00:00 -0500

About 6 months ago, I was reading the third chapter of the Gospel of John and realized that for all my Christian life, I had taken John 3:16 out of context with the rest of the chapter. It reads, “For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life.” For the first time, I saw John 3:16 and the verses that follow as Jesus’ conversation with Nicodemus, a spiritual and political leader of the nation of Israel. And it frightened me, because of the many times that I had shared John 3:16 with a non-Christian and led them in prayer to invite Jesus into their lives; I am talking about the sinner's prayer apart from Jesus’ conversation with Nicodemus, in which Jesus made it clear that being born again is the “ONLY” way to enter the kingdom of God. Had I led people in a false conversion? Please check out this episode, which unpacks my concern.

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Wanting What God Does for You More than Wanting Him is Like a Marriage of Convenience

Sat, 23 May 2026 18:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I turn the title into a question: Is wanting God the most important thing in your life? Using an example of a marriage of convenience, I take you on a journey through Scripture to confront you and ask: Do you want God for His gifts and favors, or do you want Him? That question was asked of me about eight years ago, and it changed my Christian life. Please know that I want what is only the best for you. And if I, a redeemed sinner, want that for you, how much more does your Savior and Lord? And what He wants is for you to desire Him more than wanting Him to meet your needs. It is foundational to dealing successfully with the desires of the flesh that, in themselves, even before being acted on, rebel against God and His moral laws and creation ordinances of sexuality, gender, and marriage.

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I was Eating a Bowl of Cabbage Soup and in My Mind, I Heard: God Didn't Want to Spend Eternity Without Me. And The Father Feels the Same Way About You

Thu, 21 May 2026 11:00:00 -0500

Today is May 21, 2026. Yesterday, as I was having lunch at my favorite Chicago diner, this thought entered my mind: God did not want to spend eternity without me. Instantly, it made me look at eternal life in a new and more personal way. God wanted me to share eternity with Him, not to merely walk heaven's streets of gold. In other words, God wanted me for me. As my tears spilled into my bowl of cabbage soup, I decided to record this episode to take you on a journey through Scripture that makes it clear that God didn't want to spend eternity without you, either. If you are born-again, He wanted you because He wanted you - so simple and yet profoundly personal.

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How a Photo of a Dead Opossum Dressed Like a Ballerina Helped me to Understand What it Means to be Born Again. Honest!

Tue, 19 May 2026 16:00:00 -0500

It was a Sunday morning in 2021, and the worship team had finished leading us through a series of songs with their words on the screen above and behind the pulpit. When the pastor walked out, the lyrics to the songs became an unrecognizable blob. He told us it was an opossum dressed like a ballerina, and not to head to the nearest exit. He then explained that the dead opossum, wrapped in a tutu and with a ribbon on its head, will help us understand, in a deeper way, what it means to be born. And did it ever! I am pleased to share what he unpacked with you, because it is foundational to knowing who you are in Christ - and it "ain't" calling yourself a gay Christian - and also how to deal with the inner temptations and baiting of the flesh - the leftovers of inheriting Adam's sin nature through our physical birth. Enjoy!

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Are You a Highchair Christian?

Mon, 18 May 2026 15:00:00 -0500

Highchair Christians attend church on Sunday, gobble up what the pastor feeds them in the sermon, go home, and do not spend time alone with God during the week: never learning how to feed themselves on God's Word, and engaging in one-to-one prayer with Him and worshipping Him. Highchair Christians remain baby Christians, falling short of maturity in Christ. I point out that Jesus, in John 17:1-3, declared that eternal life is knowing God, and 1 John 5:11-13 tells us that if we have Jesus, received Him as Savior and Lord (are born again), we have eternal life: Now! In other words, maturing in the Christian faith is living in eternal life on earth and growing in the knowledge of God. It changes our affections, so we learn to love what God loves and hate what He hates: everything that falls short of His moral laws and creation ordinances of sexuality, gender, and marriage - and that takes spending alone time with Him and learning how to feed ourselves.

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Fighting Temptation by Putting on the Armor of God is More than Quoting the Verses in Ephesians 6:11-17

Fri, 15 May 2026 09:00:00 -0500

Throughout my Christian life, I was told to fight temptation by putting on the armor of God (Ephesians 6:11-17). I listened to people say that the first thing they did in the morning was stand in front of a mirror and imagine themselves putting on the armor, quoting the verses from Ephesians. It never worked for me when I was tempted. In this episode, I take you on a journey through the first two chapters of Ephesians, where Paul explains the armor. In John 17:17, Jesus prayed to the Father to sanctify His disciples in truth, saying, "Your word is truth." Where do we learn God's truth? It's in His written word, Scripture. And what does the written word speak to in our humanity? Our intellect and mind. And that aligns with the exhortation Paul presents in Romans 12:2 to renew the mind, so we can discern God's perfect will. I thought it meant discerning what job He wants for me, whom I should marry; in other words, my temporal life on earth. That is true. But it means more, much more. And we find it in the first two chapters of Ephesians - God's perfect will in choosing His children, Christians, before the foundation of the world. Sanctifying that truth in our minds, and internally, by the Holy Spirit, establishes the armor of God inside of us - our will, emotions, and affections. Putting on the armor of God is putting on who we are in Christ. We start with our minds, and the Holy Spirit cements it within us. Also read, Proverbs, 2: 1-5, eight verb clauses that come with a promise (vv. 6-7). They align with this episode.

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What God Demands of all Christians - and it is Serious: 1 Thessalonians 4:2-8

Thu, 14 May 2026 12:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I take you to a demand that God makes of all Christians: walk in sanctification. And it's found in 1 Thessalonians 4:2-8. And the demand comes with a warning - to Christians. Sanctification is serious business! I also take you to The Song of Solomon 2:15: "The little foxes destroy the vineyard." These are the everyday practices that are benign in themselves but open the door for the devil to tempt us (Ephesians 4:27). I share the doors that I've closed and ask you to consider the doors you should close, which is part of God's demand for your sanctification.

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I'm Gay. So How Do I Repent of Who I Am?

Wed, 13 May 2026 08:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I take you on a history lesson of how the idea that one's sexual desires define them as a person came about. I know personally what it is like to experience same-sex attraction at a young age, and that it can make you think it defines you as a person. I also understand if you have come to that acceptance of yourself – often after years of shame and bullying – to hear that you need to repent can sound like your very humanity is being threatened. You can’t repent of you. But are you defined by your sexual desires? That question alone can stir up anger inside of you. I get that. But remember: I’ve walked where you walk. So, I appeal to you, not as an outsider, but as one “who has been there.” Please check out this episode

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The Madonna Complex (Jesus did not Have Siblings) and a Capacity for Same-Sex Attraction

Tue, 12 May 2026 10:00:00 -0500

This is a continuation of Mother-Son Sexual Abuse and Creating a Capacity for Same-Sex Attraction. In this episode, I share that growing up Catholic taught me that Mary remained a virgin all of her life. The scripture that refutes this is Matthew 1:25. Scriptures that tell us that Jesus had brothers and sisters were explained away by claiming that the Hebrew word for brothers and sisters can also mean cousins. Check out these verses that confirm that Jesus had sisters and brothers: Matthew 12: 46-47 and 13:55-5; Mark 6:3; and John 7:3-5. The Madonna Complex denies Mary's sexuality as God-given, and it whispers that good women, those who model after Mary, do not enjoy sex. I saw it played out in my family and neighborhood by men having adulterous affairs with "whores," who aren't like Mary. At home, their Mary-like wives were more like "baby-making machines," instead of a human being who can enjoy sex the same as men. Not wanting to turn a woman into a whore if she was aggressive in seducing me, and there were a few, I turned to men.

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Mother-Son Sexual Abuse and Creating a Capacity for Same-Sex Attraction: I Experienced It and if Not for Jesus, My Life Would Have Been Detroyed!

Tue, 12 May 2026 09:00:00 -0500

The thought of mother-son sexual abuse asks: How can that be? How can a woman who gave birth to her son, provided for his daily needs, wept when she dropped him off at school when he entered the first grade, held him when she injured himself, and nurtured him back to health through the typical childhood diseases, sexually abuse him? I've experienced it. And in this episode, I share the damage that I suffered because of it. Up-front, I want you to know that I forgave my mother years ago, and before she died in 1985.

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Dealing with Same-Sex and Growing in the Understanding of the Fear of God

Mon, 11 May 2026 14:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I share that growing in what it means to fear God has become the greatest deterrent to my sinning against Him. Because to grow in the fear of God means to also grow in the knowledge of His attributes, even the ones we find hard to accept, like his wrath. In this episode, I read Proverbs 2:1-4, eight verb clauses that if we collectively make them the goal of our life, are followed by a promise: “Then you will discern the fear of the Lord and discover the knowledge of God” (v. 5). To grow in the fear and knowledge of God is to have our spiritual eyes opened by the Holy Spirit to unlock the treasure of who God is (the promise): His holiness (hatred of sin) artistry, wisdom (genius), majesty, foreknowledge, mercy, justice, integrity, and owner of all that is, including the souls of all men, those who living outside of Christ, those in Christ, those in heaven, and those in hell. He owns Satan, demons, and hell. It produces a reverence and respect for God that bubbles over with joy in who He is and deepens how we pray and worship Him with growing awe. Growing in the fear of God deepens our relationship with Him and is the greatest deterrent to disobeying Him – not out of fear of being punished but because we love Him and want to obey Him.

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Dealing with Same-Sex Attraction and Growing in the Knowledge of God's Attributes

Sat, 09 May 2026 17:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I share that growing in the knowledge of God's attributes (all of them and not only that He is love), safeguarded me from turning what I learned about how to deal with same-sex attraction biblically into a formula that centered on how it benefited me more than pleasing God. Please check out the episodes that chronicle how I learned to deal with same-sex attraction biblically. Growing in the knowledge of God's attributes transformed me from being a consumer, horizontal Christian focused on what God will do for me, to a vertical Christian, hungry to know all of who God is. It produced in me a love for what God loves and a hatred for what he hates: same-sex attraction and all desires of the flesh. I've found that growing in the knowledge of God's attributes is a deterrent to sinning against Him. It smashes any formulated and prescriptive way of living the Christian life. Formulas are impersonal. Growing in the knowledge of God's attributes is personal, between the believer and God. It fosters a desire to obey Him for who He is, not only for what He will do for us. Jesus said it all in John 14:15: "If you love me, you will keep my commandments."

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Visuals in the Mind and Dealing with Same-Sex Attraction (and All Desires of the Flesh)

Thu, 07 May 2026 10:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I share that visual memories of my committing same-sex sex would stir up feelings of lust, as if I were committing the sins. I realized that I needed to deal with these memories. Also, I realized that I could be reading a magazine in a doctor’s office, and certain text and a photo could ignite a memory of past sins and arouse lust. And I began looking at Romans 12:2 – to renew the mind (the intellect) – from that perspective, and what, intellectually, made me attracted to men. So, I asked the Lord to help me think this through as I wrote down the reasons. What I experienced was an in-depth repentance and comfort from Jesus that I didn’t know was possible (Matthew 5:4). I often review what I've written, and it continues to help me say “No” to the flesh and “Yes” to the Holy Spirit. I believe it’s a practice that every Christian should engage in repeatedly, regardless of the sins they struggle with.

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How I Learned to Deal with Same-Sex Attraction Biblically Part E

Tue, 05 May 2026 12:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I review the highlights of episodes A, B, C, and D. I add what I learned from Kris Lundgaard's book The Enemy Within (Straight Talk About the Power of Sin) about what the deceptive heart really is, which we read about in Jeremiah 17:9. I include Lundgaard's teaching on the law of sin that resides in the desires of the flesh (Romans 7:21) that seem stronger than we are. I also include my own understanding that the law of the Spirit that is in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:2) is stronger than the law of sin. We experience the law of the Spirit when we partner with the Holy Spirit in our obedience, and He "kills” the desires of the flesh. And I explain what “kills the flesh” means.

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How I Learned to Deal With Same-Sex Attraction Biblically Part D

Mon, 04 May 2026 17:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I explain that the writings of Puritan John Owen, a “theologian’s theologian,” who lived 500 years ago, taught me how to partner with the Holy Spirit to deal with same-sex attraction and all desires of the flesh according to the Word of God. I also reference The Enemy Within (Straight Talk about the Power and Defeat of Sin) by Kris Lundgaard. He bases his understanding of how a Christian deals with sin on John Owen’s book, The Mortification of Sin, which is considered the best book on dealing with sin and the desires of the flesh. Lundgaard defines the law of sin that Paul writes about in Romans 7:22-13, emphasizing that understanding sin, the desires of the flesh, as a law is foundational to dealing with the flesh free from its pull; Lundgaard calls it “freed from sin’s bullying.” I recommend his and Owen’s book, and the daily devotional A Year of Puritan Devotional Readings, Voices from the Past by Banner of Truth. I also take a look at 1 Thessalonians 4:2-8, God’s command to believers to engage in sanctification, to deal biblically with the desires of the flesh. And that anyone who rejects it, rejects Christ. Serious business. With serious consequences – for believers.

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How I Learned to Deal With Same-Sex Attraction Biblically Part C

Mon, 04 May 2026 14:00:00 -0500

I left off with Part B talking about Puritan John Owen, and that Part C was to begin with my sharing how his teachings taught me how to deal with same-sex attraction, and all desires of the flesh, biblically. As I began recording this episode, I realized I needed to first share how being introduced to Reformed Theology prepared me for Owen's teachings. Previously, I had a limited understanding of the Reformation and why and how God used Martin Luther to bring it about. I also realized that Reformed Theology, as taught by the men who ministered as Reformed theologians, and God led me to them on YouTube, unpacked the core doctrines of the faith that I already believed and accepted, but with a depth that was new to me. For the first time, I understood that the core doctrines that define Christianity, such as the Fall, its effects on humanity, being born again, and becoming new creatures in Christ, and understanding them in depth, build the house, our lives, that Jesus said will withstand the storms of life, temptation, tragedy, sickness, and persecution (Matt 7:24-27, Luke 6:47-49). I am both humbled and delighted to share it.

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How I Learned to Deal With Same-Sex Attraction Biblically Part B

Sun, 03 May 2026 20:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I share that after learning that God does not heal same-sex attraction, and not knowing how the healing would manifest, which it never did anyway, God brought a cadre of theologians into my life unexpectedly through YouTube with their videos. They teach how a Christian deals with the flesh biblically. When I speak of the flesh, I mean the desires inside of us that pit themselves against God's moral laws and creation ordinances of sexuality, gender, and marriage, including same-sex attraction. Some of these theologians lived 500 years ago, the Puritans. It is my joy to share their writings with you, beginning with this episode and in depth in Part C.

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How I Learned to Deal With Same-Sex Attraction Biblically Part A

Sun, 03 May 2026 17:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I share how, after years of not knowing how to biblically deal with my attraction to men as a Christian, God brought Christian theologians into my life who taught me how to do it. It's called ongoing personal satisfaction, a scary-sounding and misunderstood word - yet a core doctrine of the Christian faith. And it's what God requires of all Christians, because He's provided for it in Jesus. It's also a doctrine that much of the evangelical church has shrouded in a "feel-good" gospel that is short on obedience and heavy on grace, which turns grace into an excuse for sin rather than a call to repentance. I pray these episodes will challenge you and equip you in your own sanctification by the word of God and the Holy Spirit. Please check out the episodes that chronicle my journey in learning how to deal with my attraction to men biblically. It began in 2018.

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My Journey to Becoming a Prodigal

Wed, 29 Apr 2026 11:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I share that, after wanting to join a Christian ministry, and fearing I would be rejected if I disclosed that I was same-sex attracted (The ministry asked it of all applicants.), I gave up fighting being same-sex attracted and lived as a gay man, a prodigal, like the prodigal son in Luke 15: 3-32. It is a follow-up to My Journey to Jesus. It leads to A Prodigal Son Comes Home (A and B). I was hoping I could place it closer to those episodes, which I published earlier. I apologize for the inconvenience.

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My Life Story: From Sexual Abuse to Sexual Addiction to Jesus Part B

Thu, 09 Apr 2026 15:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I share the months and years 1966-69 after I received Christ. I also share that my mother took liberties with me until I was 12, mother-son incest/sexual abuse; I omitted it from Part A, because I did not want to disgrace my mother. She died in 1985, and I have long since forgiven her. I decided to include it because there are men who have suffered mother-son incest, and my story may encourage them, especially to forgive their mother. The evangelical world I entered condemned homosexuals apart from the context of the gospel. And that a born-again believer could struggle with being same-sex attracted was never mentioned. Within that condemnation and silence, I tried to ignore that I was same-sex attracted by serving as a student leader with Campus Crusade for Christ, while working on a bachelor’s degree in education. All through college, I had one goal: to join the Crusade (as we called it) staff when I graduated. I close this episode with my dream of serving Jesus with Crusade ending up in a waste basket and telling myself, “If you are gay, you’d better find out what it means.”

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My Life Story: From Sexual Abuse to Sexual Addiction to Jesus Part A

Thu, 09 Apr 2026 14:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I share my journey coming to Jesus and receiving Him as my Savior and Lord- I was 20. At age 14, I experienced a sexual encounter with an adult male. It happened between my freshman and sophomore years of high school. The encounter devastated me emotionally and my ability to learn. I also became a chronic truant. The same-sex sex that I experienced with the man left me craving more of it. By age 16, I was on the road to sexual addiction, having anonymous sex with men. I came to Jesus, rather He came to me, a broken young man, perhaps on the road to homelessness. This episode is the first episode that chronicles my journey.

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The Joy of Being a Closet Christian

Thu, 02 Apr 2026 18:00:00 -0500

My podcast is Same Sex Attracted and a Christian. Now what? Have I titled this episode The Joy of Becoming a Closet Christian to belittle what "closet" has meant to countless men and women who are same-sex attracted? I mean the men and women who hid that they were same-sex attracted: staying in the closet. And those who declared publicly that they were same-sex attracted: came out of the closet. For many, it was a painful journey. Am I saying that the Bible doesn't teach that homosexuality is a sin? No!!! What I am saying is that I know what it's like to try to understand why I am same-sex attracted, as a Christian. And what to do about it biblically. I believed that the Bible is God's word and that it teaches homosexuality and its practices are sin, and yet I was attracted to men sexually. To point my finger at anyone else would make me a hypocrite of the lowest and most despicable kind. I've launched this podcast to share what I've learned biblically that answered my own question: Same-sex attracted and a Christian. Now what? I've taken the idea of being a closet Christian from Matthew 6:6 in the King James Version of the Bible: When the prayest, go into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray to thy Father which is in secret; and thy Father which seeth in secret will reward thee openly. A closet Christian meets with God one-to-one to seek Him in Scripture and in prayer. To get to know Him. Combined with excellent biblical teaching by men who taught about biblically dealing with sin as a Christian, all sin, and becoming a closet Christian to personally develop what I was taught, and deepen my relationship with God, answered my now what? I pray that what I've learned will bless you and your walk with the Lord. My heart to yours, Dennis

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Born Again: Often Misunderstood and Maligned

Sat, 29 Mar 2025 16:00:00 -0500

Jesus in John 3:3 tells us that we cannot enter the kingdom of God if we are not born again. Before I was born again, I thought that people who claimed to be born were crazy fanatics - weirdos. I didn't understand that the idea came from Jesus, Himself. It wasn't an idea; it was His command. In this episode, I take us through Scripture to show our need to be born again and how it happens - the most beautiful experience this side of heaven. God's blessings to you as you listen.

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Was I Born Gay? Part B

Sun, 03 Nov 2024 16:00:00 -0600

In this episode, I pick up where I left off in: Was I Born Gay? I unpack the scriptures with greater depth which are the answers to the question.

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Was I Born Gay?

Sat, 02 Nov 2024 15:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I look at a question that is asked by countless men and women attracted to the same sex: Was I born gay? If not, then why do I remember being attracted to the same sex as a child? Is gay my "marker" of personhood? Using my own life as a backdrop, I look at the Bible to see how it answers the question.

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Back to Chicago - My Babylon

Fri, 18 Oct 2024 17:00:00 -0500

In this episode, Back to Chicago – My Babylon, I share how after recommitting my life to Christ and having lived as a prodigal for eight years as a gay man, three in Chicago’s gay community, I realized that I needed to leave Chicago to restructure my life. In the two previous episodes, A Prodigal Son Comes Home and A Prodigal Son Comes Home Part B, I shared how, in 1981, I repented living as a gay man and returned to the welcoming arms of my Heavenly Father (Luke 15: 11-32). I also shared that I was living in Chicago’s gay community, one of the largest in the United States. Immediately, I felt that I was severed from actively living in the community; but same-sex attraction still called my name, almost at my front door. Two years after I recommitted my life to Christ, on December 28, 1982, I moved to Denver. This episode is my return to Chicago in 1991.

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A Prodigal Son Comes Home Part B

Fri, 18 Oct 2024 13:00:00 -0500

This is a follow-up to A Prodigal Son Comes Home, in which I share how I came back to Jesus after living as a gay man, a prodigal for eight years (Luke 15: 11-32). Facing the fact that I still lived In Chicago's gay community, Boy's Town, one of the largest gay communities in the United States, it was the first time that I asked myself: now what? How do I face the temptations at my doorstep and deal with them? In this episode, A Prodigal Comes Home Part B, I share how God began using me immediately after I recommitted my life to Jesus, and at the same time I struggled with the temptations at my doorstep. After two years, I decided to move to Denver to distance myself from the prodigal life I once lived and still called my name. This episode ends by boarding Amtrak's Zepher and saying goodbye to my Christian friends.

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A Prodigal Son Comes Home

Thu, 17 Oct 2024 06:00:00 -0500

Welcome to the "maiden voyage" of Same-Sex Attracted and a Christian. Now What? My name is Dennis Belkofer. The name of the podcast is the biography of my life, and it chronicle my journey, as a Christian, seeking to find the answer to my own: Now what? How to do I navigate my life and deal with my attraction to men biblically - under the authority of God's word - so I live a life pleasing to my Savior and Lord, Jesus Christ? I became a Christian in 1966, when the world looked at homosexuality as a "mysterious subculture" to stay away from except in jokes that painted "homosexuals" with de-humanizing and derogatory titles. The Christian world I entered - the Evangelical framework - rarely acknowledged that homosexuality existed. And when it did, it condemned it; and almost never in the context of the gospel - the saving work of Jesus Christ - as if men and women attracted to the same sex were beyond redemption and forgiveness. Oh, it wasn't what was said - but the silence that spoke louder than words. That silence carried over to me: a Christian attracted to the same sex. And I was afraid to break the silence by asking for help in understanding why I was attracted to men and dealing with it. The church was my refuge and home. I was being loved and cared for now. But would it change if I revealed that I was attracted to men? And if I did, would the church know what to do with me? I was hearing people sharing how they came to Christ from a variety of sinful lifestyles, even as murderers, never out of homosexuality. That in itself answered the question. Keeping the attraction to myself was better than risking what I thought was inevitable: being treated as a modern-day leper to avoid. Please know that I am not excusing my sin and asking for sympathy. But I can't deny that was the Evangelical framework that greeted me with open arms, not knowing that I was attracted to men. Please know that I never once thought homosexuality to be anything but sin, which made not knowing why I was attracted to men and how to deal with it feel as if I were trapped in a prison. Today, I have found the answers, and they are in Romans 5, 6, 7 and 8: God's blueprint for "dealing" with the Christian's greatest challenge - indwelling sin - regardless of what that sin may be, including same-sex attraction. I've launched this podcast, using my life as a backdrop, to share "this blueprint" with Christians struggling with same-sex attraction and are asking: Now what? With parents whose child says they are gay, and the parents don't know what to do about it. To combat the lie that there is such a thing as a "gay" Christian; it has gained footing in the Evangelical framework as Side B Christianity. To encourage pastors, church leaders, and Christian counselors when ministering to Christians attracted to the same sex. And to "call home" Christians who gave up trying to deal with same-sex attraction, resigned themselves to it, and are prodigals living as gay men and women. I was "that" prodigal for nearly eight years. This, the podcast's first episode, "A Prodigal Son Comes Home," is my leaving the "far country" of living as a gay man (Luke 14:11-32). If you also are "that" prodigal: Your Father is calling you home, as He called me; and He is waiting to celebrate your "homecoming!"

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