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Read by the Author SJ Hodges

An episodic memoir unfolding in (mostly) real-time, Uneven Ground follows the widowed mom and writer, SJ Hodges, as she travels the world with her daughter, exploring the magical, mystical, and often miserable journey from grief to resilience to courage to joy. 

 

Not necessarily in that order.

A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains vivid descriptions of situations potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

 

It is meant for mature audiences only. 


For more information on Uneven Ground, go to: www.uneven-ground.com

]]> Buzzsprout (https://www.buzzsprout.com) SJ Hodges, grief, growth, parent, memoir SJ Hodges https://storage.buzzsprout.com/yo5smw07eqxdjax7u786nc8851fo?.jpg Uneven Ground https://www.uneven-ground.com SJ Hodges Chapter 11: The Beautiful Insanity Chapter 11: The Beautiful Insanity Listen to Uneven Ground, Chapter 11: The Beautiful Insanity, read by the author, SJ Hodges.

Waimano Falls O’ahu, Hawai’i March 11, 2022

San Diego, CA - March 8, 2022 with Ceci Los Angeles - March 10 with Ceci

Spring Break with Cecilia takes an unexpected turn from a deeply nostalgic visit to Legoland to an impulsive blast through Los Angeles, where Cecilia remembers life with her daddy.

Uneven Ground

A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 


For more information, go to: http://www.uneven-ground.com

]]> Listen to Uneven Ground, Chapter 11: The Beautiful Insanity, read by the author, SJ Hodges.

Waimano Falls O’ahu, Hawai’i March 11, 2022

San Diego, CA - March 8, 2022 with Ceci Los Angeles - March 10 with Ceci

Spring Break with Cecilia takes an unexpected turn from a deeply nostalgic visit to Legoland to an impulsive blast through Los Angeles, where Cecilia remembers life with her daddy.

Uneven Ground

A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 


For more information, go to: http://www.uneven-ground.com

]]> SJ Hodges Buzzsprout-14768065 Mon, 25 Mar 2024 17:00:00 -1000 2518 full false Chapter 10: Strapped Chapter 10: Strapped Uneven Ground, Chapter 10: Strapped. Read by the author SJ Hodges.

Kanawha State Forest

Charleston, WV 

March 5, 2022


 & Dallas, Texas 

March 7, 2022

After enduring her Mother's shocking confessions, SJ travels to Texas seeking comfort from Kez, only to realize the dangerous realities of their pasts have come between them.

Uneven Ground

A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 


For more information, go to https://www.uneven-ground.com/

]]> Uneven Ground, Chapter 10: Strapped. Read by the author SJ Hodges.

Kanawha State Forest

Charleston, WV 

March 5, 2022


 & Dallas, Texas 

March 7, 2022

After enduring her Mother's shocking confessions, SJ travels to Texas seeking comfort from Kez, only to realize the dangerous realities of their pasts have come between them.

Uneven Ground

A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 


For more information, go to https://www.uneven-ground.com/

]]> SJ Hodges Buzzsprout-14716166 Mon, 18 Mar 2024 13:00:00 -1000 2012 full false Chapter 9: Dead Dad. Birth Mom Chapter 9: Dead Dad. Birth Mom Uneven Ground, Chapter 9: Dead Dad. Birth Mom. Read by the author SJ Hodges.

Kanawha River Trail
Charleston, WV
March 4, 2022

Feeling a surprising call to forgiveness, SJ visits her father's grave where she, instead, makes the decision to stop keeping his secrets.


Uneven Ground

A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 

For more information go to https://www.uneven-ground.com/


]]> Uneven Ground, Chapter 9: Dead Dad. Birth Mom. Read by the author SJ Hodges.

Kanawha River Trail
Charleston, WV
March 4, 2022

Feeling a surprising call to forgiveness, SJ visits her father's grave where she, instead, makes the decision to stop keeping his secrets.


Uneven Ground

A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 

For more information go to https://www.uneven-ground.com/


]]> SJ Hodges Buzzsprout-14540481 Tue, 20 Feb 2024 08:00:00 -1000 2857 1 11 full false Chapter 8: A House Made of Dirt Chapter 8: A House Made of Dirt Uneven Ground, Chapter 8: A House Made of Dirt, read by the author SJ Hodges

Crabapple to Rattlesnake Trail.                                                     
Kanawha State Forest.                 
Charleston, WV.                               
3/2/2022

Hiking in West Virginia, SJ revisits the wildness and dangers of her childhood, remembering the freedom of the forest, the family fights and abuse. Thirty years later, with her Mom dying in hospice, she has to admit: she’s still carrying an unspoken hope for reconciliation with her mother. Will a moment of lucidity finally bring closure for their troubled relationship?

Uneven Ground

A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 


For more information, go to: http://www.uneven-ground.com

]]> Uneven Ground, Chapter 8: A House Made of Dirt, read by the author SJ Hodges

Crabapple to Rattlesnake Trail.                                                     
Kanawha State Forest.                 
Charleston, WV.                               
3/2/2022

Hiking in West Virginia, SJ revisits the wildness and dangers of her childhood, remembering the freedom of the forest, the family fights and abuse. Thirty years later, with her Mom dying in hospice, she has to admit: she’s still carrying an unspoken hope for reconciliation with her mother. Will a moment of lucidity finally bring closure for their troubled relationship?

Uneven Ground

A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 


For more information, go to: http://www.uneven-ground.com

]]> SJ Hodges Buzzsprout-14417390 Wed, 31 Jan 2024 15:00:00 -1000 2656 1 10 full false Chapter 7: Operating Systems Chapter 7: Operating Systems Uneven Ground Chapter 7: Operating Systems

Charleston, West Virginia 

February 25, 2022 

After a frantic call from hospice, SJ jumps on a plane back to West Virginia mulling over the family secrets and lineage of mental illness and dementia that separated mothers from daughters for generations.

Uneven Ground

A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 


For more information, go to: http://www.uneven-ground.com

]]> Uneven Ground Chapter 7: Operating Systems

Charleston, West Virginia 

February 25, 2022 

After a frantic call from hospice, SJ jumps on a plane back to West Virginia mulling over the family secrets and lineage of mental illness and dementia that separated mothers from daughters for generations.

Uneven Ground

A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 


For more information, go to: http://www.uneven-ground.com

]]> SJ Hodges Buzzsprout-14310579 Sun, 14 Jan 2024 21:00:00 -1000 2301 1 full true Chapter 6: Dating With My Dead Husband Chapter 6: Dating With My Dead Husband Uneven Ground, read by the author SJ Hodges

Chapter 6: Dating With My Dead Husband

Ka’iwi Shoreline Trail 

O’ahu, Hawai’i 

February 14, 2022 

SJ reluctantly enters the realm of online dating, cougar culture, and ghosting to discover her dead husband is actually choosing the men she’s allowed to date.

Uneven Ground

A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 


For more information, go to: http://www.uneven-ground.com

]]> Uneven Ground, read by the author SJ Hodges

Chapter 6: Dating With My Dead Husband

Ka’iwi Shoreline Trail 

O’ahu, Hawai’i 

February 14, 2022 

SJ reluctantly enters the realm of online dating, cougar culture, and ghosting to discover her dead husband is actually choosing the men she’s allowed to date.

Uneven Ground

A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 


For more information, go to: http://www.uneven-ground.com

]]> SJ Hodges Buzzsprout-14226610 Sun, 31 Dec 2023 09:00:00 -1000 3201 full false Chapter 5: A Warmer Kiss Chapter 5: A Warmer Kiss Chapter 5: A Warmer Kiss

Kuli’ou’ou Ditch Trail
O’ahu, Hawai’i
January 2022


Wakes and memorials and ashes, oh my!  The corpse of a dead pig triggers memories of funeral parlors past, a country wake, a Hollywood memorial, and the marching orders of Mama Ayahuasca.

***Trigger warning: Chapter Five is a raw, uncensored exploration of Clayton’s wake and his memorial. It is for mature audiences only.

Uneven Ground

An episodic memoir unfolding in (mostly) real-time, Uneven Ground follows the widowed mom and writer, SJ Hodges, as she travels the world with her daughter, exploring the magical, mystical, and often miserable journey from grief to resilience to courage to joy.

Not necessarily in that order.


For More Information go to:  http://www.uneven-ground.com

]]> Chapter 5: A Warmer Kiss

Kuli’ou’ou Ditch Trail
O’ahu, Hawai’i
January 2022


Wakes and memorials and ashes, oh my!  The corpse of a dead pig triggers memories of funeral parlors past, a country wake, a Hollywood memorial, and the marching orders of Mama Ayahuasca.

***Trigger warning: Chapter Five is a raw, uncensored exploration of Clayton’s wake and his memorial. It is for mature audiences only.

Uneven Ground

An episodic memoir unfolding in (mostly) real-time, Uneven Ground follows the widowed mom and writer, SJ Hodges, as she travels the world with her daughter, exploring the magical, mystical, and often miserable journey from grief to resilience to courage to joy.

Not necessarily in that order.


For More Information go to:  http://www.uneven-ground.com

]]> SJ Hodges Buzzsprout-14154527 Fri, 15 Dec 2023 08:00:00 -1000 2401 1 6 full false Chapter 4: Compassion For Christmas Chapter 4: Compassion For Christmas Compassion for Christmas

California, Colorado, O’ahu, 
The Holidays of 2018 - 2021


Back home in time for the holidays, SJ goes into quarantine and a tailspin, triggered by memories of her husband’s dying wish and the attention of a new man.

Uneven Ground

A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 


For more information, go to: http://www.uneven-ground.com

]]> Compassion for Christmas

California, Colorado, O’ahu, 
The Holidays of 2018 - 2021


Back home in time for the holidays, SJ goes into quarantine and a tailspin, triggered by memories of her husband’s dying wish and the attention of a new man.

Uneven Ground

A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 


For more information, go to: http://www.uneven-ground.com

]]> SJ Hodges Buzzsprout-14052129 Tue, 28 Nov 2023 12:00:00 -1000 2996 1 5 full false Chapter 3, Part 2: The Second Ceremony Chapter 3, Part 2: The Second Ceremony Uneven Ground Chapter 3 Bonus Episode: The Second Ceremony

Excerpt: "I hadn’t flown all the way to Peru to spend the night vomiting and shitting myself, unable to truly experience the full power of those magical men. I wanted back in."

Uneven Ground
A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 

For more information go to: www.uneven-ground.com

]]> Uneven Ground Chapter 3 Bonus Episode: The Second Ceremony

Excerpt: "I hadn’t flown all the way to Peru to spend the night vomiting and shitting myself, unable to truly experience the full power of those magical men. I wanted back in."

Uneven Ground
A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 

For more information go to: www.uneven-ground.com

]]> SJ Hodges Buzzsprout-13775346 Fri, 13 Oct 2023 18:00:00 -1000 654 1 4 full false Chapter 3, Part 1: Open Heart Surgery Chapter 3, Part 1: Open Heart Surgery  Open Heart Surgery

The Amazon Jungle (Loreto) 

Chullachaqui Lodge

November 29, 2021

SJ travels deep into the Amazon jungle for an Ayahuasca ceremony. Her hope? To reunite with her dead husband.  The curandero had other plans.

Uneven Ground
A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only.
For more information, go to: http://www.uneven-ground.com

]]>  Open Heart Surgery

The Amazon Jungle (Loreto) 

Chullachaqui Lodge

November 29, 2021

SJ travels deep into the Amazon jungle for an Ayahuasca ceremony. Her hope? To reunite with her dead husband.  The curandero had other plans.

Uneven Ground
A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only.
For more information, go to: http://www.uneven-ground.com

]]> SJ Hodges Buzzsprout-13775331 Fri, 13 Oct 2023 18:00:00 -1000 2262 1 3 full false Chapter 2: In the Blinding Dark Chapter 2: In the Blinding Dark SJ climbs Huyana Picchu, guided (and haunted) by the ghost of her charismatic brother-in-law while revisiting the darkness that claimed his life and threatened hers.

Uneven Ground
A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 

For more information, go to: https://www.uneven-ground.com/

]]> SJ climbs Huyana Picchu, guided (and haunted) by the ghost of her charismatic brother-in-law while revisiting the darkness that claimed his life and threatened hers.

Uneven Ground
A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 

For more information, go to: https://www.uneven-ground.com/

]]> SJ Hodges Buzzsprout-13704627 Mon, 02 Oct 2023 16:00:00 -1000 2450 1 2 full false Chapter 1: The Passage Is A Portal Chapter 1: The Passage Is A Portal THE PASSAGE IS A PORTAL
Palccoyo (aka “Rainbow Mountain”)
Cusco, Peru
December 5, 2021

Secretly transporting the ashes of her dead husband in a shampoo bottle, SJ travels with Warrior Retreats to Peru, where she climbs Rainbow Mountain, confronting both the dizzying altitude and her powerlessness in the face of death.

 Uneven Ground
A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 

For more information, go to: https://www.uneven-ground.com/


For more information, go to: http://www.uneven-ground.com

]]> THE PASSAGE IS A PORTAL
Palccoyo (aka “Rainbow Mountain”)
Cusco, Peru
December 5, 2021

Secretly transporting the ashes of her dead husband in a shampoo bottle, SJ travels with Warrior Retreats to Peru, where she climbs Rainbow Mountain, confronting both the dizzying altitude and her powerlessness in the face of death.

 Uneven Ground
A story of loss and love, sex and spirits, death and dating, hiking and healthcare, Uneven Ground contains raw images and vivid descriptions of situations that could be potentially triggering and/or cause traumatic physiological and psychological responses. 

Uneven Ground is meant for mature audiences only. 

For more information, go to: https://www.uneven-ground.com/


For more information, go to: http://www.uneven-ground.com

]]> SJ Hodges Buzzsprout-13662511 Mon, 25 Sep 2023 22:00:00 -1000 2339 1 1 full false Welcome to Uneven Ground Welcome to Uneven Ground Welcome to SJ Hodges's Uneven Ground.

An episodic memoir, unfolding in (mostly) real-time, Uneven Ground follows the widowed mom and writer, SJ Hodges, as she travels the world with her daughter, exploring the magical, mystical, and often miserable journey from grief to resilience to courage to joy. 

 

Not necessarily in that order.



For more information, go to http://www.uneven-ground.com

]]> Welcome to SJ Hodges's Uneven Ground.

An episodic memoir, unfolding in (mostly) real-time, Uneven Ground follows the widowed mom and writer, SJ Hodges, as she travels the world with her daughter, exploring the magical, mystical, and often miserable journey from grief to resilience to courage to joy. 

 

Not necessarily in that order.



For more information, go to http://www.uneven-ground.com

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