Ah, yes, at some point, y'all knew i had to do an episode like this.

This is not really a call out, but rather, a PSA. It' s not really me defending people like me who are bad at responding but rather, trying to bring y'all to take a step back to look at the bigger picture

It's me trying to take accountability and help others take accountability for why we feel the way we feel about responding/not responding/not being responded to


So buckle up! Because this episode might trigger you a bit!

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Honestly, it's such a silly concept of an episode, yet it was actually one of the hardest i've had to do.

I had to combat myself from going on a tangent on certain things because i felt myself being pulled away to different topics,

but one thing remained true and one thing seemed to be the common denominator for why i'm still living paycheck to paycheck in my 30's.

It's me. Hi ! I wouldn't say i'm a problem, but its me!

And if you feel the same way, maybe this episode is for you! Because maybe you will finally realize that it's okay to admit that we may have been at such a disadvantage, and that we realize our full potential, but that might be one of the biggest downfalls we've ever had. 

And it's finally time to take a stand to our own negative selves and say, it's okay to live paycheck to paycheck for now, because one day, i will be okay!


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TRIGGER WARNING FOR THIS EPISODE!

I almost choked to death a month ago, and it was a game changer!

Don't you love how phrasing things can change how grim one thing can sound? 

This event taught my about my fight or flight instincts, and how heartbreaking it is that most people do perish from certain things because their fight or flight or freeze responses tell them to freeze. 

It's also definitely interesting to see how life altering events can affect us, but how long do these effects last? This episode opens up this season and I would love for others to share their experiences, if they have any.

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Have you ever sat down and said to yourself, wow, how many things have i failed to do for myself because i let the fear get in the way?

Well, this episode is for YOU!!! I talk about how much control fear has had over my life, and at what moment was I able to realize "well Stephen, you NEED TO TAKE YOUR LIFE BACK!"

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Let me guess, you destroyed a beautiful relationship because of overthinking?
You were about to date someone until you started overthinking?
I'm not proud to say it, but i'm an overthinker. In today's society, WHO ISN'T!?!?!
But that, right there, is a huge problem. If we all overthink, then how are we going to actually understand each other?!

In this episode, i talk about the dangers of overthinking SPECIALLY when it comes to relationships. Oh, i also talk about overthinking when it comes to family (ahem)

But honestly, this is just a glimpse at what it looks like for us overthinkers, and how dangerous it could be, and how we can actually deal with it!

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First of all, Mom i love you! I'm glad we're able to move forward and have this amaazing friendship/relationship between us now and i wouldn't change anything

But tbh, those years really messed me up. BUT NOT ANYMOOOORE

In this episode, i talk about my tumultuous relationship with my mother while i was growing up and some of you might actually be able to relate to this (Hey remember the term "MY HOUSE MY RULES" !? EH!??! EH!?!? )

I detail all of the hardships i went through but also, the important message of this episode, is that not only does time heal all, but YOU have the power! YOU have the ability to break that cycle for yourself!

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In this episode, I want to remind everyone of what made me start a podcast in the first place. I was diagnosed with Harm OCD in 2020 and my life has changed since. The first few months were really tough , and i realized not everybody knows exactly what they are dealing with, and how much harder it is to live life undiagnosed, and living in the unknown. 

I'm here to take a look back at everything I've had to face, everything I've had to go through, and to hopefully show everybody who are in the same shoes that they are doing great! That we should never give up, because it might not seem like it, but we are slowly taking our happiness back!

Love y'all! And if you want to be a guest on the show feel free to reach out!

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As someone who's been ghosted, it sucked

As someone who's ghosted people, i just didn't want to get hurt because i hate confrontation

BUT YOU SEE?! "I" . A selfish reason. I would rather hurt others than own up to the truth and be transparent.

This episode deals with ghosting and why as people we need to be better and actually learn to NOT ghost people. To consider the implications of ghosting is to honestly be a decent human being. We can save so many people from crippling anxiety and destroyed self esteem if we just, you know, OWN UP TO IT.

If you are either the ghostee/ghoster, i would love to have you on a future episode so we can discuss the whys and the hows!

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Rejection sucks. Rejection hurts. Most times, rejection makes us think we are not worthy of love, of ANYTHING in this world.

But this is exactly, what we should NEVER do. To go down this spiral, this rabbit hole, which is where all of us end up meeting each other (Hello fellow HOLE)

In this episode i talk about my very (triggering) and real way that i used to cope with rejection. It was so unhealthy, and it destroyed me for YEARS.

I hope for those of you who can relate, I hope y'all learn something from this today

Love y'all! And HAPPY PRIDE!

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Growing up, I never knew there was such a thing as "pansexual".  Specially in the Philippines, you were limited to two choices, gay/lesbian or straight. Not only this, back in my day (ahem OLD) being within the community has such a huge negative connotation (like being a disgrace to society).

There are so many people who are not able to figure out their sexuality/identity because of such factors, and it shows. This episode, I talk about my experiences with being too afraid to live my truth as a member of the LGBTQIA+ community, and I also share insight on, well,  the fact that you, my friends, are loved :)

Don't forget to share this with your friends, and to share love during pride(and everyday please! )

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Relationships are hard, and I don't mean just ROMANTIC. 

I wanted to talk about this because it's something that's been bothering me for quite some time, and I realized i needed a pep talk for myself (and all of you!)

Realizing that I was the issue as to why i can't seem to maintain great friendships was a hard pill to swallow, but I had so much i was dealing with (mental health, financial troubles, work problems etc) that it made it feel impossible to connect with anyone consistently.

But i thought about it and realized, hold on, if these people, time and time again, are willing to try and include me in things, and I keep removing myself from these situations, why am I complaining that i'm lonely and that no one wants to reach out?

Well, DING DING DING! Wouldn't you know, it turns out, it was MY FAULT all along.

Join me this episode as i (preach) TALK about the importance of effort in your relationships!

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My dad left me before i was even born, and my Mom left me with my grandparents so she can finish school (spoiler alert: they were VERY young)

But guess what, I still love them very much (only recently though)

On today's episode, i talk about my very own abandonment issues and how this has shaped a lot of the unfortunate events in my life. 

I felt that this was a topic  i truly wanted to discuss because not a lot of us realize that so many of our bad decisions/questionable personality traits actually come as a byproduct of abandonment that we have experienced.

But, as always, believe me, we can get through this!

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I had to do an episode like this, and hopefully I'm able to help more voices be heard!

Bella is an awesome coworker/friend of mine from Korea, currently studying and working here in Canada. She talks about the language barrier, the cultural differences in the workplace between Korea and Canada, and of course, how she REALLY feels being in a different country!

Bella is so brave to share her story and her journey here in Canada, and if you have a similar story/want to talk about mental health or other stuff, just message me! 

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Shout out to 7 West at North York General Hospital! 

It's a truly loaded episode,  because not only do i talk about my stay at a Psych Hospital, but truly, there are layers to this. Everyday we see so many individuals struggling with their mental health disorder, to the point of homelessness, and I can't help but ask, if they were able to get the help that they needed, would they have ended up there?

This episode is a call to action, for all of us, all over the world, to show compassion to others but, just as important, to show compassion to OURSELVES. We need to make sure we are getting the help WE deserve as well, and sometimes, we can only do this by seeking help. 

I'm here to try and debunk myths about being in psychiatric hold, because unlike the movies, it was actually very helpful

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I know it's all me, I know i have nothing to be embarrassed about (neither do you) , but sometimes, we just can't help it! 

Today's episode talks about the kind of shame we feel whenever we find ourselves with jobs that does not seem suitable for our age group (lets say, fast food at 35?) , and how this makes us feel. What I'm trying to do this episode is allow people to understand that it's very common to take up a job that allows you to put food on the table, and THAT'S OKAY!

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TW because I believe that , specially as of recently, so many of us have been feeling this way. Whether it's caused by failed relationships, by parents, by failing almost every single thing in your life, at some point, sometimes you just sit there and you start wondering, do I deserve anything good? Am i worthy of love? of friendships? of life?

These, are very dangerous and very heartbreaking situations to be in.

This episode is a reminder, and I hope it does what I intend it to do, to remind every single one of you, that we all feel unworthy at times, but damnit, YOU are worth more than you could ever imagine. 

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Be honest, you've wrestled with going to therapy for a while now haven't you? Well in this episode, i am going to talk about the pros and cons of therapy, and how even the cons of therapy is actually a pro. Sounds confusing? Right? That's why therapy is so funny!

In all honesty, i talk about how therapy is a trigger point for me and how i have come to handle it because i realized that it helps me in the long run!

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When we think FOMO, we just think, well, damn, we just don't want to miss out, right?
But just how negatively has it impacted you? Have you noticed that sometimes you have changed your entire schedule/personality just because you don't want to have FOMO?

In this episode, I discuss about how FOMO may not actually be the worst thing, but also how you could end up turning it into something so negative for yourself if you are not mindful of it!  

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Today's guest Aaron is currently going through counselling for his Anxiety Disorder, but this was all the more reason to feature him on today's episode. I thought we were going to be able to talk about how challenging it was to deal with relationships through his anxious attachment styles, but instead I was educated in how self love was actually the best course of action when dealing with one's anxious attachment/anxieties!

Come join us in this discussion this episode and find yourself going "WHODATHUNK" when several key eureka moments arise when it comes to learning how to love yourself and in turn, deal with your anxious attachment.

For more of Aaron, for questions about he was able to handle things and other stuff, please follow his socials:

IG: a.arrronn

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This is a continuation of our discussion on anxious attachment style, only this time, i do come in a bit more aggressive! But only because i can! I have bared my soul and my entire everything in this episode talking about how my anxious attachment had actually affected my relationships throughout high school and beyond, and why it's important for us to take accountability and/or learn about them.

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TW: YOU MAY FEEL ATTACKED!

I share my personal dance with my own devil, Mr Anxious Attachment himself!

This is going to be made of many parts, but part 1 begins today! There's a lot to talk about in just 30 minutes and we've only reached the tip of the iceberg!

But ask yourself, do YOU exhibit signs of anxious attachment? Could this be the reason your relationships are quite the challenge/ have blown up to pieces?!

I wanted to open the doors to discuss this because i know of so many people who never realized what their attachment styles were and how it could actually be the key to improving their relationship not just with others, but themselves!

If you, or anyone you know would like to guest on the episodes and talk about this or other topics, feel free to let me know!

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And just like that, we're back!

It's been quite the journey, and in this episode, I decided to tackle one of the main issues that plagues us as loveable, sensitive human beings: MID LIFE CRISIS

While everyone's crisis' might look different from each other, there is one thing for sure, once it affects us, it seems like we're DOOMED

But fear not, because we keep it moving, we keep it going, and it's all a lesson we can learn from.

It's nice to be back, and it's nice to see y'all again :)

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A very hard topic to tackle, with our guest JofieComedy speaking VERY harsh truths. Who the f wants to hear about their finances!? Who wants to hear about them being the reason as to why they're not able to attain the kind of financial freedom they want?!

Well, Jofie was able to masterfully weave his personal story, coming from poverty and strategizing a way to get himself out and become successful financially among other things.

A definite favourite of mine, this episode helped me understand that certain things i've done/have been doing in my life with regards to finances may actually have been affected by my own mental health and vice versa.

Hang tight, breakers! Y'all are going to walk out of this episode with a fresh outlook on your own health and finance, and be INSPIRED and MOTIVATED!!

If you want to be on the show, email me at stephendiego@hotmail.com

And for more of jofie, please follow him at

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Probably one of the scariest things we don't talk about in full detail and with full transparency: AGING.

As someone who's in his mid 30's almost 40's, it hit me super hard when i realized there were still tons of things i wanted to do in life yet it feels like my journey is almost at its end.

Here we discuss the physical, sexual and mental aspect that aging can bring to a person, and i'm here to remind y'all that you are not alone in this!! 

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On this episode, I talk about Self Love. Something often explored on this podcast, it wasn't until recently that i realized the lack of self love i had for myself, and i realized the symptoms/red flags I presented along the way that contributed to the demise of many beautiful things in my life. This is the start of a few series of episodes dedicated to self love, so buckle up and enjoy the ride!

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Ever found yourself asking, why don't you just do the thing? Why can't you just Angela Bassett life and Do the THING? Then, do you find yourself crying on your chair, bed, bathtub and random home appliances?  If so, this episode, MAYBE for you!

To launch the season, I talk about just doing it! Yes, IT! This is your sign! You got this

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On this episode, we have streamer extraordinaire Towfur share about his journey through self reflection, growth, and healing. 

Make no mistake, as eloquent and as easy as he makes it sound, the heartbreak that you hear in his voice recounting his tumultuous relationship only gives this topic that much more importance. Towfur's fierce and courageous way of tackling his issues head on with kindness is admirable, and I hope that everyone who gets a chance to listen/watch this also learns that through self love, ANYTHING is possible.

If you want to be on the podcast or if you have any questions, feel free to contact me at stephendiego@hotmail.com

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Twitch: www.twitch.tv/towfurr

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The parallels of pressure, stress, and the insecurities that a competitive career can bring to oneself is immeasurable, regardless of the type of career your in.

Today's super special guest is a Hollywood Actor, with tons of acting credits under his belt such as Curb Your Enthusiasm. I couldn't think of a more perfect person to interview for this edition than the actor gamer himself, Mr. Gino Charles! 

Join us today as he talks about how his authenticity and hard work allowed him to stay true to himself and reach great heights within his career and how he was able to use his lows as a catalyst for the great mindset he currently has towards his dream career.

If you want to be a guest on the podcast, feel free to contact me at stephendiego@hotmail.com

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On this episode, we have a special guest coming all the way from Greece, to talk about communication and the many factors which contribute towards its breakdown.

Vas joins us to talk about his personal experiences with communication and how important it is in terms of strengthening relationships and how the smallest of details we miss in communication can lead to unfortunate circumstances.

If you would like to be a guest on the show, email me at stephendiego@hotmail.com

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Trigger Warning for recovering alcoholics!

It's a very personal episode, but for everyone who knows me, I've been sober for 2 years. I realized I hit a plateau when it came to my progress with allowing myself to thrive with my Harm OCD. The one final exposure i needed to do? Alcohol.

I stopped drinking out of fear that my alcohol will trigger my intrusive thoughts to make me do things I did not want to do, and while this actually had great health benefits for me being sober for a very long time, it left me with an issue i couldn't resolve.

I couldn't quite shake the hold that my OCD still had on me, and I decided to take a huge leap of faith and see where i landed.

Listen to the entire episode and see how I was able to make important decisions pertaining to my OCD and how i can navigate throughout going back to being sober!

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It's one of the most polarizing topics ever brought up in the relationship world, and it's definitely a dealbreaker for most. In this episode, I'm joined by 2 of my friends who are currently embarking on an LDR, and they have been the most "poster child" representative of being in an LDR. Join us as we talk about challenges of being in one and how they manage to navigate through the ins and outs of being in a long distance relationship.

If you have any questions for us, email me at stephendiego@hotmail.com

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Shane: www.twitch.tv/wafflepower23
Ryan: www.twitch.tv/w1ryan

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This one gets a little personal. I have my fair share of dreams and passion I have worked hard to attain, and realizing that I have failed in one of my biggest investments in myself, I felt depressed, dejected, and I felt like giving up.

But somehow, I had a moment of clarity that allowed me to realize that this failure, this setback, this roadblock, was the exact wake up call that I needed.

A reflective look upon my personal journey with failure and the determination to get back up, I hope a lot of you can relate and realize that your failures we're actually necessary for you to be the successful person you have turned out to be!

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On today's episode, we have the super talented super MC Maraja join us to talk about her journey with how she deals with the pressure and how impostor syndrome has reared its head in her life and how it's affected her decisions when it comes to her talents and her livelihood. It's a very lighthearted but super informative episode and I feel like i've learned so much from what Maraja has been going through!

If you have any questions for and about Maraja, feel free to email me on stephendiego@hotmail.com

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Did ya miss me?! I'm Back!

To kickoff the start of the new season, I wanted to go back to the basics, back to what i preach the most either here or on my streams. Being mindful of oneself is a task, but being mindful of OTHERS? Now that's a HANDFUL.

This may trigger some of y'all, but if nothing ever triggers you, are you actually paying attention?!

And don't worry, it's not that kind of trigger warning :) 

You'll understand once you hear it.

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Moon, Or Moonboiuwu on twitch, is a korean twitch streamer based in Singapore. He wanted to come on the show to talk about the lack of motivation/feeling of being burnt out he's been experiencing lately, only to realize that these signs allude to something deeper that he has been dealing with since his early adolescent years.

Join us as we learn from Moon how he navigates through the ups and downs of undiagnosed depression and how he stays afloat.

To follow Moon, you can find him on
https://linktr.ee/moonboiuwu 

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On this episode, we speak to twitch streamer Madz about what he loves and hates the most about being an older sibling, sharing with us a feeling and experience all too familiar for those of us growing up with siblings. It's the kind of topic and conversation that we seldom get to have seeing that we feel like its such a universal struggle/blessing, yet each event is received differently.

If you want to hear more from Madz, follow them on
www.twitch.tv/Madz1903

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To kick off pride month, I invited Malloe, a multi-talented streamer and fashion designer from California to talk about relationships and the major misconceptions about them. Triggers abound for those of us who have been avoiding the real questions we want to ask, and for those of us who believe that we are always right. Join us on this wonderful journey as we talk about our experiences with relationships and the things we realized that could save ourselves!

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In this episode, our special guest Hydro talks about how the loss of his father forced him to change at a very young age and how this changed the course of his life forever. Today we explore and understand what change looks like and the different path it presents to those experiencing it.  We also take a look at an alternative view of the positive change the pandemic brought towards people. 

If you have any questions for Hydro, you can find hydro on www.twitch.tv/hydr_oh or you can email me at stephendiego@hotmail.com if you would like to be part of the show in the future!

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Eren (Ereen20 on twitch) is a partnered streamer for Twitch, one of the leading streamer platforms in the world. He was kind of enough to take some time out of his day to join us and talk about his journey with the streaming world, offering a glance at the pressures that comes with being successful, and other implications it might have in order to attain and maintain said success, something so universal that people who are not streamers can definitely relate to.

If you have any questions for Eren or myself, please feel free to email me at stephendiego@hotmail.com

And as for Eren's socials, please follow him on:

 IG: https://www.instagram.com/ereennn20  
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tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@ereennn20

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In this episode, we have Nate @boywondernate on twitch, who is brave enough to share his story growing up within a household in which one parental figure changed the course of his childhood forever. We have nate talk about how he navigated through a challenging time, and how he ultimately was able to grow into the artist that he is now.

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TW: Violent Themes

On this episode, we have Matt talking about his childhood traumas caused by bullying and the lack of parental support he received, and how it developed into depression.

Come and experience Matt's journey through life, as he tells us how he navigated through such traumatic experiences, his intrusive thoughts, and how he manages to still work hard to be a top realtor here in Toronto.

To follow Matt/Ask questions, follow him on IG at realtormattleung !

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In our lives, we've all had some growing up to do. Some of us were lucky, some, not so much. Today I have the amazing twitch variety streamer Poshtriangle share with us her stories on growing up, raised to be a jack of all trades, and how this affected her in her early social life and how she used these experiences to find who she truly is now.

If you have any questions for myself or for Posh, please message me at stephendiego@hotmail.com

You may also inquire about being a guest on the show through that email!

For those wanting to connect/see what posh is all about, follow her on her socials!

Twitch : www.twitch.tv/poshtriangle
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We all have different terms, meanings, and ways that we see progress, but to me, this was one of the most eye opening things about my journey these past few months, one of the reasons I have stopped podcasting for a while, was due to the fact that I was trying to get to know myself, amidst all of the noise , all of the tragedy, and all of the hardships I am going through.

Progress will be different for everyone, and I am offering a different lens, a different look, or maybe even a familiar one!

If you or anyone you know would like to share YOUR personal stories, YOUR struggles, triumphs, or current journey, feel free to contact me at stephendiego@hotmail.com

It's so great to be back!

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Today, we discuss how fitness plays a part in your mental health, and VICE VERSA, but most important of all, today's season ender is a story of perseverance and triumph, and how certain decisions that could have affect one negatively, ultimately was overturned by a positive outlook.

Erwin has been one of my best friends for a very long time. Join us as he shares his story of  fitness, resilience, perseverance, positivity,  and how he's incorporated everything he learned, allowing him to really take control of his cognitive distortions and prepare him for a brighter future, despite the struggles he was facing at the time. 

If you, or anyone you know, would love to share your stories and be on the show, or have any questions for Erwin or myself, email us at

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Imagine being a successful lawyer and leaving it all behind to become an actress?!

Maria (or Tiny) is a lawyer, not just in the Philippines, but also in Canada. She's been a lawyer for over 20 years, and while she's been one of the best lawyers around, her heart has always been in acting. 

She shares her brave story on her rhetoric that it is NEVER too late to chase your dreams, and she shares her secret to her confidence on taking such a huge leap of faith into the unknown, never once wavering on her decision to follow her passion.

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It's a very different episode. I  had a conversation with my roommate prior to this, telling me that she wants to do an episode and she thinks she's relapsing.

This is as real as it gets, and yes, it gets so messy at times, it gets out of topic, but I am so grateful she was able to do this live. To be able to talk about relapse while you are relapsing is no easy feat, and Christine handled it amazingly well.

We talk about how different relapse looks, and we deal with the conversation around her relapse hoping to find a solution for her to handle it.

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It's only fair, that i give you guys an update on how i've managed from my traumatic experience being diagnosed with Psychosis, with it turning out to be OCD.

Come join me on this episode as i talk about how i turned my struggles into tools to help me manage and motivate me and really light that fire under my butt to keep on working so that I can keep living.

Living with mental health disorder should not be a death sentence, but rather, it should be seen as a cape, because for most of us who are diagnosed, we tend to be more compassionate towards others, and it is this very compassion that this cape is allowing us to spread towards others.

Let's all continue to keep working with each other and lifting each other up.

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To everyone who's worked overseas! To educators! To those wondering how life is like somewhere else, this one's for you!

Day 2 of our Mental Health Awareness Week Special!

Today i have 2 of whom i consider my closest friends in the entire universe, Paul and Henry, talk about  their experiences teaching in the U.K. 

Different ways of teaching and what they describe as "teaching bootcamp" may have deterred others from pursuing teaching further, but the perseverance that they both showcased and their amazing and anxiety ridden time living/learning to integrate in a different country while balancing their careers have developed them into the men they are now.

I hope you guys had a blast listening to this as much as I have, and if you have any questions for Paul, Henry, or myself, or if you would like to get on the show, please email me at

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Thank you!

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To kick off Mental Health Awareness Week, I have a great friend of mine, Sam, who worked for a big scale company, whose climb to the top of the ladder was immediately halted by an unfavourable situation. To add salt to her wound, she also faced an obstacle in the form of a higher up who no longer believed in her.

Join us on a very enlightening and important talk and hear how she bravely speaks out about her truth, about how it pushed her on the brink of suicide, and how she managed to persevere.

If you or anyone you know have any questions for myself or for Sam, email me at stephendiego@hotmail.com

If you or anyone you know are dealing with any type of issues in the workplace that compromises your mental health, please contact your HR department IMMEDIATELY

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It's always about "omg you lost so much weight congrats", but never "omg your discipline and resilience is so inspiring" am I right?!

Diana shares her amazing journey with her weight loss, and how she navigated through her life living outside society's "norm" in terms of body size. 

She talks about the importance of how self love was able to get her through the darkest of times. We also talk about the effect on how others perceived her, and how she was able to handle the adversities she was thrown at by her "peers" with grace, class, and love. 

She also talks about what it's like to be in a new "body" and the way she has to adapt to her new life.

There is no shortage of lessons on this episode thanks to Diana being amazingly open and vulnerable enough to be able to show her struggle and just how this struggle strengthened her into the person that she is now.

If you have any questions for Diana or myself, or if you want to get on a future episode, email me at stephendiego@hotmail.com

 

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On today's episode, a great friend of mine, one of the best recruiters Toronto has to offer, Stephanie, shares her journey with self love. With a twist! 

I usually invite people on here who like to share their stories with struggling with their difficulties, but Steph has always known her worth and her self love is amazing. She is here to share with us just how she navigates through the world and gives us advice on how to love ourselves bit  by bit

If you guys have any questions for Steph and Myself, email me at stephendiego@hotmail.com

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In this episode, the amazing Paul Calcote, Pastor and host of Real People, Real Talk, joins us and offers us insight on his journey and bout with depression , and how mental health issues are dealt with in his religious community. His views and the way he intertwined his religion with mental health issues and how he is able to help those suffering from said issues, is admirable and inspiring, and I wish that , regardless of which religion you believe in, you will be able to feel some sort of acceptance from the way that Paul doesn't shy away from dealing with mental health issues using his tools as a Pastor.

I am so grateful that Paul was open to so many things and was able to share his experiences, because he will be back to talk more about religion and mental health. This episode alone barely scratched the surface on how different views on mental health from differing religions really impact each individual, and we would LOVE to have you guys hop on and have a conversation with us!

If you have any questions, for myself or Paul or if you would like to get on the show, email me at stephendiego@hotmail.com 

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Death is never an easy thing to deal with. But have we truly looked into ourselves whenever we have dealt with loss, and asked ourselves, have we made peace with OURSELVES, for how we feel about the person that passed, rather than have we made peace with them?

I talk about my own journey with my loss of my best friend and my grandfather, and how my therapist allowed me to see that i held on to my guilt and my shame, and this made my life significantly harder.

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No guests, No facebook live, No interruptions! It's been a while folks ,  but i'm back with just myself and sharing with you some information on Social Anxiety and what you could possibly do to lessen that anxious feeling it brings!

Suffering from the lockdown effects of covid is no joke, and social anxiety is one of the things that lockdown had brought throughout the masses. Most of us are okay because some of us are okay being alone, but what about the social butterflies? Or worse, what about those of us who used to be okay with being alone, and are now feeling weird because of this lockdown?

Social Anxiety is no joke. It affects everyone differently, but it needs to be addressed.

On today's episode, i share with you what it could look like, and what you could possibly do to face it.

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Kicking off season 2 with 2 amazing ladies , Christine and Bernice, join us as we share our experiences with our past relationships and how our mental illness (OCD, BPD and PTSD) shaped the relationship, both good and bad.

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Anthony Lau is a jack of all trades, master of almost all of them!

A photographer, singer/songwriter, videographer, and more, he's here to talk about motivation and just how exactly this affects your craft. We also dive deep with how motivation relates to failures, the current state of the world, and how it is deeply rooted in your present!

If you have any questions for myself or Anthony, or would like to check out his work, follow him at 

https://www.instagram.com/antlaustudios/

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Former lovers, Christine and Emily, were able to keep the friendship after the breakup, something most of us could only dream of (or really don't want)

Knowing now that this is possible, is it healthy?! Today we explore the world of friendship post relationship, and the complications that this might bring/the complications of why this can never be.

This is a super long episode because this is part of the series of LIVE recordings I've been doing lately, and we have audience interactions as well!

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email me at stephendiego@hotmail.com

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Annette works in the architecture field, successfully might we add, but it wasn't always roses and a sweet ride towards this happy ending! Join us as she discussed how she traversed expectations from her own family and  difficulty working with others, and how she stayed grounded and kept her eye on the prize to prevent herself from succumbing to the dreary world of EXPECTATIONS! 

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One of the more controversial, as of late, topics have been the education system during the pandemic. Today, we speak with a teacher herself, Yumi, on what it takes to be an educator during covid, and how the new changes have affected her. 

A super insightful look into the lives of teachers, I hope this episode teaches you guys about having compassion and understanding for those working in the education field, to truly grasp the difficulties that they are facing with this new world.

If you have any questions for Yumi or myself, email me at stephendiego@hotmail.com

Thank you ! 

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Michaela is AMAZING. I don't have any other words to describe her other than that. To be able to speak about her experience with motherhood, has been quite the eye opener. Specially during covid times, the difficulty of bringing a child into the world let alone dealing with your own emotions , one can only imagine how tough it can get , and Michaela painted a great picture of what it's been like.

Remember guys, if you know someone who are new moms or are expecting, be compassionate and kind, and try to understand where they're coming from! Because we can only imagine just how hard it must be for them! 

If you or anyone you know would like to get on the show or have questions for Michaela or myself, contact me at stephendiego@hotmail.com 

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A great friend of mine decided to join us to discuss his "trip" with drugs on his recent vacation, and the destructive aftermath of society's unrealistic expectations, and how all of this could come in to play if you have this type of personality when you want to try exploring drugs. 

He has been so brave sharing his journey, and baring his soul out, discussing his goals and his failures that he turned into an amazing endgame instead. 

If you have any questions for Payman, Myself, or would like to be on the show to discuss your own breakdowns, or even just your journey and struggles with life, email me at stephendiego@hotmail.com 

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Many mental health issues presents itself differently, albeit with the same diagnosis.
Today we explore BPD again with a different person this time, Bernice, and how it differs from our former guest, Christine's BPD.

Bernice shares her journey and also her wisdom on living life to the fullest while living with BPD.

She also gave us with a crisis hotline that she frequents whenever she feels the need to!

(Canada Only)
18006686868 - Kids Help Line (they can also redirect you if you don't fit in the category of "kids"

741-741 - if you are not a phone person and would like  a text instead!

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Ms. Emily was so hesitant to be on the show at first, but turned out to be SUCH a natural! It's been amazing hearing her story and how she's able to navigate through having anxiety and depression. Truly, a story that needs to be heard by everyone because it's so relatable!

Remember, email me at stephendiego@hotmail.com if you have any questions for myself, my guests, any inquiries on mental health/any issues, or if you want to be part of the podcast!

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The amazing Christine talks about her experiences living with BPD,  and shares some timely advice for others who are dealing with the same thing! 

It wasn't easy, but the way she keeps persevering is amazing!

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Ms. Connie Russell decided to join us for this episode to talk about her experiences with anxiety, and the moment she decided she needed to seek out help and what she had done/is doing at the moment!

She spoke of an amazing coach, Angela Sudzukovic ! follow this coach on instagram: angela.sudzukovic

Hope this was helpful/ a sign of hope for some of you guys!

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TRIGGER WARNING! This will have a detailed recap of what my intrusive thoughts are like

It's funny, because I said this was going to be faster, but it ended up becoming longer than the first episode.

Here I discuss in detail how I cope with my potential Harm OCD and it's effectiveness!

The Book: 

Overcoming Harm OCD: Mindfulness and CBT Tools for Coping with Unwanted Violent Thought by Jon Hershfield

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Welcome to my podcast guys! We will be touching up on mental health, relationship issues, and other topics that's affecting our lives! We're trying to create a community where we can help each other out during covid times! 

Today, I will be breaking down what happened during MY breakdown, with the drugs and the after effects on my mental health!

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