Chrysalisbreak

Epilogue by Philip Millerberg #9

Tue, 26 Nov 2024 17:00:00 -0700

"The shit she would say, was mind blowing to me,"
~ Philip Millerberg
The Man Behind the Curtain speaks about his experience recording Chrysalisbreak. It started with a microphone tucked between t-shirts in his closet, and grew into Own It SLC. The partnership of Philip and Sarah continues to ripple out, and although their story could be called a tragedy, it certainly carries a stunning dynamic range, as all good art does.

"I still get into these ethical sticky spots" Artist Imposter Syndrome #8

Tue, 26 Nov 2024 17:00:00 -0700

"What the hell does it mean to be an artist?"
"One thing I love about Chrysalisbreak is, what I'm reaching for, is myself."
"I don't have a mini van anymore, and I haven't thrown up on purpose in a really long time."
~ Sarah Kappos
**Featuring "A Prayer to the Muses"

"The unpublishable" #7

Tue, 26 Nov 2024 17:00:00 -0700

"I write so we can come out of hiding...There were some truths that I had been holding until they were safe enough to share...there were times when it was too scary."

~ Sarah Kappos

"If I have no dreams, no soul, how can I raise children who matter?" #6

Fri, 18 Oct 2024 05:00:00 -0600

"How can I raise children who matter to themselves? Why do we raise kids and encourage them to go to soccer practice and draw pictures and learn how to do a magic trick and hang their artwork on the refrigerator and ask them what they wanna be when they grow up, if as soon as they have their first kid, it doesn't matter anymore?"

~ Sarah Kappos

"Appropriate for children"#5

Fri, 11 Oct 2024 05:00:00 -0600

Small moments. kid prayers. broken arms. Covid sucks.

"I don't have a bedroom, I have a drawer," Beckam.

"Human beings think they're so powerful and they kill all the animals, why don't they use their power for something better?" Pepper

"The refreshing nature of the details" #1

Sun, 06 Oct 2024 08:00:00 -0600

"It takes a really long time to live enough life to finish a work of art...To make something that really is true, and is gonna hold up over time, it takes a lot of back and forth, and a lot of doubt...working through a lot of doubt."
~Sarah Kappos

"This scale is not going to decide my wellbeing, anymore." #4

Thu, 03 Oct 2024 07:00:00 -0600

"If I set out to draw for example a leaf, and in my brain I think, 'I'm going to draw a good leaf.' There's no life in it. But if I look at an actual leaf and the veins in it and the specific lines of one leaf and I just try to capture the essence of it, there's life in that kind of a drawing. Chrysalisbreak is like that."

~ Sarah Kappos

"Some things become more precious with time." #3

Thu, 03 Oct 2024 06:00:00 -0600

"There's an entry in this episode where I very gently come to the realization that I have been trying to pray myself away, and I'm not going to do that anymore."

"The relationship you have to your body is the only relationship that you can be certain to have for your lifetime."

~ Sarah Kappos

"I'm just angry, and I feel like I shouldn't be." #2

Thu, 03 Oct 2024 06:00:00 -0600

"You're not failing, you're learning. It's so hard to learn when that voice is in my head telling me, you shouldn't feel this way.
One of the things this period of my life taught me is: It's okay, you're a young mom and you're gonna get mad. You and your kids are in this relationship, and you're both learning. I thought if I were a better mom that I wouldn't feel like I didn't know what I was doing...the truth is, I didn't know what I was doing!"

~ Sarah Kappos

Intro by Sarah Kappos

Thu, 03 Oct 2024 06:00:00 -0600

"All I knew was that I had written it, and it was true. I wrote it with quite a desperation. Almost like, if I don't just sit down and write the truth before I even really think about it, then I'm not gonna be able to get there."

~ Sarah Kappos

The author describes the simple beginnings of Chryslisbreak, and why she chose to record her own story in her own voice.