Not So Anonymous

Swan Song

Tue, 25 Jan 2022 00:00:00 -0700

On Dylans final episode of Not So Anonymous the guys reminisce on everything this podcast has done for them and all the memories they have made along the way, Donny has a date, Jordan makes a public apology, Gumer romances the drink, and Dylan signs up to be the first guest on this "End of an Era" episode of Not So Anonymous

God Shots in Ohio

Tue, 18 Jan 2022 00:00:00 -0700

Today we wrap our conversation on 12 steps by discussing the different ways we have experienced a spiritual awakening, and how we give back what was so freely given to us. Dylan, Gumer, and Jordan are mind blown as Donny recaps his God shot life saving trip to Ohio on this weeks episode of Not So Anonymous.

Meditation, Manifestation and.....

Tue, 04 Jan 2022 00:00:00 -0700

The guys continue their conversation on the steps as we dive into some benefits and skepticism on prayer and meditation. Donny takes a trip to outer space, Dylan knows more about God than anyone, Jordan believes masturbation is meditation and manifestation all in one and Gumer eats mushrooms and dies in this “conscious contact” episode of not so anonymous.

The All White Party

Tue, 28 Dec 2021 00:00:00 -0700

We continued to take personal inventory. It’s important that once we get to the tenth step we maintain the willingness we showed in steps 4-9 and identify our character assets and liabilities. Jordan quits the podcast, Donny flexes his social skills on Dylan while Dylan deals with social anxiety and Gumer has a resentment toward an old lady in this “promptly admitted” episode of not so anonymous.

Making Amends to Drunk People

Tue, 21 Dec 2021 00:00:00 -0700

Have you ever had to make a difficult apology to someone? This week the guys discuss the difficulty and freedom when we make an honest amends for our actions and arrive at the place of forgiveness. Dylan isn’t working his steps, Gumer makes an amends at a drunken party, Donny swings a hammer on acid and Jordan thinks his ex might take him back in this “my side of the street” episode of not so anonymous.

37 Text Messages About Relapse

Tue, 14 Dec 2021 05:00:00 -0700

Have you ever genuinely wanted to have your character defects removed? Tune in and hear the process the guys took and the changing defects of character they deal with. Dylan hustles a kid for his shoes, Jordan decided he has no defects of character, Gumer steals money and gets a free lunch from QT and Donny stores his character defects in his cargo short pockets in this “humbly asked him to remove” episode of not so anonymous.

I'm Not Gonna Share My Secrets

Tue, 07 Dec 2021 00:00:00 -0700

The guys finish up their talk on the 4th and 5th step. Gumer runs the show, Jordan finds out he is not perfect, Dylan stops talking shit, and Donny goes through puberty in recovery, in this slightly awkward sex and secrets filled episode of Not So Anonymous.

Prayusin- Take Twice Daily

Tue, 30 Nov 2021 00:00:00 -0700

the guys continue their work on step four and cleaning out the wreckage of their past. Dylan got an empty storage unit, Gumer didn't like Dylan, Donny is a hugger, Jordan digs deep on this fear heavy episode of Not So Anonymous

Dirty Recovery

Tue, 23 Nov 2021 00:00:00 -0700

We took a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves. How difficult can it be to dig deep into our own inventory and discover our true character? Dylan forgot to put a seat belt on his fourth step note book, Jordan tries not to black out, Donny is getting sick because of Gumers secrets and Gumer has an incredible breakthrough as the guys ask and answer some difficult questions in this moral inventory episode of Not So Anonymous.

Clocked In

Tue, 16 Nov 2021 00:00:00 -0700

What is step 3 and why can it be so difficult to turn our lives over to God? The guys discuss a tough time in their recoveries and the result of living in self will. Dylan isn’t allowed to go to Mexico, Jordan sponsors Donny and Gumer’s days are numbered in this God’s will (sometimes) episode of Not So Anonymous.

Group Interview

Tue, 09 Nov 2021 00:00:00 -0700

We came to believe. The guys dive into step 2 and the experience in coming to believe. Can Donny take on Mother Nature? Is Jordan drinking fireball? Is Gumer awake? Who gets the job at Costco? Tune in to this higher power episode of Not So Anonymous to find out.

Meth Causes Unmanageability

Tue, 02 Nov 2021 00:00:00 -0700

What does unmanageable mean to us? The guys reflect back at the denial of their addictions, the bottoms it took them to and the surrender that eventually took place. Donny used a steak knife on his legs, Dylan pees in his closet, Jordan leaves the bar unattended and Gumer goes to jail every other weekend in this “powerless” episode of Not So Anonymous

She Was Bigger Than Me

Tue, 05 Oct 2021 00:00:00 -0700

Is it still good enough to just stay clean today in our recoveries? Jordan has 2 weeks of no character defects, Donny has great ideas in his active addiction, Dylan runs for Mayor of his city and a Gumer discusses the difficulty of losing his mother is this “go to any lengths” season finale of Not So Anonymous.

70 Bucks A Pop

Tue, 28 Sep 2021 00:00:00 -0700

What does it mean to be present and what are the benefits and hardships that come with it? Donny tries to use a sperm bank to buy crypto, Jordan is allowed at his sisters wedding, Dylan gets high on pre work out and Gumer becomes an emotional pillar during the toughest time of his families life in this God did for me what I couldn’t episode of Not So Anonymous.

Whippits For Lunch

Tue, 21 Sep 2021 00:00:00 -0700

It’s been a tough couple of months for Gumer. After experiencing a shoulder injury, his kids and family getting sick, and ultimately losing his brother while his mother is still in the hospital find out how he turns to his program, accepts help, finds connection and re-establishes a relationship with God in this “he ain’t lying” episode of not so anonymous.

Are You Still in Recovery?

Tue, 14 Sep 2021 00:00:00 -0700

Service work is one of the best ways to stay clean and get out of selfish, self centered behavior. Even when we really don’t want to, the guys make themselves available to go on 12th step calls, mission trips, H&I meetings and messed up trips with other people’s luggage in this selfless (kind of) episode of not so anonymous.

Dry July

Tue, 07 Sep 2021 00:00:00 -0700

The guys make an attempt to cut pornography and masturbation out of their lives as they talk about the constant need for stimulation, how they were introduced to sex and any sexual traumas or insecurities they may face in this at times raunchy but healing conversation.

Voted Most Likely to Relapse

Tue, 31 Aug 2021 00:00:00 -0700

Triggers. What are they and when do they come? The guys discuss moments of triggers and how they dealt with them. Donny relapses, Jordan hides from his parents, Dylan lies to a sponsee and Gumer just needs a week off the drugs in this mindset matters episode of not so anonymous.

A Backpack Full of Receipts

Tue, 24 Aug 2021 00:00:00 -0700

How many of us have used drugs against our will? The guys talk about the moments of active addiction and a life lived with out choices. Donny puts 2 dollars in the gas tank, Gumer has a weird collection, Jordan makes the walk of shame and Dylan writes himself a letter in this “I can’t stop” episode of not so anonymous.

Two Headed Pigeons

Tue, 17 Aug 2021 00:00:00 -0700

It was an amazing July for the guys. Jordan got 18 months, Dylan got 2 years and Donny celebrates his 30th birthday with a rock, the crack and a flop. Tune in to this survivors guilt feeling, gratitude packed, fellowshipping, complexed emotional episode of not so anonymous.

We've Got A Caller

Tue, 10 Aug 2021 00:00:00 -0700

What are our attitudes like after some time in recovery? Are we practicing acceptance and willing to change our behavior or are we sitting in self pity? Dylan calls AM radio stations while getting high, Gumer can't get out of his will, Jordan doesn't want to be sad anymore and Donny hits his friends in this attitude of gratitude episode of not so anonymous.

Trained By Trauma

Tue, 03 Aug 2021 00:00:00 -0700

The guys take their first dive into the traumatic experiences that shaped their lives and addictions. They touch on their active drug addiction, watching family in addiction, along with the emotional and sexual abuse that took place in this vulnerable conversation.

Donny Did It

Tue, 27 Jul 2021 00:00:00 -0700

The boys are all over the map and all over in general in this war story packed, spiritual experience filled, finally becoming teachable episode. Donny finds love in a bar, Dylan becomes a local in Hawaii and Jordan outlasts all the guys in a competitive game of who makes it back to the rooms first. #wheresgumer

A Conflict Resolved

Tue, 20 Jul 2021 00:00:00 -0700

Not So Anonymous is back with a behind-the-scenes look at what led to our break. The boys hash out feelings and get back on the same page the best way we know how, by getting on the mic and hitting record. Take a live look into our recovery on the Season 2 premier of Not So Anonymous

I Did Koko Head

Tue, 25 May 2021 00:00:00 -0700

Jordan takes a trip to Hawaii and speaks on his needed break from the everyday life of recovery and why he was able to do that after establishing his program as his foundation. Donny and Gumer blow things up in their head and Dylan struggles to stay awake in this I get to do this episode of not so anonymous.

A Skosh of Fetty Wap

Tue, 18 May 2021 00:00:00 -0700

After relapses and failed attempts to get clean we were always welcomed back to the rooms. Donny breaks his foot in Mexico, Dylan tries to dodge a process server, Jordan plays the tape through and Gumer tries not to burn it to the ground in this keep coming back episode of Not So Anonymous.

You Know About Good Crack?

Tue, 11 May 2021 00:00:00 -0700

We take a trip down memory lane as Jordan shares his goodbye letter to his ex lover... alcohol. The letter brings us to a discussion on our current state of recovery and the ups and downs we face as new challenges arise and new goals are set in this delayed gratification episode of not so anonymous.

Sobriety of California

Tue, 04 May 2021 00:00:00 -0700

The guys speak about times of trying to moderate their drinking or just stay away from their drug of choice while holding on to the idea that they can still get high. We touch on California sober, suboxone and distant crutches used in this highly opinionated episode of not so anonymous.

I Wasn't Gonna Get More Sober

Tue, 27 Apr 2021 00:00:00 -0700

It’s been an incredible week for the guys. Full of ups and downs, triumphs and trials. Hear what happens when we take another step in recovery, achieve long term goals and form new habits while breaking tough old ones in this boot glueing episode of not so anonymous.

Gumer Goes To Rehab Pt. 2

Tue, 20 Apr 2021 00:00:00 -0700

This week Gumer opens up about a vital assignment during his stay in a Tijuana rehab that changed his life. He touches on sexual abuse, emotional confusion and what happened when he got absolutely honest in this pen to paper episode of Not so Anonymous.

I'm Gonna Date Everybody

Mon, 12 Apr 2021 00:00:00 -0700

Relationships in sobriety can be tricky. This week the guys discuss getting clean while married, dating inside of the rooms and the fear often attached to trying to date for the first time in sobriety.

Crack Rockets and Eye Sockets

Tue, 06 Apr 2021 00:00:00 -0700

What happens when we humble ourselves and work our programs? Jordan and Gumer talk about the process of getting new sponsors and re working the steps, Dylan burns his eye ball and Donny is up past his bed time in this self inventory taking episode of not so anonymous

Your Friendly Neighborhood Atheist

Tue, 30 Mar 2021 00:00:00 -0700

The boys have an important conversation on their different relationships, perspectives and struggles with God and share their different outlooks their journey has provided so far. We touch on sobriety, the church and life with and without God.

Splashing Puddles in My Sick

Tue, 23 Mar 2021 00:00:00 -0700

The boys talk about the importance of sponsorship and their experience with it. The guys fire Dylan as their sponsor as Donny offers up their sponsorship to the newcomers in this 12th stepping episode of not so anonymous.

I Don't Think I'm a Drug Addict

Tue, 16 Mar 2021 00:00:00 -0700

What are our priorities after some time in recovery? Are we still willing to go to any lengths to stay sober? The boys reflect on the journey and take a look at what’s important in our lives in this death row, “don’t take the first drink” episode of not so anonymous.

I Never Paid For It

Tue, 09 Mar 2021 00:00:00 -0700

Years of hard work comes together as the boys share a trip for the record books. Full of fellowship, moments of serenity, bad friends to snowboard with and a return to passion on this Gods timing episode of not so anonymous.

You Went Full Fight Club

Tue, 02 Mar 2021 00:00:00 -0700

I can’t, but we can. This week we discuss the power of recovering together and struggles of when we try and do it alone. Donny chops up a semi truck, Gumer goes full fight club and loses track of reality, and Dylan and Jordan simply want to watch the movie about the two in this unity packed episode of not so anonymous.

That Was A Close One

Tue, 23 Feb 2021 00:00:00 -0700

Thank God for narcan as the boys talk about the insanity of addiction and the places it brings us. Find out why Donny ruined an ambulance, Dylan was offered milk, Jordan never made to the big game and Gumer stayed on the streets in this episode of not so anonymous.

Face Everything and Rise

Tue, 16 Feb 2021 00:00:00 -0700

The meeting after the meeting is in full effect as Dylan opens up about going through a difficult time in recovery. The guys chime in and discuss the roller coaster of recovery and the tools we use to get through the tough days.

I Was High

Tue, 09 Feb 2021 00:00:00 -0700

The boys reflect on the hard times that led them to recovery and the beauty that came of it. Gumer floods a warehouse, Dylan drinks the wrong bottle, Jordan’s heart was broken and Donny is....Donny, in this defects turned to assets episode of Not So Anonymous.

365 Days

Tue, 02 Feb 2021 00:00:00 -0700

Our boy Jordan celebrates 1 year of sobriety and reflects on how he got there. Dylan gets fired from the podcast, Donny tries to show emotion and Gumer fights an imaginary person in the shower in this delirious episode of not so anonymous.

Progress Not Perfection

Tue, 26 Jan 2021 00:00:00 -0700

The guys reminisce on what it used to be like, Donny smoked cigarettes on airplanes, Gumer drove 24 hours to pick up, Jordan has a phobia of bugs, and Dylan hates the pink cloud. As we strive for progress not perfection, we are blown away at the difference recovery has made in our lives.

F*** Everything And Run

Tue, 19 Jan 2021 00:00:00 -0700

Dylan quits his job and doesn’t get invited to the strip club as the boys have an in depth conversation on fear and moments of overcoming that fear. Get ready for the great debate on the acronym for fear between Donny and Jordan, the spiritual experience of a cold shower by Gumer, and the challenges of changing a culture of a family.

I Was The Color Red

Tue, 12 Jan 2021 00:00:00 -0700

The boys take a “trip” down memory lane and discuss early signs and times of life getting unmanageable. Hear how Jordan became the color red, why Dylan hates Vegas, why Gumer gives away hotel rooms to homeless people and how Donny got more than he bargained for before a long day at work.

Dont Let The Boys Play With Fireworks

Tue, 05 Jan 2021 00:00:00 -0700

Happy new year! Join us as the boys reflect a little on 2020, talk about some goals for 2021 and even get a group therapy session in for our boy Gumer.

I Got Banned From Columbus, Ohio

Tue, 29 Dec 2020 00:00:00 -0700

What happens when four alcoholics stop working their programs? They get messed up in the head pretty quickly. The boys cheer up though once they start talking recovery and about some crazy moments in their active addiction. Tune in for a recovery packed, hotel firing, "I don't know what happened last night" episode of Not so Anonymous.

Recover Out Loud

Tue, 22 Dec 2020 00:00:00 -0700

The vibes are good as the boys discuss the power and freedom of recovering out loud and the stigma of being an addict. Tune in for some great laughs and honest talk about different ways to use microwaves, heart shaped jacuzzis, a heart attack (maybe) and the blessings of sobriety.

He's Not Ours

Tue, 15 Dec 2020 00:00:00 -0700

Tune in to hear an emotional recap of Donnys recent past as he discusses some hard family losses and how God stepped in to do for him what he could not do for himself. Just as one life was taken a chance to save another comes along in this hilarious but intimate episode.

This Is Why We Recover

Tue, 08 Dec 2020 00:00:00 -0700

We know why we got sober. Why do we stay sober? This week we'll get into some stories and experiences that keep us hooked on the journey of recovery and show us that our hard work is paying off.

TRIGGERED!

Tue, 01 Dec 2020 00:00:00 -0700

This week the boys discuss their experience of being around others who still party while in recovery. What's it like? When do we set the boundary and when do we just bounce? Listen in on some good conversations and good laughs

That Party Was Lit

Tue, 24 Nov 2020 00:00:00 -0700

How do we have fun once the drugs and drinking is not an option? The boys discuss the amazing and fun times in our journey of recovery.

Shots Fired

Tue, 17 Nov 2020 00:00:00 -0700

Our conversation this week turns to the more incredible and undeniable experiences of God working in our lives. If Donny's cars don't prove it, we don't know what will.

1-800-GET-GUMERED

Tue, 10 Nov 2020 00:00:00 -0700

Get ready for a gas station fighting, red tutu high heel wearing, carrot in the ass wood chopping episode of Not so Anonymous. Join us for a discussion on our experience of making the most difficult but best decision of our lives, going to rehab.

You Really F***in Hated This Job

Tue, 03 Nov 2020 00:00:00 -0700

Get ready to hear from one angry barista as we discuss the lies we tell ourselves of feeling like a failure early in recovery. From moving back home to getting fired by our own sibling, we laugh and discuss what really matters...we're clean today.

Dylan's Delusional World

Tue, 27 Oct 2020 00:00:00 -0700

This week the tables are turned as we get into a bit of Dylan's story. From the highs of the warped tour to the lows of a McDonald's bathroom we take a ride down memory lane as we learn more about his drug addiction.

Cargo Shorts & Dress Shoes

Tue, 20 Oct 2020 00:00:00 -0700

Packed with rolled cars, a visit to top golf and an odd sense of fashion we get into a tough but important conversation on the effects we had on our families and the difficulty of loving an addict.

Law of Attraction

Tue, 13 Oct 2020 00:00:00 -0700

From Ohio to Seattle, right back to Phoenix. It doesn't matter where we go, there we are. Join us for a funny and important conversation about the importance of changing people, places and things in recovery.

Johnnie Cochran

Tue, 06 Oct 2020 00:00:00 -0700

Need a lawyer? Don't call Dylan. Join us for some H&I, homeless nudity and court hearings as we discuss the importance and healing of asking for help and the consequences of when we don't.

Soup of the Day

Tue, 29 Sep 2020 00:00:00 -0700

Join us this week for a conversation about sex in recovery. Filled with trips to the adult store, performance enhancers, energy drinks and of course...the program. Tune in to hear the funny and the serious sides of different ways our addictions can manifest.

Jails, Institutions and Death

Tue, 22 Sep 2020 00:00:00 -0700

This weeks episode is dedicated to those still struggling in active addiction, to those who have lost their lives to this battle and to their friends and family who have felt the pain of their loss and struggles as we discuss some harsh realities of drug addiction.

Hillbillies, Covered In Dirt, In North Carolina

Tue, 15 Sep 2020 00:00:00 -0700

Get ready for this drug induced, action packed road trip with Donny. Filled with bad luck, angry bosses, shady dealerships and one great friend as Donny shares a bit about his "road" to recovery.

The Peak of My Downfall

Tue, 08 Sep 2020 00:00:00 -0700

Take a ride with Jordan to the dispensary, the hospital and to get some "pho" (noodle soup to the culturally inexperienced) in this hilarious and intimate episode of Jordan's struggle with alcoholism

Gumer Goes To Rehab

Tue, 01 Sep 2020 00:00:00 -0700

"Do You Boys Like Mexico" In this episode Gumer shares with us his wild off the wall experience going through rehab in Tiajuana Mexico!!!

I'll Do That For $10

Tue, 25 Aug 2020 00:00:00 -0700

In this episode we will get into early recovery, pivotal moments of surrender and hilarious moments in our addictions!